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Variah In MM....

Kenyamo POV....

I stood there and he looked at me. I was frozen because he looked good. This might not have been such a good idea but what the hell I can't high tail it out now. "What you doing here" he said confused by my presence.

"If you don't want me here I can leave" I said about to turn away but instead he grabbed me. I heard the car door open and Kayvon hopped out. "Get your fucking hands off him" Kayvon yelled and Monty was still holding onto me. He sighed and slowly released me from his body.

"It's not like that I just wasn't expecting you to pop up here you wanna come in?" he asked me. I nodded my head and we went inside. I stood close to the door because I'm so used to coming in and doing what I wanna do.

"You can sit down anywhere you want Kenyamo you know your way around here" he said chuckling and I just stood there. I was nervous and scared out of my mind. I can't even believe I'm standing here in his house again. I think I overestimated myself as always.

I just walked to his living room and it was messy. It had liquor bottles , weed roaches and tobacco scattered across his glass coffee table. I sat on his couch and he went upstairs. I sat down and thought about all the times I had in here good and bad. I even thought about some memories we had in this very living room.

He came back down in a shirt and some shorts. I guess he felt the need to change for me but he didn't have to. "Can I get you a drink or something?" he asked as he was in the kitchen. I told him I'll take a water when I really needed a shot of something strong.

He came out the kitchen with 2 glasses of water and sat next to me. He gave me my glass and I took a sip and sat it on the coaster. "So what's up bae I really missed you and I was trying to talk to you at the Walmart but I lost it a bit" he said chuckling at the last part. Lost it a bit? He damn near lost his mind.

He really needs to stop calling me his bae because we're not together. He's not my boyfriend at all. "First I'm not your bae and I came here because I really think distance away from each other permanently is what's needed" I said nervously as he dropped his head.

His breathe was deep and heavy. "I can't do this again Kenyamo I can't stay away from you and you know this" he said looking me into my eyes. I saw the man I loved before all bullshit and his controlling ways came about. "Why can't you I'm sure your over me" I said questioning what I said.

The thing wasn't was he over me. It's really was I over him? Did I even want him to be over me? "I'm not you sound crazy and stupid you know when I said death couldn't make me love you any less and I meant that shit" he said as his eyes filled with something I never saw before. I couldn't explain it even if I tried.

"Monty your not going to put me through that shit you did before I ran away I shouldn't have to run from the love of my life but yet I did" I said getting upset because he's been this way since we started getting serious. I couldn't make a move without him knowing. I shouldn't have to run away from somebody I'm in love with.

"Well then why the fuck did you Kenyamo" he asked me getting visibly agitated because I wasn't being silent. I can tell because every time he gets upset with is when I'm withholding sex, not answering his calls and standing up for myself. I know him like the back of my hand.

"Why? Did you forget what you had me do for you? Don't sit here and act like you were the picture perfect boyfriend" I said raising my voice at him. He's really sitting here acting like he's done nothing wrong. He can't pretend like he never broke my heart, pieced it together and threw it against the wall again.

"I loved the hell out of you and that shit you did you could've stopped anytime you wanted to I didn't hold a gun to your head" he yelled at me. He's really pissing me off right now. He didn't hold a gun to my head but he held my heart and livelihood in his hands that's why I did it. I did that shit for him out of love.

"I fucking loved you and that's how you feel you went to jail and I had to help out because I loved you you was down and out, I sold my ass to help your ass out and even when you was good you and Jerari still made me do that shit by threatening my life and my mothers so don't do that shit" I yelled and started crying I stood up and started walking towards the door.

I was done with this conversation and him. "Kenyamo it's not how you think it is I'm telling you that you could've stopped that shit though" he said getting up and chasing after me. He's not understanding what I'm saying to him. "Randolph what part of I loved you and would do anything for you don't you get" I said about to slap the shit out of him.

"Don't call me that shit again and you loved me that much you did that shit why you never said that shit back then" he said confused as hell. Oh now he wants to play the caring boyfriend role. "Randolph Randolph Randolph and yes I did you was the love of my life I would've given my last whatever for you but you didn't care to do the same" I said wiping the tears that kept streaming down my face.

He didn't get why I would do that for him. I wasn't the smartest person in the world but I was deep in love. I was stupid in love to say the least. I gave my body up to strangers for money to help him when he was down and broke. I helped sell drugs with Jerari when he was in jail because they said they would've killed him when he got out if I didn't do it.

I couldn't let him die over some dumb shit. "Kenyamo I'm sorry"he said with a tear rolling down his face. I didn't care to hear it because I heard it before. I put both my hands on my ears to drown out his sorry ass apology.

He started grabbing my arms trying to remove them while still yelling he was sorry. "LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa I'm done hearing sorry LaLaLaLaLaLaLa" I kept repeating with my tears coming out. He started shaking me and I kept ignoring him and being petty. I was tired of the same lies and same old apologies from the same dude.

He stopped and looked at the door. "Monty bae I'm home" I heard a female voice say. I looked at him as he looked at me like he was hurt. She came into the living room with a little girl. I looked confused because I had no idea of who this was.

"Hey babe who's your friend"she said looking at me smiling. I smiled back at her and looked at the little girl. She was gorgeous well both of them was. "I'm Kenyamo I came by to see an old friend but I was just leaving" I said shaking her hand.

"Oh my are you okay honey you look like you've been crying" she said rubbing my back. I didn't know how to feel about what I'm seeing. He has a whole family with this girl. He was mines first this should've been me. He screwed up with me now he fixed his shit and he's with her now.

"Yeah babe he told me about his mom sickness and he got emotional a bit it's cool....hey daddies girl" he said as the little girl ran to him. He picked her up and kissed his cheek. Daddy? He has a whole fucking child this can't be serious. This shit is unfuckingbeliveable. She looks about 2 and I know I wasn't gone that long. He was fucking her while he was with me and got her pregnant is what my mind was saying.

"Kenyamo well I'm Variah and this is Amiyah" she said as Monty put the little girl down. I shook the little girls hand and she was so sweet and cute. I couldn't be mad at them because they weren't aware. However, Monty is officially on my shit list forever.

"Well come on Amiyah let's get you cleaned up for dinner it was nice to meet you Kenyamo" she said as she took Amiyah upstairs. "It was nice to meet you both as well"I said as I walked towards the door. Monty followed behind me and I didn't care to hear shit.

"Ken I can ex-" he said before I slapped him. I pushed him.but he didn't move. I let the tears fall because it was going to come sooner or later. I kept pushing and hitting him and he kept asking me to let him explain. There is absolutely nothing to explain to me at this point.

He had a whole ass child and didn't tell me. He was with her while with me but made me think it was only me. After all I did for him this is the thanks I get. "You know what don't even come by my mom house I hate you and despise you to the point of no return how could you do that shit?" I said gritting my teeth so that Variah couldn't hear me.

I opened the door and rushed out. He came behind me and grabbed my wrist. I turned around and punched him in his face. "Aww shit Kenyamo that shit hurt" he said holding his jaw. Hurt? He hasn't seen or felt hurt yet. "So does my heart but you'll get over it like you always do obviously" I said walking away. I walked past Kayvon's car.

"Ken where you going" he yelled while.I kept walking. I was hurt beyond belief I can't believe that shit. I came.to get closure but only ended up more hurt than what I came as. Kayvon pulled up alongside of me and I didn't stop walking. He got out the car and ran up to me.

"Kenyamo talk to me what happened?" he asked me. He stopped me and hugged me tightly. I cried into his shirt because that's what I needed to do. "He has another life and it hurts Kayvon it hurts so bad"I sobbed into his shirt. He rubbed my back and rocked me back and forth.

"Kenyamo he ain't shit and I had no idea about that I would've told you but come one let's get you home" he said helping me to the car. I wasn't strong enough to walk on my own. My emotions took over my whole body and it made me weak.

The only person I wanted right now was my mom. She could comfort me like only a mother could. We got to the car and soon after I couldn't even look back at his house. I laid non the backseat and silently let my eyes pour out all my feelings that I had.

We got to the house and Kayvon came to help me out. Tayshod was trailing behind us quietly. "what the hell happened to him" Kassidy said as I walked into the house. I went upstairs and didn't say anything to anybody. I went to my mom room and knocked on the door.

"Come in" she said and I opened up the door. She sat up in her bed and saw something wasn't right about me. "Just lay down baby it's gone be okay" she said and I laid in her bed. She held me as I let out my tears in her chest. "It's gone be okay baby you'll be fine" she said rubbing my back.

This was what I needed because I can't take this right now. He really had another child with a girl while he was with me. He lied to me and the fact we talked about adopting children one day but he moved faster than what I expected. "Ma my heart hurts he doesn't care at all he never did" I said holding her.

"It's okay Kenyamo just get some sleep shhhh it'll be fine trust your momma" she said and I evened out my breath. I laid there and let sleep overtake my body. I knew it wouldn't be a peaceful sleep but I needed to sleep though.

My heart is really filled with pain right now. He's broken me and we're not even together. I wanted us to be a happy family but he's moved on and I think that's what hurts the most. I was supposed to be her but that dream is dead and gone. I don't even know what to say. I'll have to move on like he has already done even before I left.

Monty POV...

I didn't mean to hurt him the way I did. I never meant for to find out this way. I love Variah but I'm still in live with Kenyamo. He's still the love of my life no matter who I'm dealing with. I made a mistake with her that made me have my daughter.

Sad to say I love my sidechick and I don't care what Kenyamo says he's still my boyfriend and he will be mines again. I'm not letting him go twice. I made fucked up decisions making Kenyamo help me out the way he did. He was staying with me and I got into some trouble so he helped me out.

I've been in love with him since we started talking to each other years ago. I just wanted to give him the world but I let my selfishness and temper get the best of me. I just pray to god it's not too late to get him back. I just want what I had before I went to the darkside of the world. I just want Kenyamo back in my life and I'm not stopping until he's mine I love him too much.

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New chapter coming Saturday!

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-FlawlessTae

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