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Kenyamo POV....

He took my hand into his and we walked out of the bathroom. I opened the door and walked outside with Monty right behind me. He pulled out his keys and unlocked his car. I got to the car and got inside.

"Kenyamo where the fuck you going?" Kassidy said rushing outside. By the time she got to the car we was pulling out and then we sped off. I was sitting in my spot and felt horrible about being here. I'm messing with two dudes at the same time. Well technically I'm dating one and rekindling with the other.

It sounds stupid because I already know it is. I really want to be back with Monty but I want Tayshod too. "Where we going?" I asked him breaking the blissful silence. He looked at me and smiled. "Our favorite spot"he said holding his hand out.

Favorite spot? That could be a few places he needs to be specific. It could be the pier by the beach, the pizza palace or his bedroom. I needed to know which it was because those are our favorite spots that I know of.

I put my hand in his hand and we intertwined our fingers together. This felt like the first time we went out in public together. It was so much fun but weird at the same time. We had to use my friend Amerina as his girlfriend and I had to be the third wheel.

It was funny because even though they was supposed to be the "couple" he only paid attention to me. He barely even talked to her during the date. She moved to Atlanta with her girlfriend 5 months before I left. I wonder how she doing now.

"Is this it?" I said looking out at the beach. He smiled and told me to get out. I got out and we started walking towards the pier that we had alot of great memories at. I've done things with this boy I never in a million years thought I would do.

"You seem happy" he said putting his arm around me. I smiled and looked out at the sun that was getting ready to set. "I am happy" I said thinking really had about if I really was happy. I feel happy, my mind tells me I'm happy but my heart is saying something different.

We walked to the pier and sat down. I started swinging my legs and humming. "So let me ask you something" he said breaking me of my tune. I was about to bust out some lyrics if I kept going.

"What's good" I said in a joking way. He chuckled and took a deep breath. "Do you really like ole dude?" he said looking at me. I wanted to be completely honest and I should be. I have no reason to lie to him. Do I?

"Yeah he's really cool I'm feeling him" I said bluntly. I could tell it hurt him because his eyes closed tightly and he balled his mouth up. He always does that when he hears something he doesn't want to hear. His face went back to normal and he took a deep breath.

"Let me ask you something" I said before he could even get some words out. He nodded at me and I felt a lump in my throat develop. I was nervous about what I wanted to ask him. I wanted to know the answer but it wouldn't change my love for him.

"Do you love her?" I asked and then I held my breath. I felt like my whole breathing was shut off. He could throw out anything but I was more so hoping for a "no". "I don't love her at all but I love my child and in loving my child I have love for her" he said and I let my breath go.

I don't know what to say because as long as that damn child is her she'll be in the picture. I don't like it but I have to deal with it. Wait? Hold Up? I don't have to I'm making myself deal with it. "I can't do this" I said standing up. He did the same and said "what's wrong baby"?

He tried touching me but I wouldn't let him. "You....this whole thing is what's wrong I can't deal with it I can't stand to see you having something that strong with somebody else that's binding you two together for life" I said pacing back and forth.

I felt that lump come back in my throat again. "The fuck you mean? I'm not bound to that bitch I'm bound to you Kenyamo don't you get that shit?" he said getting upset. I didn't care I felt my senses come right in time. He doesn't get how strong a baby is between two people. Even if I'm here she's here with the baby.

They can have a whole ass family day and I wouldn't even be thought about because I'm not apart of it. "I get the love you got for me what your not getting is that you have a baby that's an automatic cock block, romantic time between us or anything that doesn't have to do with your baby" I said getting madder by the second.

"Fuck that shit you making excuses that be with that bitch nigga you was just all over me just awhile ago he must've texted you"he said getting my face. I was getting pissed off and so was he. This wasn't going to end well for one of us.

"Man so what if I do fuck with him it's not your business" I said pushing him away from me. He came back and got even closer to my face. "YOU FUCKING THAT NIGGA?" he yelled to the top of his lungs I saw birds fly. I didn't answer because I didn't feel the need to justify my actions with him.

He grabbed my arms and started shaking me asking me the same question. "Are you fucking him?" he kept yelling at me. I yelled back "so what if I am". He looked at me pissed and just pushed me off him. I fell back off the pier. I crashed into the water and thank god it wasn't deep because a bitch can't swim.

I stood up and saw him walking away. I walked out of the water with a wet face and my clothes sticking to me. I just walked and cried because I hate being wet with clothes on and then I had to let him go. I mean I've done it before but not like this. This was different I could tell we would be done for good.

I walked to the nearest bathhouse and went to grab my phone. The phone was ruined and it had heavy water damage. I threw the phone the wall in frustration and cried. I hated myself for even entertaining his clown ass. I went to a stall and sat there for awhile.

I was in disbelief that he would even push me in the water like that. I wanted to beat the shit out of him and he didn't even check on me. He knows damn well I can't swim. He's lucky it was shallow as hell or I might've died. I'm being over dramatic but it could still happen.

I went to the beach to find a lifeguard or somebody to call Kassidy or Kayvon. I just wanted to get my ass to the nearest phone possible because I wanted to go home. I walked around the beach and came upon a lifeguard in one of them big ass high chairs.

I walked up and tapped him on his leg. He came down and stood in front of me in all his shirtless glory. Baby boy was fine but I've had and got better so I'm good. "What you need" he said lifting his shades off of his face.

"I need to use a phone do you have one or know where I can find one?" I asked pulling the wet clothes off me but all it did was stick back on. I was irritated and my attitude and patience was wearing thin very fast. "I got one in my pouch homie hold on" he said reaching into his small pouch and taking out a small phone.

"Don't waste all my minutes" he said handing me his phone. I was about to burst into laughter because of his sorry ass phone but I can't because he's letting me use it. I dialed Kayvon number and he answered. "Yo who this" he said sounding like he was exhaling. He was probably smoking well knowing him he's smoking.

"It's Kenyamo come get me" I said in a rush because the lifeguard was getting impatient. Kayvon started coughing and took a big gulp of something. "Why you not with Kassidy?" he said confused. I rolled my eyes because I didn't care to explain what happened.

"I left to go somewhere and got stranded" I said irritated as hell because he was going to make me explain what happened. "Where is Kassidy at then?" he asked and I got pissed off I couldn't take the constant questioning. I would've been netter off calling Kassidy but I didn't care to hear the bitching.

"She's at Jalayna house now can you please come get me?" I said pleading with him to stop with the questions. I heard keys jingle in the background and a door close. "Where you at?" he asked as I heard the car door alarm go off. I told him where to get me at and he said "be there in 15 minutes". We hung up and I gave the lifeguard his phone back.

"Thanks for letting me use your phone" I said starting to walk away. He grabbed his phone and looked in it. "Good you didn't use up my shit and no problem next time stay out of the water in clothes" he said laughing and going back to his chair. I was about to read his life away but I wasn't in the mood.

I walked to the bench I told Kayvon to pick me up at. I sat there and was starting to dry off because it was warm outside. After looking at the water and the sun set I heard a honk. I turned and saw Kayvon car. I walked over and the window rolled down and it was Tayshod.

He examined me with his eyes ad I got inside the car. Kayvon petty as fuck for sending Tayshod instead of him. "Where Kayvon at?" I asked turning off the air conditioning that was blasting. It was bad enough I was still damp but I can't catch a cold.

"He went with Kassidy back to Jalayna house what's going on? Why you wet?" he said pulling my clothes then starting up the car. I just sat back and brushed off his question. "Can you take me home?" I said not looking at him. I'm not mad at him I'm more embarrassed than anything.

I was just caked up with Monty and Tayshod was trying to build something with me. It's just I need time to think. I know after today Monty isn't going anywhere but I'm not taking him back. I'm dead ass this time this was too fucking far. I really do like Tayshod I just had to see if it was worth it to try with Monty.

"I don't mind that babe but tell me what happened let's jot start us off bumpy I don't want that" he said rubbing my hand. I just shook my head and didn't know what to say to him. "I was hanging out with somebody and I got pushed in the water" I said making it sound lime it was no big deal. He skeptically looked at me like he knee it was a big deal.

He left it alone and kept driving. I wasn't trying to be distant from him at all. It's just would I tell him "I was with Monty and we was kissing and all over each other but now it's over". I can't tell him that because .the knows the history well whatever Kayvon told him. Then they all know each other so that makes it worse.

We pulled up into the driveway. I got out and went grabbed the keys out my pockets. I opened the door and ran upstairs to shower and change. I stripped and went to the shower quickly. I was washing my body when I heard the door open. I saw Tayshod in here with me.

"What you want?" I said looking him up and down. He removed his shirt exposing his body. It wasn't cut or even washboard. He had a small gut and I was turned on. I licked my lips and bit down on it. He came to the shower and pulled back the curtain.

"Somebody likes what they see" he said grabbing my erect manhood. I've never had anybody do this to me. I mean nobody has paid attention to my dick before. He kissed me and stepped into the shower with his basketball shorts and boxers on. He out his arm on the side of me and I put my hand in his shorts.

"Go deeper" he whispered in my ear. I went deeper into his pants and found exactly what I was looking for. I stroked his now hard as brick dick. It as about a nice 7 inches but it was thick a bit. I kissed his neck and he leaned his head back. The water was all over the both of us and it couldn't have been better.

I was in total bliss right now with him. I made a huge mistake thinking Monty could make me feel like this again. Nothing could mess up what was going on right now with me and Tayshod in this shower. I was about to get some dick that I've been craving.

"Kenyamo bring ya ass downstairs" I heard Kayvon bang on my door. Dammit! Shit! Fuck My Life! Why he have to mess up this moment? Of all the moments why this one? "For what?" I yelled back at him. "Why the fuck you go with that bitch nigga come down here now" he said kicking the door. Tayshod let me go and got out the shower.

"Give me 10 minutes" I yelled back and he said alright. Tayshod looked all types of frustrated. I pushed him against the wall and pulled out his dick. It started jumping as I pulled down his shorts. I squatted in front of him and proceeded to take him deep into my mouth.

Hell if I won't do it another bottom will and I can't have that. I was doing my thing and he was enjoying it because he was biting down on his bottom lip. "Shit Ken" he said as I felt him swell up. I sped up and he was erupting and I moved my head away and stroked him while spitting out what was in my mouth.

"Damn Ken my bad baby that shit snuck up on me" he said resting his body against the wall for support. He brought me up and kissed me. "Let me brush my teeth and go downstairs before Kayvon burst up in here" I said turning to the sink.

He pulled up his pants and went to my room. I finished brushing my teeth and I went to find a tank top and some shorts to put on. I wasn't going back out but I can be comfortable. I found my clothes and laid them on the bed.

I put on some lotion and then put on my clothes. "How you gone get out?" I asked Tayshod who was just chilling on the bed. "I'll get out while y'all talking I'll sneak out the backdoor more than likely" he said just as simple. I shrugged and gave him a kiss before I left out.

I went downstairs and Kassidy and Kayvon was sitting on the couch. "What's going on with you Kenyamo? why you leave with Monty?" Kassidy asked me. I sat down on the couch and Kayvon was standing up. "I left because I made a mistake it was stupid as fuck I realized that now" I said trying to get this over and done with.

I'm over this whole me explaining myself to them. I get they care but I'm grown as hell I don't have to explain shit. "That doesn't mean shit why the fuck did you do it?" Kayvon said yelling at me. He needs to have several chill pills because he's not my damn daddy. "I did it because I thought for a split second we could work after all.the bullshit leave it be Kayvon" I said getting loud with him.

He looked at me.like I had ten heads. "Kenyamo we're trying to keep y'all apart and you keep going to him" Kassidy said and Kayvon was tapping his foot. I didn't give two fucks he can tap his ass if he wants. He's not scaring me at all. "What part of I realized I don't want him do y'all not get" I said looking at them like they were complete idiots.

"Fuck that shit it's cool we trying to protect you but I bet you won't be around him anymore he been dealt with so it's a wrap" Kayvon said walking upstairs. What he mean by that? He really thinks he's my damn father. "We just trying to help.but it's on you fuck it" Kassidy said getting up and walking out. I sat there and thought about what they said.

Tayshod came and stood in the middle.of hallway. "You heard everything didn't you?" I asked not even looking him in his eye. I couldn't even.bare to see him upset with me. "Yeah I did and I get it I'm not him so.let's cut ties before it gets too deep" he said opening the door. I looked at him walk out and I rushed up and ran after him.

"Wait it's not like that" I said grabbing his hand. He snatched his hand away from me. "Yes the fuck it is like that you really left to.be with him and then y'all fall out when you try to rekindle it you back with me I can't do this to myself" he said walking away from me. He left me in my yard with nothing but fucked up mind.

I didn't mean to hurt him I swear. I was being stupid and I might've missed out on something good. I hope I'm able to repair it because I really did care for him. I just had a few moments of weakness I'm man enough it's say that. I'm just through with myself at this point.

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