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Kenyamo POV....

"I really like you" he said as he kissed me. He grabbed and laid me on his bed. I really like him but I'm fighting the feelings I'm also having. I don't want to hurt Tayshod but I can't help the way I'm feeling. I haven't spoken to Monty or anything.

"I like you too" I said smiling like a kid in the candy store. I was falling for Tayshod and I couldn't be more happier I think. He rubbed his hand up my shirt and gripped my sides. I didn't flinch like I usually do or even react to it well only one person touched me there and it made me jump.

He ran both his hands to my hips and gripped them. I gasped and we found his spot on my body. "Kenyamo we don't have to do it if your not ready" he said grabbing my ass. I knew he wanted to do it but the way my life is set up sex isn't on the agenda.

I'm not feeling the sex part in relationships right now. It's all because my mind isn't in it and I want more than just a fuck session. "The sex part maybe not right now but we can do something else" I said rubbing my hand down his body.

I was getting into a mode when a loud banging was at the door. "Kenyamo hop off Tayshod and come with me" Kassidy said fucking up the whole mood. Tayshod put his head in my chest and sighed with high irritation. Kassidy would beat my ass if I messed up her and Reichen going at it.

"Bitch where is we going?" I yelled at her while holding Tayshod. I didn't wanna let go of him for nothing. He held me back and said "Now she knew what was going on in here". I laughed at him as I felt his body language speak because he was getting harder by the minute.

He was pressing his erect dick against my thigh and I was about to give it all away. He's so damn fine a bitch like me can't take it. "We going to Jalayna house to get my hair done again let's go you got 30 minutes to get ready" she said hitting the door and walking away.

I leaned my head back and Tayshod kissed my neck. "Damn I'm mad you gotta leave" he said sitting up in the bed. I rolled over and put my arms around Tayshod stomach. "Ken let me ask you something" he said adjusting his body so he was looking at me.

I was nervous about him even wanting to ask anything. I didn't know what he could possibly want to ask me. I sat up and looked at him and I was nervous as hell. "Go ahead and ask me anything you want" I said sitting on one of my legs. He touched my knee and said "what are we doing with us?".

That's it? That was his question for me. It's not that bad at least it wasn't about anybody else or him asking if it was cool to stop talking to me. I mean when a dude says "let me ask you something" that could mean anything in the world. "I don't know I like you and I think you like me but I don't know" I said looking down and thinking hard as hell.

I really didn't know if we would turn into a relationship or not. If we would just be fuck buddies or not. Even if we would just be friends or not. Our connection is more so flirting trying to get to a relationship but it isn't there yet. At least not with me it's there yet.

"Kenyamo what you mean we been kicking it for awhile and I'm too grown to be dating and not working towards something" he said standing up and putting on his shirt. I got up and grabbed his hand. "Stop I'm not saying we're not working towards anything it's just I don't want to move so fast into a relationship and I'm not together I don't want to put you through that" I said pulling myself towards him.

He let me go and put his shoes on and acted like he didn't hear a word I just said. I kept begging him to hear me out but he wasn't trying to. "Naw Kenyamo if we not moving towards nothing then what are we doing" he said coming closer to me. I stood before him and I puffed out my chest like I was doing something. I knew I wasn't doing shit to make him back away.

"I'm not saying that we're not going anywhere I'm saying let's work towards it I just worded my words wrong" I said touching his face. He grabbed me close to his body and had a grip on me. "You sure you want this Kenyamo?" he asked me. I told him I do want him just in due time the relationship shit.

He kissed me and I ran my fingers through his nappy curly hair. "Bae that makes me want to go to sleep" he said putting his head in my neck. I shook my head and smiled at him. "Boo you need to comb this shit out"I said picking at his hair. I laughed as he looked at me with a straight face.

I let him go and got dressed as he laid in my bed. "Damn Ken" he said reaching his hand out and touched my thighs. He was in love with my thighs for some reason. I never got why some dudes liked thighs so much. I smacked his hand away and giggled at him. "Leave my thighs alone Tayshod" I said moving away from him.

He laughed at me and went back to his phone. "You ready Kenyamo" Kassidy said walking into my room. She always barging into somebody room. She done caught me into some compromising situations because of that. "Yeah let me put some lotion on and I'll be right down" I said putting on my watch.

She walked out and came right back. "Oh Tayshod Kayvon looking for you he downstairs" she said and then she walked right back out again. I looked at him and he got up and left the room. I put on my lotion and grabbed my phone. I checked myself for the last time in the mirror to make sure my legs wasn't ashy. They were peeking through the slits in my jeans.

I wasn't ashy then I left the room. I walked to my mom room and she was in her bed laying down. "Hey momma I just came to check on you" I said walking to her bed and hugging her. I'm happy I moved back in the house with her because she needs me. I moved back because everyone knows I'm back so it's no need in hiding it.

"Baby where you going smelling good and stuff?" she asked me sitting up in her bed. I smiled at her and sat next to her. "Out with Kassidy for awhile although I don't feel like it" I said laying back on her bed.

"You rather be in that bed with Kayvon friend Tayshod" she said tapping me on my leg. I looked at her shocked and I can't believe she knew I was with him. I guess mothers don't know everything but how did she know about Tayshod specifically. "Who told you about Tayshod" I asked propping myself up on my elbows.

"I saw him going into your room a couple nights ago and the phone conversations baby your not that good at hiding it if that's what you're trying to do" she said as if I was the dumbest bitch on the planet. I rolled my eyes at her and we started laughing together.

"I'm not hiding it I'm just being careful Ma I like him though" I smiled as she looked at me with her eyebrow raised. "I can tell but I also can tell you still in love with that damn nappy headed bastard" she said sitting back on her bed. I didn't know it was obvious I still held onto Monty. I mean nobody else sees it but her so I guess.

I won't disregard any type of feelings I have for Monty. It's hard to leave somebody you've been with for years no matter what happens. I've been with him since high school and I can't just up and say I'm leaving you forever that easily. It sounds dumb as hell but it's my truth.

"Ma I'm over Monty it's done and dead with us" I lied with every ounce of my being. I don't think I'll ever be over Monty but it's worth at least trying to be. She hugged me from the side and rubbed my arm. "Honey listen I just want you to be happy but it can't be with that damn boy" she said pecking my forehead.

My mom was kind of right but she doesn't know my heart. I know that every time I leave him alone or try to I end up right back with him. It's that love that sticks with me. It doesn't matter where I go I'll always be his. The sad part is I don't want to belong to anybody else. Maybe Tayshod can change that hopefully.

"Alright Kenyamo bring ya ass on" Kassidy yelled throughout the house. I stood up and fixed my clothes. "Alright Ma I love you" I said kissing her cheek. I left out the room and went downstairs to the living room. I saw Kassidy sitting on the couch with Kayvon and Tayshod.

I looked at Tayshod who smiled when I walked in the room. "Hey big brother" I said sitting in between him and Tayshod. Kayvon scooted over but Tayshod let my leg stay on him. "What's up where y'all headed to?" Kayvon said nudging me against Tayshod.

"We going to Jalayna house and we have to leave now because she takes long as hell to do my hair" Kassidy said getting off the couch. I stood up and fixed the back of my jeans in front of Tayshod face only to tease him. "Y'all know what happened the last time y'all was over there" Kayvon said standing up as Kassidy and I walked to the door.

"Yeah we know but that was awhile ago and I was hiding so I'm good now" I said looking back at Kayvon and Tayshod was right behind him. We walked out and I got into Kassidy car. "You not good you know them clowns still checking for you" Kayvon said getting angry. I ignored him because he was being extra.

I knew Monty was checking dir me that was a given. I think he was more so worried about Jerari checking for me. I haven't heard much out of him so I wasn't thinking about him at all. "Look I got his back this time so he'll be fine we have to go" Kassidy said as she started up the car. I looked at Tayshod and he mouthed "Be Careful".

I nodded my head and she pulled out and we was off. We was driving with the radio on low but I was pondering what my momma said. "Kassidy do you think I'm still in love with Monty?" I asked looking at her and she rolled her eyes. Here the hell we go with this shit.

"I know you are but the thing is your trying to get over him slowly but surely and Tayshod is helping you get over him" she said speeding through a red light. She just a damn daredevil when it comes to driving. There isn't a damn rush to get where she going.

"Kassidy I'm trying but it's something I didn't tell you" I said as she slowed down and parked on a side street. I didn't tell her what happened that night at the club with Monty. I mean she knew he was there but she didn't know the full extent of the shit.

"What you mean?" she said looking at me skeptically. I was apprehensive about telling her about it but I think since we're on the subject of Monty she might as well know. "Well the night we was in the club with Variah and Meechie and they was fighting" I said so she could jog her memory a little bit.

She nodded her head for me to continue. "Well when I was dancing with Variah Monty had popped up and uhhh we was talking well they started arguing then when the shots started Monty grabbed me and we was in a corner and well he kissed me" I said all in one breath.

She looked at me like I had six heads. "What the hell you mean you kissed him?" she yelled at me. I should've kept my mouth closed at sealed. "He kissed me Kassidy I wasn't thinking I mean at least I didn't fuck him" I said the last part like she was supposed to be happy. She mugged me down and I was sinking in my seat.

"You ain't fuck him? Wow Kenyamo congrats you didn't fuck him what a fucking triumphant victory you had" she said sarcastically said. She started up the car and I just looked away from her. I know she hated Monty with a passion so it was understandable why she was pissed.

We pulled up to Jalayna house and I saw Jerari car parked outside. "You don't have to go in if your don't want to see him" she said turning the car off. I sat and thought about it because I didn't know what would happen. I got out the car and decided to deal with it. She got out and we walked to the door.

I knocked on it and Jerari opened the door. He looked at me with a smirk and I felt my stomach turn. "Jalayna waiting on y'all in the kitchen" he said stepping to the side letting us in. We walked in and went to the kitchen with Jalayna. "Hey it took y'all long enough to get here" she said looking at me.

"Girl that was Kenyamo messing around" Kassidy said sitting in the chair. I sat on the counter and hooked up the speaker to my phone. I was playing music and we was jamming while Jalayna worked on Kassidy. I had to use the bathroom and I got off the counter.

"Be careful the devil is lurking" Kassidy said as I walked out the kitchen. I went to the bathroom and started to use it. I was in the bathroom and the door flung open. "What are you doing here?" I said zipping up my pants. He stood in front of me. "You ain't got shit I haven't seen or touched before" he said chuckling at me.

I held my head down and he picked it back up with his index finger. "Stop playing why are you even here?" I asked him as he closed the door. He leaned back on the door and looked me up and down. "I was here when I heard you so I waited until you was alone to see you by myself" Monty said coming closer to me.

I wasn't scared of him anymore because I knew he wasn't going to hurt me. "Monty I know you here with Jerari" I said pushing him away. He grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him. I wasn't fighting him but I wasn't encouraging him either. "Man fuck him I don't care nothing about him it's you I'm here for" he said grabbing my body and putting it against his.

My phone started ringing and it was Tayshod. "That's your boy toy" he said letting me go. He looked upset and hurt but it was nothing I could do. I do have feelings for Tayshod. "He's not my boy toy" I said with an attitude. He scoffed at me and shook.his head.

"I know he's not my replacement" he said stunned. He's acting like a child and it's very entertaining. "Why do you insist on him being your damn replacement leave it alone if I want talk to him I will because your not my boyfriend" I said with an attitude. He looked at me with hurt filling his eyes.

I looked at him remorseful and I felt bad but it needed to be said. "Damn that's how it is so what happened in the club didn't mean shit to you because it meant alot to be I thought we was trying to work it out somehow but I guess not" he said about to open the door. I grabbed his hand and pushed myself into him.

I can't believe it I didn't want him to leave me. I don't want him to be over me at all. "Monty stop he can't replace you I love you too much" I said wrapping my hands around his neck. He squeezed me and kissed me. "I love you too bae" he said rocking me aback and forth. We parted and he kissed me again.

"Do you have to stay with them?" he asked me and I really wanted to just be alone with him. "Not really" I said as we kept each other close to one another. "Can we just leave and be alone?" he said kissing my cheek. I looked him in his eyes and thought about it. I was nervous about it but I wanted to. I kissed him and said "Okay".

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