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The school day was dragging along, much slower than it has any other days. I was so eager to get back to the orphanage and just sleep. Lately I hadn't been very well rested, and for one I knew it was because of my dreams. For the longest time they had stopped- well, more like they calmed down and I hadn't had them as much, but lately, due to something, they kicked right back up. My thoughts were also weighing me down, forcing me to stay up late at night without any kind of comfort because I wasn't sleeping in Austin's room because Mike was back due to something happening in his and Tony's relationship.

Everything had been going fine, I was sleeping well and calm throughout the night, but as soon as I had to leave from Austin's room, I was staying up late, thinking too much and having nightmares again. These felt much worse, if I were to be honest. I felt like I couldn't breathe sometimes as my dad appeared in front of me, a blank expression on his face. Sometimes he wouldn't hit me, it was him standing there, staring at me. Then there were the ones where he did hit me and I felt so much pain when I awoke. I wanted it to all end, I wanted to be able to sleep at night for once, without the comfort of someone else. I was sick and tired of being afraid to close my eyes at night, or to be alone because of my insane thoughts. For once, just once, I wanted to be happy, and I have been for the last several months, but that was because I wasn't alone. When I was with people, I was someone else, but being alone, I was my old self.

When the final bell for the day rang, I couldn't have been more than happy. I had been exhausted throughout the day, nearly falling asleep in several of my classes. I went outside and waited for the bus, like always, and when it finally showed up, I climbed on with my friends close behind. I found an empty seat in the back and plopped down, resting my head against the window. Austin sat down beside me, letting his hand rest on my thigh as he gave me a curious look.

"What's wrong?" He asked, rubbing his thumb back and forth. It sent little sparks throughout my body as I sat up and rested my head on his shoulder.

"Nothing, I'm just tired." I mumbled, getting myself comfortable. Austin hummed and kissed the top of my head, allowing me to sleep on him until the bus stopped and we had to get off. I didn't waste any time in getting off the bus and heading upstairs to my room. I tossed my backpack down to the floor and kicked my shoes off before tossing myself down to my bed and closing my eyes. I didn't care anymore, I didn't care if I had a nightmare, I just wanted to sleep, and that's what I did.

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I felt groggy and out of place as I woke up. The room was silent and dark, leaving me to panic as I felt breath against my neck. I scurried for my phone that laid somewhere on the bed and clicked the screen on, letting the bright light shine on whoever the hell this was. When I saw that it was just Austin, my heart slowed down and I let out a little breath.

"Turn that thing off." He muttered, pulling me closer to him. I did as told, clicking my phone off and laying it back wherever on the bed. Austin sighed softly and buried his face in my neck, falling back asleep. I wondered when he got in here or how long we had both been asleep. I found it rather sweet that he was in here, because I didn't have a nightmare and I really missed sleeping at night with him.

I turned in his arms so that we were facing one another. I could feel his light breaths against my lips and I couldn't help but smile. Austin was one of the many reasons that I did smile, now that I thought about it. We hadn't been together longer, but we've known each other for some time and to me, that was just enough.

"You're tickling me." Austin mumbled, pulling me from my thoughts. I hadn't realized it, but I was running my fingers through his hair, and how I was able to do that without seeing, I've no idea.

"Oh, sorry." I whispered sheepishly, pulling away. Austin chuckled softly and kissed me gently.

"What time is it?" He asked, I gave a shrug, although he couldn't see me, and found my phone again, clicking it on and looking at the time.

"Almost midnight," I told him softly after turning the screen off. I felt wide awake now, which was an odd feeling. Austin let out a little groan and rolled away from me. I could hear him stretching and a few bones popping in the process.

"I'm really hungry now." I heard him mumbled as he found my waist again and pulled me back to him. I grinned and pushed my head underneath his chin, letting my eyes close even though I wasn't tired at all.

"I'm more than positive Miss McDougall is up and somewhere about." I said, snuggling closer.

"Well I wasn't thinking about going downstairs, more like going to that diner." Austin said, kissing my forehead. I sighed and thought about it, would I rather get out of my very comfortable bed and out of such a warm embrace, or would I rather get some very delicious tasting food with the boy who made me happy?

"Okay, let's go." I said, rolling away from Austin and crawling over him. I threw on some clothes as did Austin and we left, sneaking out through the bathroom window and onto the street where from there we walked down to the diner and got something to eat, laughing and smiling at each other the entire time before coming back and crawling through the window, only the bathroom light was on and a very angry looking Miss McDougall who had her hands on her hips and an expression on her face that claimed she was about to chew our ears off.

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a little bit of a filler because I suck and haven't updated in like, forever. But hopefully you guys are still liking this??? I'm out for the summer too so hopefully I'll be getting around to updating more often (:

oh and because I'm also a terrible person and keep forgetting this, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 10k

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