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After everything that had happened two nights ago, I sulked around. Kellin yelled at me when I had woken up for scaring him like that and not opening the door, but I hardly listened to him and stared at the wall behind him. I mainly thought about Austin when I wasn't in my own little depressing world. I actually thought about the kiss and how much I really liked it and would do it all again if I could. Thankfully he wasn't being awkward about it but he never really said anything to me, much like before, but he was around me more often now and I wasn't complaining one bit. 

Currently I was sitting on the floor in the living room. We were watching a movie and every one arohbd me was nearly asleep, besides Austin. He was sat beside me, really close actually, with a blanket tossed over both our legs as we leaned against the couch. I liked being this close to him, he was warm. I stole glances at him, grinning when I heard him snort softly or saw the crinkles in the corner of his eyes. I wondered why he kissed me. I wanted to do it again, but that would be weird if he didn't really mean to do it in the first place. Was it only to comfort me? I was in a bad place, he willingly opened himself up and allowed me to cling to him for dear life.

I hadn't talk to my mom after that entire situation either. I didn't want to and I never would again. Why couldn't she just see that I hated being in an orphanage and I wanted to leave? I never expected her to come back, especially after everything with my dad. Sometimes I didn't like her for leaving me there with that bastard, I always thought she'd take me with her so that we could both live a better life, but obviously that didn't happen. She up and left us both, leaving me to fend for myself with that monster.

"Are you hungry?" Austin whispered in my ear. I jumped slightly and turned to him, giving a slight nod. I was hungry, I just didn't want to get up. Austin smiled and stood up, leaving from the living room.

"I'm gonna go take a nap," Jaime muttered as he stood up from the couch. He was like many of the others, sleepy and grouchy. It was raining outside and of course it made every one seem so glum. Mike and Tony hummed in agreement and stood up too, following Jaime upstairs. Kellin sighed and stretched out on the couch while Jack and Alex huddled closer together and fell asleep once again. Austin came back with a bowl of cheese puffs and a goofy smile on his face. He took his place beside me again and pulled the covers over his legs. We sat in silence, looking at the t.v. screen, all up until he spoke again.

"You aren't...weirded out with the...kiss, are you?" He looked a little nervous and I bit my lip.

"A little." I told him softly and watched as his face dropped slightly.

"Oh," he muttered.

"I'm joking, Austin," I said grinning, he looked at me confused before shaking his head. "I-I actually really, um, liked it." I watched as his face lit up and he had another goofy grin on his face.

"Yeah?" He asked, I grinned and nodded.

"Yeah."

"Well, lucky for you, I liked it too."

"Oh, I would have been very disappointed if you didn't." I mumbled. Austin chuckled softly, smiling at me brightly.

"Are you okay though? I mean, your mom just shows up, you cry your eyes out and...I just didn't like seeing you that way." He asked quietly, I nodded and grinned at him, leaning in and kissing his cheek.

"I'm fine, it's sweet of you to worry like that." I mumbled, Austin didn't say anything as Kellin groaned loudly and sat up.

"I'm going to sleep." He muttered, crawling off the couch and mumbling words under his breath as he headed upstairs. I grinned and looked back to Austin who smiled at me and leaned closer. I could feel my heart hammering in my chest. He was closer than before, his lips just few centimetres away, but he looked confused and maybe even a little worried.

"Is this okay?" He asked softly, there was no way in hell I was going to back out now, I didn't even want to. With a simple nod, he closed the space between us and nudged his mouth against mine. My eyes flicked closed and I kissed him back, not caring that there were the little children around us, playing in the far side of the room. My arms wrapped around Austin's neck, pulling him closer. He grabbed my waist, scooting me closer to him too. He moved his lips against mine softly, building the kids up and I couldn't stop the fluttering in my stomach as he caressed my cheek. His lips were so soft and he touched me so delicately and held me gently. I couldn't get enough. I don't think I'd ever get enough, but sadly the kissed ended when someone cleared their throat, making us jump apart.

There, standing in the doorway of the kitchen was Miss McDougall, a grin on her face and her hands on her hips. "You boys can continue that later, the children are still innocent and they would like to watch t.v. now." She said, there were two little boys shyly standing behind her and peeking around her legs, small little blushes on both their chubby cheeks. Austin grinned and I chuckled softly, looking at the two boys before pulling away from Austin and stood up. I could hear him following me as I went up the stairs. I got about halfway to my room when I felt Austin grab my hand and pull me a little to make me stop. He turned me around and smiled before leaning down, gently pressing a kiss to my lips that made me feel as if I were floating. He pulled away, much to my distaste and brushed hair from my eyes.

"I'll see you in the morning." He said softly. I bit my lip and nodded, mumbling a soft good night before turning and going into my room, a big goofy smile on my face as I changed my clothes for some sweatpants and crawled into bed, feeling giddy and happy. For once in a very long time, I slept without nightmares.

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I hope you all had a very nice Christmas and have an even better New Year c:

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