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It was now Friday and I had just gotten back from school. I was worn and exhausted, wanting to desperately lay down and take a nap, but I had several days of makeup work to do for my classes. I honestly didn't want to do any of it, but without doing it I would be further behind and I would really like to graduate rather than fail.

Sighing loudly, I tossed my back pack to the floor of the bedroom. Neither Jaime or Kellin were in here. Kellin had gone out with Vic to see some movie and Jaime had stayed downstairs to run the little children away so he could watch t.v. and whatnot. I didn't know where the rest of the other guys were and I sort of didn't care enough to find out. I just wanted some sleep and to get this stupid work over with.

I plopped down on the bed, gathering my things from bag. All throughout the day my friends tried to help me with my books, Kellin even offered to carry me to my classes, but I always rejected them and told them I was fine on my own, which was a total lie. I had been in so much pain all day long and the pain medication was only numbing it just a little bit. I was still in so much discomfort too, but I didn't want anyone's help. Eventually, though, Austin scolded me and told me that he was going to help me whether I liked it or not, which of course I didn't but he was being sweet and kind and somehow managed to get me to let him help.

I also went to the doctor yesterday for my first appointment. He felt around on my ribs, making sure that there wasn't any furthermore damage from the last couple of days of me being discharged from the hospital. He even looked at my arm that was stuck in a plaster cast for the next month or so. He explained everything just like the doctor at the hospital did. He went over the things that I was allowed and not allowed to do, strenuous activity being the first of all things he listed off as the things that I was not allowed to do, whatsoever.

It sucked, honestly. I didn't want to he babied by my friends anymore. I didn't want to be followed around constantly because they thought that me needing to fill a glass of water was too much work for my body, but it wasn't, none of it was. I didn't want or need their help, no matter how much pain I was in. I could do things on my own, they just needed to see that.

"Hey," I looked up and saw Alex standing there in the doorway, "we're about to watch a movie downstairs, you can join if you want." He said.

"I can't, I have to do this work I missed." I said.

"You have Saturday and Sunday to finish it all, but if you don't wanna you don't have too, I was just letting you know." He said, smiling. I sighed and looked over all my books and papers that were scattered out on my bed. Watching a movie wouldn't hurt and Alex was right, I had the rest of the weekend to finish it all.

"Okay," I gave in. "I'll be down in a minute." I told him. Alex smiled brightly and nodded before dashing away from the doorway. I rolled my eyes and began to stuff all my books and stuff back into my bag. I got up from the bed and trudged downstairs. I could hear everyone talking and chatting as I entered into the living room.

"There he is!" Jaime shouted, throwing his arms up into the air. I rolled my eyes and grinned at them, finding myself a seat right beside Austin who kissed my cheek.

"Vic's in the kitchen popping pop corn for everyone." Kellin told me and as if on cue, Vic came into the living room, managing to carry four bowls of popcorn in his hands. How he could do that, I don't know.

Vic gave every group a bowl and the movie began. I wasn't even paying attention, just staring around the room with my head resting on Austin's shoulder. I could feel him kiss the top of my head now and again, sending my stomach into flurries of butterflies and stupid rainbows. I didn't understand how come he liked me. Was it out of pity? Did he feel bad for me because of everything with my mom and dad, or did he really and truly like me? Because, honestly, if he liked me out of pity, then I didn't want to be around or with him. I wanted him to like me for me, nor because of what I've been through.

I shook the thoughts from my head and tried to focus on the movie. It was some superhero movie and I had no idea what was happening. Aliens were in the streets and falling from the sky, this group of superheroes were trying to save the city. I didn't know, I didn't care. I continued to sit there, watching the screen. Everyone else seemed to be into it, groaning and laughing when certain things happened. It was especially cute when Austin did it. When he laughed his whole body would vibrate and his shoulders would shake lightly. He was the cutest thing ever. Why couldn't all people be like him; so kind, caring, and selfless.

Once the movie was over, Jack and Jaime stood, taking the empty bowls and putting them in the kitchen. Tony cleared the room of our empty soda cans and Mike went with him. I stood up, and of course Austin followed. I was beginning to feel tired and sluggish, really wanting to go to bed now. Like a lost puppy, Austin followed me upstairs, stopping me before I reached my room.

"Let's have an adventure tonight," he told me, placing his hands on my hips.

"Where to?" I asked, managing to cross my arms.

"That little diner you found a couple of nights ago. I figured it's gonna be really cold and I wanted to get some hot chocolate, my treat." He said, pulling me closer. I sighed and smiled at him.

"I'm sure you could make hot chocolate here, but okay, we can sneak out after everyone's asleep." I said, Austin smiled widely and leaned down, pressing a sweet and gentle kiss to my lips. I could feel myself melting, as cliché as that sounds. He was such a good kisser, I wondered if he knew that.

He pulled away and kissed my forehead. "I'll text you when it's time." With that, he pulled away from me completely and walked down the hallway to his roo. He was just so cute.

I smiled happily and walked into my room, laying down on my bunk. Excitement boiled up in me and I couldn't wait until tonight. I really liked being about at night, and everything seemed ten times better whenever I was with Austin. I did but then again I didn't like how everything was changing. I was now happy and smiling at nearly everything. I had friends who cared about me and a guy who may or may not be my boyfriend showing me loving attention. Things were good, but I was still scared of a lot of things and that wasn't going to change, not for a long while.

Kellin and Jaime came into the room and instantly crawled in their beds. Kellin shut the lights off, mumbling good night's to everyone and Jaime muttered soemthing in response. Now I was left alone to stare into the darkness.

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this is not a good chapter and I'm sorry it took so long, but I've had really bad writers block for this story and Teddy Bear and have sadly been neglecting these two ever since I started my other story (which you should check out if you want to) Late Nights and Sweet Talking (another shameless self promotion) so yeah, I'm still in stump for this and have no idea where it's going (:

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