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Kellin's quiet all the way up to our room which is concerning. He's been so bubbly and enthusiastic all day. I begin to wonder if it's something I did, or perhaps he's thinking about Carter again.

The trip up to our room is long, but it somehow feels even longer due to Kellin's silence.

We make our way through our floor until we find our room. I take out the keycard to unlock the door but Kellin immediately snatches it from my hand.

"Babe?" he asks weakly.

"What's wrong?" I frown, tucking a piece of hair behind his ear, revealing his sad expression.

"I have a massive headache. If it's not too much to ask, can you get me some Tylenol from the drugstore around the corner?" he near whimpers.

"Oh of course." I coo, now even more worried about him. "Why don't you go rest up? I'll be back as soon as I can."

He nods, bringing a hand up to his forehead. I hope he's not in too much pain.

I place a gentle kiss on his temple before I rush back to the elevator. I take it down to the ground floor but it takes forever, seeing as we're only two floors shy of the top of the hotel.

When the doors open to the lobby, I rush out and hurry out of the building. I walk five minutes to the drug store around the corner and find the Tylenol pretty quickly, but then I have to wait in line at the register. I tap my foot impatiently as I wait for the chip reader to accept my credit card.

After I finally leave the drug store, Tylenol in hand, I make the long journey back to our hotel room.

"Kells, I'm back." I call through the door, not wanting to startle him with a knock.

"Close your eyes." he calls back, seeming to be just on the other side of the door.

"What?" I ask, unsure if I heard correctly.

"Close your eyes." he repeats.

"Why? Is everything okay?" I ask concerned and very confused.

"Just do it, Victor." he groans. "I'm not letting you in until your eyes are closed."

"Okay," I give in closing my eyes.

"Did you do it?" Kellin asks.

"Yep."

"Promise?"

"I promise." I chuckle.

"Don't open them until I say so, okay?" he orders, then I hear the door click open.

He takes my hand then I feel him lead me into the room. The door clicks shut behind us and we walk a few steps until Kellin makes me stop.

The sound of music immediately ceases my worry and confusion. Let's Get It On by Marvin Gaye is playing softly. I think I know exactly what is happening. I hope I know.

"Keep 'em closed." he whispers then kisses my lips softly before dropping my hand.

I hear him moving about then I hear the sound of the bed springs.

"Okay, open." he says coyly.

I eagerly open my eyes and discover that the room is dimly lit with candles and there's a trail of red rose petals to the bed. On the bed, sits my husband, surrounded by more petals as he sits on his knees staring at me and biting his lip.

The best part though? He's wearing nothing but Calvin Klein underwear.

They're black with a pride-colored hem, and they're tight. They cup him perfectly and expose the right amount of thigh, which is a lot of thigh.

"Oh fuck." I breathe in sheer gay panic.

He let's out a quiet chuckle, blushing furiously.

I glance down at the box of Tylenol in my hand.

"Did, did you..." I trail off and swallow hard. "Did you need the Tylenol?"

"No, I just had to get you out of the room so I could do this." he grins, gesturing to the romantic scene.

"You're very sweet. You didn't have to go to all this trouble." I sigh, placing the Tylenol on the nightstand and walking toward my gorgeous husband.

"You do sweet things for me all the time. It's my turn now." he smiles softly taking my hands.

He leans forward and kisses me. Then he drops my hands and places his palms on my chest.

"I really love this playlist." I murmur as Marvin Gaye continues to sing.

Don't you know how sweet and wonderful life can be?

I'm asking you baby to get it on with me.

Kellin just smirks and trails his fingers down to the hem of my shirt. I surrender myself to him as he pulls my shirt up and over my head.

I feel strangely comfortable. Maybe it's the music. Maybe it's Kellin's new underwear. I don't know what it is. All I know is that I'm ready this time.

Kellin leans down and kisses my collarbone. I run my hands down his back, feeling his warm skin under my fingertips. I rest my hands on his hips pulling him closer to me.

He stops kissing my collarbone and returns to my lips. I melt into him, somehow feeling satisfied yet needing more.

"Get on the bed." he instructs, pulling away from my already swollen lips.

I let go of him and kick off my shoes then sit on the bed, leaning against the head rest.

He smiles excitedly and climbs onto my lap, kissing me once again.

I suddenly remember last night and how Kellin freaked out, making me worry that I might trigger that again.

"Are you okay?" I ask softly, placing my hand on his chest to stop him.

He pulls back and smiles at me, sincerity reflecting through his eyes.

"I am. Talking to you last night, it really helped." he explains.

I'm filled with validation and warmth. I'm glad I could make him feel better. That's all I want.

"Also," he says slowly, staring down at his index finger as he glides it down my bare chest. "When I'm on top, of you, I feel, kind of, like, empowered, or something. I just feel more comfortable."

I grab his hand and place a gently kiss on his knuckles.

"I love that. I love that you feel comfortable." I smile. "And I kind of like you on top."

He meets my gaze and blushes furiously.

"I'm not saying that this is going to work, or go smoothly, but I have a good feeling about it." he explains.

"Good. We'll just try it out. See how it goes. If it doesn't work, we'll try something different next time." I assure him.

"Okay." he smiles.

He then kisses me again, and I notice that 'I'll Make Love To You' by Boys II Men is now playing.

I allow my hands to move down his back to the waistline of his underwear.

"Did you buy these just for me?" I grin, plucking at the fabric with my thumb.

"I did." he giggles. "Do you like them?"

"I love them." I beam, sliding my hands over his ass.

He leans forward and I think he's about to kiss me but instead he takes my bottom lip between his teeth, gnawing on it softly.

It's such a simple action but it drives my whole body crazy.

He then kisses where he just bit, and proceeds to trail little kisses along my cheek until he reaches my ear.

"Would you like to take them off?" he purrs.

I nod, swallowing hard to lubricate my now-dry mouth. I'm so flustered that I can't even speak.

"Me first." he grins, reaching for the button on my jeans.

He continues to undo them and soon he's pulling them off and throwing them on the floor.

He climbs back onto my lap and I let out a shaky breath, feeling myself hard against him.

"You okay?" he smirks.

"Sorry," I chuckle, resting my forehead against his chest.

"It's okay. Relax, babe. There's no pressure." he murmurs.

I nod, looking up and him and take a deep breath.

He cups my cheek and kisses me again.

I feel his fingers hook under the waist of my boxer-briefs, then he slips his hand inside. He gently rubs my shaft with one hand while still cupping my face with the other.

He soon slides his hand out and grinds himself down on me. I move my hands around to his ass and pull him closer to me.

He let's out the sexiest little moan, making me desperate to get him out of his underwear.

It's like he somehow reads my mind because he climbs off of me and takes the hem of the only piece of clothing that remains on my body, then he pulls it off.

He gives me a lusty once over then kisses me again.

"Your turn." he murmurs.

I grin and finally tug off his sexy underwear, leaving him completely bare.

He climbs back onto my lap and I look over him in wonder.

"You're so beautiful, Kells." I sigh.

"So are you." he smiles.

He runs his fingers down my chest one more time then he takes the bottle of lube from the nightstand where it had been left the night before.

He hands it to me so I pop the cap and coat my fingers in it. He leans forward and positions himself so I can slip my hand between his thighs.

He gives me a little nod so I slip a finger inside of him.

I watch him closely to make sure he's okay.

"I'm good. It's okay." he reassures me, giving me another nod.

I move my finger in and out of him before slipping in another one.

"Is that okay?" I ask him.

"Yeah, it's not too bad." he nods.

"We can go slow, Kells. Take as much time as you need, Love."

"I know. It's fine, I promise." he grins.

"Okay," I nod then slip the final finger in.

He looks a little uncomfortable as I push my fingers in and out of him, stretching him out.

But it's not long before he gives me another nod.

"I'm ready." he tells me.

I nod and pull my fingers out. He settles down on my upper thighs while I wipe my hand on the bed sheet and grab the condom from the nightstand.

I tear it open and slide it on, then I coat my length in lubricant.

"Okay," Kellin sighs as he shuffles forward and positions himself over me.

"Fuck, we're really doing this." I breathe, lining myself up with his entrance.

"We really are." Kellin murmurs, smiling at me lovingly.

He then lowers himself onto my shaft, going slow, until I'm fully inside of him.

He doesn't move after that.

"Are you okay?" I ask worried, noticing his clenched jaw.

"Yeah, it's uncomfortable but it's okay." he smiles.

Resting his palms on my chest for support, his begins carefully lifting himself up and down.

I can tell he's still uncomfortable which makes me feel bad because holy fuck does it feel good.

He picks up speed a little, my hands following his hips up and back down.

He suddenly squeezes his eyes closed and let out a shaky breath.

"Everything okay?" I ask, immediately filled with worry again.

"Yeah, it just feels good." he murmurs, blinking his eyes open.

"It feels good?" I ask to clarify.

He grins at me. "Yeah, it does."

"Good." I beam, relieved that he's enjoying this. That's all that matters to me.

He leans in and kisses me, still smiling between the touching of our lips.

"Does it feel good for you?" he asks when he pulls away.

"So good." I assure him.

"Good." he smiles.

I relax a little and take a moment to just admire my gorgeous husband. His body is so beautiful as it bounces on top of me, and the lusty pleasure in his eyes is just turning me on more.

And the way he's making me feel is indescribable. I knew sex would feel good, but I didn't expect it to feel this good.

I wrap my arms around his small back and pull him close to me so I can kiss his neck. I seem to disrupt his rhythm so I pick up the slack and thrust up into him.

He let's out a shaky moan and digs his nails into my chest as I suck softly on his neck.

"That feels, that feels good." he stammers out breathlessly.

I pull back and peck his tired lips before grasping his hips again, a little firmer this time. I guide him down onto me as I thrust up into him and out comes a beautiful string of soft moans.

I repeat the motion until I notice both of us getting sloppy with our movements.

A pressure in my crotch is building quickly, a pressure I'm all too familiar with–only for once, it's not because of my hand and I'm not alone.

I can tell Kellin's getting there too. I didn't expect this to last very long for either one of us. Honestly, I thought I'd be done by now.

I drop one of Kellin's hips and wrap my hand around his hard shaft. He squeezes his eyes shut again as I begin rubbing him and stroking him.

I kiss his chin, unable to accurately reach his lips through the fast, heavy pants coming out of his mouth.

"Shit," I whisper, feeling the pressure nearing its peak. I'm so close.

Kellin suddenly gyrates his hips in just the right way that my body can't take anymore. I'm overcome with pleasure as I spill into the condom, no doubt filling it up.

Kellin lets out a grunt as my hips jerk up and I'm pushed deeper inside him. After that, it only takes a few more strokes and a few more thrusts before he's finishing onto my stomach and my chest.

When he comes down from his euphoria, he rests down on top of me, seemingly unable to move. I can feel his legs shaking gently against my thighs.

His eyes stay closed until he finds it in himself to lift himself off of me and fall down beside me on the bed.

Missy Elliott's Friendly Skies plays through the near-silent room, the only other noise being Kellin and I's heavy breathing.

After a few minutes of catching my breath and processing what just happened, Kellin's hand grasps my cheek and turns my head to his.

He kisses me softly and I sink into his lips. This kiss for some reason feels just a little bit more special that the usual ones.

"I love you." he whispers softly, before kissing the tip of my nose and rolling onto his back again.

"I love you too." I smile at him, taking his sweaty hand in mine.

Although, he almost immediately pulls out of my grip and rolls off the bed.

"Come." he smiles, extending his hand towards me.

"I just did." I joke.

He whines and pinches the bridge of his nose in what I can only describe as shear disappointment.

"This is the guy I married. Unbelievable." he huffs, mockingly exasperated.

"Hey, you knew what you were getting yourself into." I grin, taking his hand and sliding off the bed.

He just rolls his eyes and pulls me towards the bathroom.

When he pushes the door open, I'm shocked to see another trail of rose petals leading to the steaming Jacuzzi that has petals floating on the surface of the water.

"You are amazing." I tell my husband, desperate to get into the hot water to soothe my already sore muscles.

I finally slide the condom off and tie the end before throwing it in the trash.

Then I help Kellin into the hot tub and I follow suit. I sit down and Kellin sits next to me but leans over to the control panel.

He pushes a few buttons and the jets turn on immediately shooting pulsating streams into my lower back and shoulder blades, exactly where I need them to be.

"Mm this is better than sex." I sigh, resting my head back.

"As if." Kellin chuckles in disbelief.

I look to him and see his cheeks tinted with blush. Fuck, he's adorable.

"No, you're absolutely right. That was incredible." I grin.

Kellin smiles coyly and looks away from me, his cheeks going even redder.

"Don't go getting shy on me now." I chuckle, nudging him with my elbow.

He giggles and turns back to me, nuzzling his face into my shoulder.

"I'm sorry." he murmurs. "This is all so new. It's a different kind of vulnerable."

I kiss his hair and wrap my arms around him tightly.

"I know. It's okay. You'll get used to it." I assure him.

He looks back up at me, still seeming a little shy but mostly comfortable. He kisses me gently and relaxes in my arms.

I replay the whole night in my head, thinking about how insanely perfect it all was.

"That was so hot, Kells." I breathe.

"It was." he agrees with a smirk. "Hopefully next time it'll last a little longer."

"We'll work up to it." I chuckle blushing a little. I'm glad it wasn't just me who finished quickly. That would have been embarrassing.

We don't talk for a while after that, the only sound filling the room being the bubbling Jacuzzi.

Kellin then clears his throat.

"Thank you," he says quietly. "for helping me feel comfortable and making sure I was okay. And allowing me to take control."

I hold him a little tighter in my arms and kiss his temple.

"Of course, Love. We're in this together. It wouldn't be fun unless we're both having fun." I explain.

"I'm open to trying other positions and stuff eventually. But I think I'll need some time. Being on top really helped ease my anxiety." he near whispers.

"Hey, that's fine, Kells. We'll just go slow. No pressure. I really like you on top. You're a little power bottom." I say playfully, hoping to lighten the tone of the conversation.

He giggles again and kisses my shoulder.

"I love you, Vic. I really love you." he sighs, with the absolute most sincerity.

I take his chin between my fingertips and kiss his lips ever so gently.

"I love you too, baby. You mean everything to me."

"You are everything to me." he counters.

"You're everything to me plus a million." I tease, poking his side, making him giggle.

"You're everything to me times a million." he grins.

"You're everything to me times infinity."

And that's how the rest of the night goes, until the sun is up and Kellin and I are horrendously wrinkled. And for once, the darkest hours aren't spent by myself, but with the love of my life by my side, where he always has been, where he always will be, where he belongs.

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The calm before the storm? xx

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