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I'm sorry for taking a bit too long to post this one, I've had a few personal issues and couldn't bring myself to write.

I'll try to be more active for you guys! And also, thank you for 6k, I'm really glad so many are enjoying the book.

Now enjoy this Yocat Fluff.

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It should just be a normal variety show. Members were playing around and answering MCs questions, talking to One It. Everything was perfectly normal (or as normal as it could be with the 11 members together, which was already chaotic). But then came the "it's okay game".

(Yes, I'm talking about the WeKpop episode)

They should just diss and say bad things about each other, but then it was Wooseok's and Yohan's turn. Yohan knew pretty well Wooseok was good at this kind of game, after all the acting major was, obviously, good at acting, and specially at acting sassy. So he was sure he would lose as quickly as the game started. But as soon as Wooseok started speaking, Yohan noticed a different tone on his hyung's voice, something softer and almost...loving?

"Yohan-ah... when you hurt your foot... we told you it would be best to just rest for now..."

Yohan just said short "yeah"s in response, suddenly nervous on where this was going. The fact they were holding hands so sweetly also didn't help at all.

"But you cried, and wanted to see it through..."

Yohan felt his voice slightly shaky on his answer, already feeling moved at the sudden confession. He didn't expect to have such a display of affection in the middle of the dissing game, and it coming from his lovely hyung made it even more moving.

"Should you do that or not?"

Yohan couldn't help but look away, holding back tears. He was soon pressured by the MCs to agree, since it was still a game. Yohan just couldn't bring himself to speak. Wooseok had so suddenly showed so much care for him it was just too much. Yohan also cherished his shorter hyung so so much, but seeing Wooseok being so clear about his feelings was making his emotions overflow. So instead, he just pulled Wooseok into a hug, caressing his back softly. They had to quickly part (sadly, for the younger) since they were still recording. Yohan just agreed and let the game continue.

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After the show, as soon as they got to backstage, Yohan made his way to Wooseok, back hugging him gently. Having been with the other 10 members for the last 5 months, he wasn't even weirded out with sudden skinship and barely reacted anymore. So he just looked back a bit to know who it was and smiled.

"Hi, Yohanie"

"Hyuunnnggg"

Yohan whined cutely, pulling Wooseok even closer.

"You almost made me cry today, that's not fair"

"I was just showing my feelings, Yohanie"

"I didn't think our snow prince cared so much about me"

"Hey, I'm the really poor sighted one of the group, you can't steal my place, cause your sight must be really poor for you to not figure it out"

"Figure out that you love me?"

"That is no unknown fact"

"Awwnn hyung"

Yohan smiled, turning the older around before hugging him again tightly. Wooseok laughed and hugged back, slightly caressing Yohan's back and hair. Yohan did the same, really liking the way his hyung was so much more open, caring and even slightly touchy. This side of the older was extremely adorable to him, and Wooseok also found the cute nature of the younger very adorable.

"Let's get ready to go home, I'm tired"

"Alright"

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After the touching talk during WeKpop, Yohan and Wooseok clearly got closer. It was very obvious to every member how both cherished each other lot, and even to the fans. They were seen together a lot, always taking care of each other, and stealing sweet glances. Even at the dorms they would hang out so often, Dongpyo almost felt like he didn't have a roommate.

They were again in a schedule, this time it was Run Wav. It was pretty fun talking like this and just chilling instead of doing stressful and demanding things for their bodies. So they were enjoying it pretty much a lot.

The MC suggested that they complimented the member that was beside them. Right in the beginning Yohan and Wooseok had sat beside each other, simply because they were already together backstage and walked on stage together. Yohan immediately turned towards the older, smiling a bit.

"I'll start. Wooseok hyung, you're such a caring and gentle person, you always take care of every single one of us so so well, even when we're kind of being a hassle to deal with. You're hardworking and determined, but you're also patient when we take too long to learn something, and never get mad when we do so. You always try your best to protect and cherish us, and I'm really thankful for that. Wooseok, you're an amazing hyung, and I'm thankful for being able to go on stage with you and live with you."

As Yohan said such things, staring so lovingly and sincerely at the pretty hyung, he couldn't help but feel moved.

"Ah, I forgot something. You're really really handsome, hyung"

Wooseok chuckled at the cute comment and slightly tapped Yohan's thigh, looking down a bit as he thought about what he would say. Yohan just continued looking at him, happy about being able to talk about his feelings so clearly, and get a great reaction. Wooseok slowly looked up at the younger and started speaking softly.

"Yohan-ah... I know you went through such a hard time... You got hurt and couldn't even perform with us, I saw clearly how bad you felt about it. But you are so so strong, and even through that you kept talking to us with a smile on your face. I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for you listening to us so well, Yohan-ah..."

Wooseok suddenly stopped speaking, feeling his voice tremble and a knot form on his throat. He turned his back towards the audience, tears that started prickling his eyes soon going down his face. He just felt so overwhelmed thinking about someone he loved so much suffering, he just couldn't hold back tears. Yohan approached him, hugging him tightly while smiling, one it chanting for him not to cry. Wooseok soon cleaned his face with his hands and turned, hugging the younger back.

The heartwarming moment made members and the audience coo at the two. Yohan felt his heart warm with how much affection and love the older just showed him, and he even wondered if what he just heard was his imagination or reality.

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After the Run Wav incident, things had changed drastically between one of the most famous relationships of the group, Yocat. Everyone thought after such heartfelt words, they would get even closer, but things weren't like that. All of a sudden, about three days after what happened in Run Wav, Yohan had become distant. He wouldn't approach Wooseok unless needed, would avoid excessive skinship, and would even avoid talking to the older unless it was something related to the group. Instead of giving Wooseok the bright cute smiles, Yohan was starting to give him cold looks and disinterested fake smiles. And Wooseok was just so hurt and confused.

Members also noticed. The relationship between the two had become so close, and suddenly changed drastically, so the members got worried. Both due to how sad Wooseok had gotten, but also due to the reason why Yohan could have suddenly changed. So for the following days members tried their hardest. Seungyeon, Seungwoo, Minhee, Dongpyo, everyone tried so hard to hang out with Wooseok and make him feel a bit better, but always a few seconds later, Wooseok's gloomy expression came back. So after about a week of trying to make the older feel better and having no success, they decided to confront Yohan.

After a bit of discussing, they set that it would be Seungyeon talking to Yohan. He had specially grown protective of Wooseok, spending most of the time with him. So he was basically very fed up of what had been going on. Seungyeon knocked on the door to Yohan's room, and barely waited for the "come in" to open the door.

"Hi, Seungyeon hyung"

"Yohan, we need to talk"

"Hmm... sure. Come in"

Seungyeon sat on the bed, staring so intensely at the younger, Yohan felt like a hole was being burnt through him.

"Why are you hurting Wooseok like that."

Seungyeon's tone was demanding, almost angry. He didn't like being harsh with members, but what Yohan was doing had been making a hole on the relationship of the group as a whole. And he needed to know the reason.

Yohan quickly looked away. He knew that would be the subject, but it was another thing to hear it directly. The thing is, Yohan could never be more confused. Ever since the whole thing of Wooseok even crying about him, he  didn't know exactly what he was feeling anymore.

"Yohan, you need to say something"

"I... I don't know..."

"You don't know? You're making Wooseok hurt like that simply cause you don't know?"

Seungyeon was becoming impatient. And Yohan understood it entirely.

"I'm just... I'm scared of a few things, hyung"

"And you're making Wooseok scared cause he thinks you hate him."

"What? I would never hate him! You guys know how much I love him!"

"Well, your actions speak very clearly that you do everything except of loving him!"

Yohan opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out. He still loved the older so much, but he just realized how much he could have hurt him with his actions, simply because of his selfishness.

"Kim Yohan, if you really do love him, make it clear. You know what happened in the past already. You know how Wooseok took so long to open up to all of us. And you are making him not only build walls again against you, but against all of us. You have no idea how bad he feels, Yohan."

Yohan covered his face with his hands, then pulling his own hair slightly. He just couldn't take the fact he had hurt someone he loved. So he stood up quickly, practically running out of the room, and to the door of Wooseok's room. He stopped there taking a deep breath.

Sincerely, when he started to avoid Wooseok, the only thing he wanted to avoid was his feelings towards the older. After so much they went through, he found that their relationship was... different. He craved for Wooseok's touch, Wooseok's voice, Wooseok's smile. He wanted to hold him, give him affection, make him happy and... kiss him. He found his feelings going from fraternal to romantic really quickly. And Yohan was so so scared.

First off, they were both in an idol group, and second off, they were both guys. What would happen if people found out? And not only that, there was no chance Wooseok would accept his feelings. This could just destroy the whole group at once. And the last thing Yohan wanted to do was hurt the members. But he just realized he was hurting them more than anything. So he breathed in deeply, and opened the door. And he felt desvated.

Wooseok's room was pretty dark, all curtains and windows closed. Things were kind of messy, and Woosek seemed to be buried beneath layers of messy thick blankets. Yohan quietly closed the door and approached the bed. He thought Wooseok had been sleeping, but as he got closer, he started hearing small whimpers and sniffling. Yohan knew how Wooseok was, when the older felt like crying, he just did. But seeing him cry was a whole other thing.

"Wooseokie hyung..."

"What is it, Yohan-ah?"

Wooseok answered very quietly and softly, trying to make his voice more stable. Yohan leaned down, trying to see the older's face, since Wooseok had his back towards him, but Wooseok just curled up more, hiding his face.

"Wooseok hyung... I came to try and make up with you... so can you please look at me"

Wooseok seemed to think for a while before wiping his face with the long sleeve of his shirt and sitting up. Yohan just felt even worse. Wooseok's eyes were red and puffy, his face in a frown. Yohan bit his lip strongly, and quickly pulled Wooseok into a hug.

"I'm sorry, hyung... I'm so so sorry..."

Wooseok took a while to hug back but finally did after a few seconds. Yohan caressed his head, embracing the older as close and warm as he could. He just felt terrible for making Wooseok feel so hurt and sad.

"Then... why...? Why did you act like that...?"

Wooseok continued speaking very quietly and softly. Yohan sighed. He knew there was no way but to tell the older the truth, Wooseok knew very clearly when Yohan was lying so it was no use.

"Wooseokie... Look at me... I need to tell you something really serious"

Yohan pulled away from the hug, cupping Wooseok's cheek to make him look up.

"Wooseok-ah... You know, throughout this all we've become so much closer... we started to cherish and love each other so much more. And you know... I couldn't help but... end up confusing things... I can no longer see you as a friend or brother, Wooseok hyung... I want to see you as my lover... but I know that's impossible, so I avoided you to try and get rid of those feelings. But they just came stronger. You can reject me now, yell at me, complain and argue all you want, but I-"

When Yohan pronounced the word "lover", Wooseok's eyes widened. But when he realized Yohan almost deprecating himself, with such bad thoughts about the older, he didn't hold back. Wooseok cupped the youngster's cheeks with both hands and connected their lips at once in a chaste kiss.

Yohan's eyes widened. The one he just confessed to, whom he waited for a rejection from, was kissing him. From his own accord, kissing him. But it lasted too short. After some seconds, Wooseok pulled away, slowly opening his eyes to look into Yohan's eyes.

Truth is, it was the older who started having more than a brotherly emotion. They had been close since produce, but after debut, Yohan became someone Wooseok felt like he would have by his side forever. Wooseok liked every single thing about the other. The caring, goofy personality, the way too protective nature, the smile that was so often on his face, every single thing about his personality. His appearance also made Wooseok just want to stare at him forever, even if it was from afar. And Wooseok soon realized he no longer saw Yohan as a brother. But he couldn't do anything, Yohan is young, and the worst thing would be to ruin their friendship. So Wooseok decided: he would be happy by only having the younger by his side.

"I... I like you too, Yohan-ah... as a lover, not as a friend... and I've liked you for a while..."

Yohan was completely dumbfounded. His feelings being mutual were the last thing he could expect. But soon the shock was replaced by happiness, and a bright smile made his way into Yohan's face. And Wooseok couldn't help but smile back at the cute expression.

Now it was Yohan's turn to cup the older's check with one hand, resting the other on Wooseok's waist, and pulling him into a kiss. Passionately, but still loving and calm. Every single feeling Yohan had nurtured for the older pouring completely onto the kiss. All he wanted was for Wooseok to feel loved, cherished, cared for. And Wooseok felt exactly like that.

When both pulled away to breath, Wooseok acted quickly. He hugged the younger, pushing him onto the bed and not letting go. Yohan laughed softly, caressing the older's back and hair.

"This was definitely a reaction I didn't expect... the feelings being mutual... you kissing me... I liked this a lot

"I'm just glad you're here with me"

"And I won't leave your side for a really long while, that's a promise. I'll never hurt you like that again, Wooseokie"

"I'll also never leave your side Yohan-ah... I want to stay with you forever"

"I'll surely love that a lot"

Wooseok laid slightly on top of Yohan, but not his whole body, as Yohan kept looking down at him while smiling. Yohan put the covers over the two again, cuddling Wooseok even closer. Wooseok pulled in once more for a short simple kiss before settling down comfortably.

"I'll never hide something from you again, Wooseokie. I promise to be completely sincere."

"I promise to always say what's on my mind as well. I love you, Yohan-ah, and I don't want you to be away from me ever again"

"I love you too, and I'll never run away from you again"

Well, needless to say Seungyeon got a very lovely surprise when going to Wooseok's room the next morning.

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I know in this one Wooseok is very far from his natural personality, but I guess it's the kind of fragile and stressed mindset I've been in lately. I'll try to get better or at least be able to separate the books from my own emotions, but I can't promise much. Anyways, I hope you guys have a great day!

Bybye

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