Array
(
[text] =>

Kenyamo POV....

I laid in my bed waiting for all this to be a dream. I haven't left this house in two damn days and yesterday was the first time I went downstairs. The only thing I wanted to do was shower and sulk. I'm still hurt about Monty having a baby and then she bad as hell so I can't hate on her.

"Kenyamo come on little brother let's go it's not the end of the world" Kassidy said knocking on my door. She didn't get that it was the end of something for me. My heart was broken it was supposed to be me with the family. It was supposed to be me having a family with him not that bitch.

My heart is killing me beyond what I've ever felt. He's done nothing but hurt me then love me. He builds me up to break me down everytime. It's like I'm glass he breaks me, puts me together just to throw me against the same fucking wall. I'm still in love with him and he doesn't see how much he hurts me. It's like he doesn't give a fuck about me at all.

"Go away Kassidy" I said as Beyonce x I Care played on repeat. I hated how much this song made me think of him. I couldn't help it because I related to thins song so much. Kassidy came in my room and pulled my sheets off me. She laid next to me and put her chin on my shoulder.

"I'm trying Kassidy I really am" I said holding my tear stained pillow tight. I just wish it was him at this point I was holding. It's impossible to get him to leave her alone especially with the child in the mix. I don't want to pull a father away from his child although he wouldn't stop messing with her even if I asked. He's that much of well himself that he would still fuck her.

I mean shit he fucked her while with me but that's how the cookie crumbles. "Boo listen he's a nigga and niggas gone always be niggas so get up and get a new one" she said rubbing my arm up and down. I loved the fact she was her for me right now. I mean everybody has been supportive but it's not a big deal. He's not my boyfriend but when I told Kassidy and my momma why I hurt so much they felt bad for me.

I ready should pick myself up and get it together. I've been through worse than this but it was more so the shock of it that killed me. "You're right Kass" I said getting out of the bed. I opened up the blinds and let the sun in. I squinted my eyes at the sun and looked outside.

I looked down and saw Monty car pull up to the driveway. I quickly closed the blinds back and heard the car door close. "What is it" Kassidy said walking over to me. She looked out the blinds as Monty got out the car. He walked his bow-legged bitch ass to the door. He rang the door bell and Kassidy ran as fast as her thick ass could down the stairs.

I tried stopping her but it was no use the girl was gone. "Who the fuck you think you is coming here and for what your not welcome" I heard Kassidy say as I stood at the top of the stairs. "Man look where my baby at I'm not trying to hear all that shit you talking about" he said with a mean tone.

He still calls me his baby. Hearing that made a small smile come across my face. "Nigga your baby is at home with your baby momma" Kassidy said with a whole hell of a lot of attitude. I started walking down the stairs and stood on the last step. Monty looked at me as Kassidy kept her back towards me.

"Kenyamo wh-" Monty started but Kassidy stopped him. "Naw homie that ain't happening like that" Kassidy interrupted him and when he tried to come inside she pushed him back. He slapped her hand away and when she was about to attack him I pulled her inside.

"Kenyamo you need to let me beat his ass I've been waiting to do it since y'all started dating" Kassidy said trying to fight him but I kept her restrained. I didn't want her to fight him because he's not worth her going to jail over. Kassidy fights to kill and I've seen her work and well she's a dangerous female.

"Kassidy stop it let me handle this" I said trying to calm her down. She wasn't giving up her fight to really fight Monty though. "Kenyamo I just wanna talk to you 15 minutes is all I need please" Monty said stepping into the house. I looked at him and into his eyes I just couldn't say no.

I might get something from it but it doesn't hurt to try again. The first time it wasn't easy to do but I went in trying to be something I'm not. I think maybe if he sees how much it's killing me then maybe something can be resolved. "Fine go wait in your car I'll go take a shower and change" I said and he smiled and went to his car.

I went upstairs with Kassidy following behind me. She didn't need to say a word I heard the anger in her footsteps. She wasn't pleased with my decision but I'm making it and I feel like I need this. I don't need him I just want an explanation at this point.

I started running my shower as Kassidy sat down on my bed. "Ken I don't know how many times you gone keep saying yes to him" she said propping herself against the headboard. I took off my shirt and basketball shorts. "Kassidy look I'm just trying to close that chapter in my life it needs to be over now because I need to move on and I can't if I'm being haunted by him every damn day of my life" I said going into my bathroom.

I closed the door and locked it. I don't like dealing with this everyday of my life. I'm not excited about hearing his dumb ass excuses to why he's done the shit he's done. However, I do know that I need to close him out. I doubt he'll ever get his shit together and I won't be apart of his life anymore.

Monty POV...

I sat here waiting for him to come out of the house so I can properly explain to him what's going on. It's not the way he thinks it is. "Hello" I said answering my cell phone. It was Variah calling me about some dumb shit.

I won't front and act like I don't care about her but the person I'm in love with is pushing me away. He's not letting me back in despite the mistakes I made. I'm not perfect but I'm worth it for Kenyamo. I've never had a relationship as real as ours. I mean yes I had him doing some disrespectful shit but it was for good reason.

I was in my thoughts about what I'm fighting for when Kenyamo walked out. He stood at the front door and walked a little bit out. I waved him over to my car and he shook his head. I rolled down my window and told him to get in. "Nope I'm not getting in there if you wanna talk you get out and talk to me" he said folding his arms.

He can be so difficult at times to be honest. It's a turn on because it makes me chase him and need him even more. I got out the car and we stood in the heat and I wasn't into it. "Ken it's hot as fuck out here can't we just sit in the car with the A.C. man my balls gone be sweaty as hell" I said chuckling.

I tried breaking the silence but his face was resting and it wasn't nice. His resting bitch face was something serious it wasn't nice but it wasn't ugly. "I'm gone leave the door open if I do get in" he said rolling his eyes. The sweat pellets from his forehead was sliding down the side of his head. I walked to the car and got in.

I turned on the A.C. and he opened the door and sat in it with one leg out. "So what's up Monty you come over here and you talking so Monty what's good" he said with an attitude. This heat must be getting to his head because he knows not to talk to me like that. I love him to death but I won't be disrespected by him.

"Kenyamo what happened a few days ago wasn't meant to happen and I'm sorry about it" I said and it felt like I was talking to a brick wall. He wasn't there with me and it was hurting me. "My thing is Monty you had a fucking baby while you were with me though and you had me thinking I was the only one" he said not even looking my way.

That's true but it's like it was a mistake. I didn't mean to get the girl pregnant. She was a quick nut that turned into something else. I wanted to grab him and kiss him just to tell him how much I love and miss him. "Kenyamo I don't know what to tell you though you wasn't giving me no play so I had to fuck a random girl" I said trying to contain my emotions.

I'm not trying to break in front of him but it's hurting me that he's not listening. "That's no excuse Monty I was there for you and all the dudes I could've talked to I stuck with you through it all" he said getting madder with each word that left his mouth.

His anger was rising and I know when he is reaching his limits and he's reaching it. "Kenyamo I know you did alot for me and I'm more than apologetic about it than you think" I said grabbing his hand. He jumped slightly at the touch of my hand.

"I can't tell though because your not sorry your unapologetic and you don't care the fact that I care about you so damn much pisses me off even more" he said as his voice began to crack. I know I'm hurting him but I can't help how shit is going. "Ken baby I'm not-" I started. "I'm not your fucking baby!" he said yelling at me.

He hates that shit now? Before his ass left and disappeared he loved it. Before he let these fucking people get in his head he loved me calling him my baby. I don't give a shit about him not liking it he'll always be mines and I'm not giving up on him.

"Yes you are what did we say when we first got together Kenyamo?" I said sternly and he held his head down. He was quiet for a little bit and I repeated my question to him. "We said that no matter what happened we would always be together" he said lowly and he knows I meant exactly that.

When we made us an official couple he already knew how I was. "That's exactly what we said and I'm not going back on what we already made official" I said touching his side. He jumped because it was his hotspot. I wasn't trying to get sex from but in just love to see his reaction when I do it.

"I love you" I said in his ear and he got out." I just can't do this nope" he was yelling. I rushed out the car and grabbed his arm. "What the fuck Kenyamo" I said getting in his face. He was stepping back up to me and bucking his chest at me.

"Monty you put me through hell first it was the drugs, then the sex with strangers and then the abuse and I leave and come back and I'm supposed to be cool with it are you crazy?" he yelled at me. I'm slightly crazy but he is too when he gets mad and right now I can see he's getting there. "You know what Kenyamo I love you and since you got so much on your heart you need time and I should let you have it" I said throwing my hands up in surrender and walking away.

I think if I love him as much as I say I do I'll let him go. He needs to fix himself if we ever stand a chance to be together. "No stop answer me this....why did you make me do that shit if you loved me so much" he asked me with hurt filling his eyes quickly. I didn't have an answer for that and for the first time I was stuck.

He stood there looking at me and I looked at him. "I don't know it's too much Kenyamo it's just a long story I didn't want to man I don't wanna talk about it" I said snatching away from him. I got in my car and sat there looking at him. He looked hurt and I couldn't fix it. I've never been good at explaining myself but with him I have too.

I don't want to but he needs the reason and I can't give it to him. It's some shit that happened that he doesn't know and I'm scared if I tell him it'll push him away forever. I pulled away and he went back in the house. I felt my chest hurt and my heart was breaking because I hurt him.

I was driving home and I didn't want to. I didn't mean to hurt him even more than I already have. I think I made it worse by coming over here. My phone was ringing and it was Variah. "What's up" I said dryly at her calling me. "Where the fuck is you at Monty your daughter is crying and I need to go out so come home and take care of her" she said yelling at me.

She's so fucking aggravating I hate her ass. I don't know why she was acting all happy in front of Kenyamo when we're not happy. She's lazy, annoying, bitchy, and a complete downer. She used to be a cool ass girl but when I lost interest she switched up on a dude.

"Man alright I'll be right there" I said hanging up the phone. I went to my house and went inside. She was standing by the door waiting for me. I walked right by her and to my daughter. Variah was yelling about me not being here and just talking a bunch of bullshit. "Variah go where the fuck you gotta go" I said yelling at her.

She rolled her eyes and left the house. This not going to work for me right now. I don't want her but I love my child. I know she's mine because we had a test done. I'm not worried about Variah and her bullshit when I don't care about it. I care about Kenyamo I just need to focus on him and my daughter right now.

Hope you all enjoyed!

Thoughts on this chapter?

What do you think about Monty chasing Kenyamo?

Will Kenyamo move on or keep going back to Monty?

Love you all and yesterday was my 1 year of writing on wattpad! It's been one hell of a year on wattpad and I hope for a few more!

See y'all soon...😘😘

-FlawlessTae

[text_hash] => e031d31c
)