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Dusk's P.O.V:

I stand there, not moving, feeling like I lost part of myself. I stare off into the distance, not knowing what to do anymore.

"Hey Dusk, how did it go with M-" I hear a voice say from the distance

"Oh my god, Dusk! Come back!" another voice yelled into the abyss

I feel a sharp pain in my cheek, bringing me back from the endless void of nothingness. I see Daniel, Alex, Derrick, and Simon in the room.

"Could you give us a minute?" Daniel asks them

They nod, and leave the room. I see Alex look back towards me with guilt.

"Hey, are you ok?" Derrick asks

"Does it look like he's ok?!?!" Daniel yells

"I-im f-f-fine..." I say as my voice cracks

"Hey, it's ok, you'll be ok." Derrick says trying to cheer me up

"I'm just going to head home..." I whisper

"Do you want us to come with you?" Derrick says concerned

"No, I want to be alone." I say

"Alright then, but don't do anything stupid" Daniel tells me

I nod my head, even though I know I couldn't keep my promise. I walk out of the room and see Alex and Simon talking in whispers. Alex looks guilty and Simon gives me a apologetic smile as I pass. I hear the door open behind me, and I look back to see Alex giving Daniel a hug, and Simon kiss Derricks forehead. I feel myself starting to tear up, so I run the rest of the way home.

I live with my mother, but she's always gone gamboling and partying. She doesn't really care about me, so I have to take care of myself. Luckily she doesn't bring any of her one night stands home. I decide to skip dinner, I'm not hungry, like usual. I wake upstairs to my room, and head to my bathroom. I pull out one of my blades, and start on my arm.

1 for being stupid

2 for causing dads death

3 for being a mistake

4 for falling in love

5 for thinking that I ever could be loved

I was getting dizzy, but I didn't care. I start on my other arm. I feel tears running down my face and I cant hold back anymore. I burst into tears and I pull my knees to my chest sobbing into them. I ignored the pain from my arms as I cry my heart out. My eyes are getting heavy and I close them.

I wake up groggily, hearing my alarm going off. I start to get up and hiss in pain as my arm brushes against my leg. I sigh as I start to clean up the blood. I grab a sweater and put it on, covering up my fresh cuts. I walk downstairs and see my mom passed out on the couch in the living room. She smells like alcohol and cigarettes. I ignore her as I rush out the door, heading to school. I don't feel like riding the bus, so I walk to school. I see our group hanging out together, and I feel a little jealous, but it's not their fault. I pull up my hood and sneak past them into the school.

I get to class, and I sit in the way back, ignoring everything. I put in my headphones and listen to some music (song above). The day continued in this routine, besides the occasional sightings of Max, and avoiding my friends. It's lunch right now and I'm hiding in one of the stalls in the bathroom playing games on my phone. I hear the door open and I hold my breath.

"Why won't you forgive him?" the first guy asks

"Because he deserves everything that is coming to him!" the second guy yells

"But, Dusk will end up dying because you rejected him!"

"I don't care, he's just a worthless  bitch, and why did you and Alex forgive them anyway?!?!"

"They are our soul mates, and they apologized to us!"

"You are fools, what's going to happen when they turn out to be lying to you and you get your heart broken?"

"If that happens then we'll deal with it when the time comes, and you are the fool for not forgiving him, when he dies just know it's your fault!" I hear Simon reply harshly

The bathroom door slams shut, and I assume Simon leaves

"They are stupid for falling in love." Max says, then leaves

I take a deep breath, and absorb the information that I learned.

'im going to kill myself?' I wonder as the bell rings ending lunch

I head to P.E and skip changing. I walk in the gym and see Max and the head cheerleader talking. I stare at them until she leans up and kisses him, and he kisses back. I look away feeling sick, and what's left of my heart shatters. I hold back a sob, but I can't stop my tears from coming.

I push past Daniel and Derrick as I run towards the exit. I run out of school to my tree in the park. I climb up it and just sit there crying.

'See, your soul mate rejected you, he doesn't love you...

-maybe it was a accident....

'Pff ya right, he was into it

-he was wasn't he...

'Yes, and your friends are just standing by, watching you suffer alone, they don't care about you

-they don't do they?.....

'Your better off dead, your ruining everyone's lives when your around them

-I am aren't I?

'Yes, you are, so why don't you do it already!

-ok.....

The dark thoughts won another fight. I climb down my tree, and head for the bridge. As I walk I listen to a song that I recorded when I heard Max playing. (song below)

https://youtu.be/7RjfbAFwfd4

I give a small smile at the memory, but it falls when I remember the past few hours. My tears won't stop falling, but I don't care. I see the bridge up ahead and I give a small smile.

"Soon it will be over, and everyone will be happy...." I whisper to myself

I climb up the ledge and look towards the sunset. It's beautiful I think to myself. I turn around and close my eyes. I lean back and let myself fall, the last sight I'll ever see it the sunset I think as I smile.

Authors note:

What's up everyone new chapter hype :P anyway, there is only going to be like one or two more chapters and then this story is over! hope your day was great, if not then I hope it gets better. 

P.S:  I am planning on writing another story, but this time I'll use a ship, so if there are any suggestions on which one leave a comment, because I don't know which one to pick xD

~Endlesskitkat

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