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CHAY'S POV

One year and a half gone passed that quickly. But I'm still longing for My Macau. His loving and tender kisses, warm hugs, his voice when he says I love you to me. How am I ever to forget about him? The unforgettable night we shared together, our promises and everything.

I miss him so badly. The only thing that makes me strive to continue is the promise that he told me that he will not stop loving me.

After my contract, I'm going to pursued him again no matter what.

I really want to choose him that day, but my stupid mouth didn't say it.

I know, I still have a chance on him and I'm sure of that. I know he is always present every time I have an event or Concert. And he is the reason why I'm smiling, because I know his in there watching over me.

Nop his personal body guard is keeping me updated on what he is doing before.

But this past few month he didn't tell me anything about Macau. And I'm getting worried about it.

Even P'Pete and P'Porsche, they are not telling me anything about him. After our break up, they also ignored me. I mean they are still talking to me, but it's not like the way they talk to me anymore when me and Macau are still together.

And Venice is ignoring me too, when I visit the minor house. Like everyone of them is ignoring me and it breaks my heart.

Like today, I'm walking back to my room when Venice just past at me in the hall way running to his dads room. I followed him but stopped before I could reach the door frame.

"The baby is si cute, even his mom are beautiful too." Venice said excitedly.

What are they talking about? I asked myself and move little bit to the door so I can hear them properly.

"Yeah, your uncle is so lucky" P'Pete said louder this time, does he know I'm here listening to them?

"When are they coming back, I want to hold baby Rocco" Venice asked.

What is this why am I so nervous about mentioning the baby. And Uncle whose uncle they are talking about.

"I don't really know, because your uncle Macau said they need to process babies papers so they can travel back." P'Pete even emphasize Macau's name.

My tears run down, my knees are shaking and my heart was torn, like really really torn this time.

I run to my room, and bring my phone to call Nop, but it's out of coverage.

I check Macau's social media account just incase he posted something. And now he even blocked me.

So I made a new account to trace him.

"Please they are just messing with me" I keep on chanting while I'm typing on phone.

But my nervousness never leaves me a bit.

After 15 minutes of wiping my tears and typing, I finally made a new account.

Taking a very deep breath before typing his name on search icon.

M_A_C_A_U

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M_A_C_A_U Welcome baby Morocco daddy loves you ❤️

Porsche congrats

Pete Theerapanyakul welcome baby Rocco

VKT Congrats bro

M_A_C_A_U  thanks everyone see you soon

Rrukk come back you need to feed Rocco now

M_A_C_A_U I'm just next to you Rrukk

Rrukk no you're in the bathroom so comeback now Rocco is crying

Posted 2 months ago

After reading the comments section, my whole world crashed at once.

Then I clicked to the Rrukk account, and see more of their flirting.

Rrukk

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Rrukk Craving

M_A_C_A_U That's not even healthy 😤

Pete Theerapanyakul someone is angry now

Rrukk Because you're not letting me eat at home

M_A_C_A_U okey stay there, I'm coming over you didn't even bring umbrella and it's raining.

Rrukk hurry up I'm cold bring extra jacket please

Posted 7 months ago

My world crashed once again.

He said he loves me, but now what is this? Did he lie to me, did he cheat on me.

Crying, sobbing, weeping, whimpering in agony. That's what I did after seeing those photos and reading those comments of them.

It's hurts it really hurts, what happened to the 10 years?

After crying for like hour, I walked to the bathroom and fixed myself.

"He is mine, and I'm going to get what's mine" I told myself determine looking like an evil at the mirror.

If I'm going to kill someone, I'm going to do it.

Macau is mine, and no one will take him away from me I said again still looking at mirror like a madman.

I get dressed and walked out to my room because I'm going to see someone who can help me with this.

"Chay I thought you are staying for tonight?" P'Porsche asked me when he sees me in the parking lot.

"No P' I'm going to meet someone," I said and didn't even give him a smile.

"What wrong with you" he asked and come closer to me then look at me intently.

"Nothing P" I lied

"Did you just cry? Who made you cry?" he asked concerned, but I don't know if that's even real concern. After seeing his comments, no I don't want to believe them anymore.

They all lied to me.

"No one, just something went inside my eyes and irritated," but I really wanted to tell him it's them who made me cry.

"Hey don't drive if you are like that," he reminded me 

"I'm fine, I really don't care if something happens to me now" I whispered the last sentence.

"Chay, if you have a problem, just tell me. Maybe I can help you"

"Really P?"

"Yeah, you're my brother and I know if something is bothering you. Just tell me so I can help you with it.

"I want to..."

This story will end soon.... Just a head up...

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