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First off, hi!

Second off, thank you very much for the 3K!

And third off, I am back! My exam week just ended, so I'm coming back with already a few oneshots coming!

The ones already being prepared are:

2Woo

Dongpyo centered

I'm still taking requests, so feel free to leave comments. I not always will write requests at the order they come, because simply of creativity and inspiration.

So, okay, this oneshot is a bit shorter since I wanted to talk to you guys but also give something for you who have been waiting.

Okay so!

Fluff

Hyung line - Wooseok centered (kinda)

Enjoy!

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Wooseok is overall a bright person. Between fans he was already known as the number one hyper birthday boy, always jumping around and screaming at the members' birthday. In the dorms and variety he wasn't much different, always trying to hype members up and being the cute young hyung he is. Even though throughout the survival show he wasn't portrayed as such, Wooseok is actually a funny easygoing guy, and his cute ways always served as a vitamin for the other members.

It was a bit after promotions had ended and shows had started that the members started to notice a difference. Rather than searching for attention like Wooseok usually did, popping in front of the camera, and speaking loudly, he started acting different. Wooseok started just being quiet and sometimes walking away when the cameras were nearby for backstage videos.  From the way he usually reacted, jumping around, clapping, screaming and laughing, Wooseok became quiet. Just sometimes flashing a smile, or turning to the side to laugh. But still, when anyone was having a hard time, he spoke up. When a member didn't seem to be going well on variety, he jumped in, knowing very well every single talent from the other members, and pushed the attention to the members' good point. When a member just needed someone to rely on, or someone to play with after a stressing day, Wooseok was always there. And for the members, it hurt.

It was on a saturday morning with no schedules that the members gathered, not even needing to say anything to know which was the subject. Everyone felt bad in some way. Seeing one of their oldest members always supporting them, but seeing him slowly hide himself, repress himself, know that their affection wasn't being enough or that they were doing something wrong. Just knowing that they couldn't protect the cute hyung hurt, because it seemed to be too late.

Seungwoo sighed, sitting down on the couch with the other 9 members sprawled in different positions. It was morning, and Wooseok was sleeping in, so they thought the opportunity was great to try and do something.

"So... you guys know what's going on, right?"

"Wooseokie hyung... right?"

Hyungjun asked, face bloated and looking sleepy, but eyes attentively scanning everything.

"Yeah... you guys probably noticed how Wooseok has been acting weird. We all know what he went through, and we all know how he was before. There's definitely something going on."

(So that it flows better and doesn't get confusing since many members are talking, I'll just put the members initials before their sentences)

SY: "Me and Wooseok got close since the very beginning of produce... and the hesitant scared Wooseok from then kind of reminds me of what he seems like now. I'm afraid he is being affected by that thing again"

HG: "For me it seems to be something else... No one has brought up that scandal again after we debuted, there was barely any commotion about it."

SW: "Wooseok sees social media a lot, for the past days specially I saw him scrolling through twitter very often."

HJ: "What if it is something that we did?"

DP: "But he keeps supporting us and hyping us up. He was playing with you yesterday, Hyungjunie, when you were kind of stressed"

YH: "I feel like... he loves us, we know that very well. So he supports us, he wants to help us with our problems. It doesn't matter if we did something that hurt him or not, you know how kind Wooseok actually is, he would still try to help."

HG: "So probably he can't keep himself from being affectionate and helpful to us, but he also can't bring himself to open up since he is hurt with something. Or he doesn't want us to stress out about his issue."

HJ: "I want to just talk to him..."

JH: "Me too. We need to do something"

SW: "I think it's better just a few members go in and talk to him at first. Or he will feel overwhelmed with 10 members suddenly in his room."

SY: "What about the hyungs going first? Me, Seungwoo and..."

YH: "I want to go"

SW: "Then is that okay? Me, Seungyeon and Yohan"

All members slightly nodded, everyone looking a bit gloomy due to the worried feeling on their chests. So the three chosen stood up and started making their way to the second floor, then to the room at the end of the corridor. The trio stood in front of the door, looking at each other, almost like discussing what they would do next. But Yohan suddenly took a step forward, knocking on the door.

The trio heard a very weak and muffled voice telling them to come in, and the scene they saw when getting into the room was definitely hurting. The room was very dark, the windows and the curtains closed. Wooseok was usually someone very neat, but things were a bit messy, a drastic contrast from the neatly organized and bright room they usually saw. And Wooseok seemed to be hidden, curled up in a mess of blankets on the bed, only the very top of his honey brown hair letting his existence be known.

The trio approached, and Yohan was again the one who sat on the bed and hugged the smaller member, making him sit up. Wooseok slightly whined, not wanting to move, but sat up nevertheless. His hair was very messy, his black hoodie unraveled, legs still hidden under the blankets. Wooseok rubbed his eyes before saying with a sleepy voice.

"Why are you guys here? We don't have such early schedules..."

SW: "Wooseok-ah... it's 11 AM, already"

WS: "Oh... sorry, Woo hyung"

SW: "It's okay, we don't have schedules soon"

WS: "Then why did you come here?"

SY: "We really need to talk, Wooseok-ah"

Yohan nodded, slightly caressing the older member's back, still sitting beside Wooseok, closely. Wooseok looked at the faces of the other members, noticing how gloomy they looked. So he was instantly alarmed.

WS: "what happened? Did one of the younger members get hurt? What's wrong?"

YH: "There's something wrong, but it's not with us. We're worried about you, Wooseokie Hyung"

Wooseok seemed to freeze for a second, looking at Yohan's face incredulously.

SY: "Wooseok-ah, we know there's something wrong. You have been acting so weird, and we want to help. All members are so so worried about you, we want to make you feel better."

Wooseok looked down after Seungyeon's words. The past days specially his condition had been getting worse each day. He tried to continue helping members, but he couldn't help but start getting quieter, and his psychological state worsened. Truth is, even he didn't know exactly why he was feeling bad. He just knew he felt lonely and worthless, and mostly... unwanted? As the silent period between the group got longer, Yohan scooted closer to the older member, trying to find his gaze. Wooseok slowly looked up at the younger.

YH: "Wooseok-ah... I know you don't like talking about this stuff, but we want to help, and we can't if we don't know what's going on. Let us care for you, protect you and support you. You always do that and so much more for us, so let us do that too."

SY: "Yeah, come on, Wooseok-ah... we want to help just like you always want to help"

Seungyeon crouched on the floor, placing a hand on Wooseok's thigh, and smiling up at him warmly. Seungwoo also took a seat on the other side of Wooseok, taking a hold of his hand. Wooseok just looked at the other member's faces. He was certainly moved by how caring and worried they were, and just knowing they would go that far for him made his heart warm.

WS: "I... don't really know myself... I just feel... drained..."

SY: "Wooseok-ah, you can spill your heart to us, even if you feel like it doesn't make sense, we will still support you"

Wooseok took a deep breath, averting his gaze from the members before continuing. Having them right there felt great and warm, but also felt slightly overwhelming.

WS: "I think... you know what happened during the show. You know how people took me to be like. That was harsh already, and I saw comments on how much people didn't like me... it surely felt bad to be that misunderstood. I thought that now that I can show myself, and show I'm not that kind of person I would feel better, but I don't. I don't feel worthy of what I have now, I don't feel like I'm good enough for you guys, or for the group, or for one it... and I know how people would scream out at me that that isn't true but... it's just how I feel..."

For the whole time, Wooseok looked anywhere but at the members. He didn't want to see their faces when he explained his feelings, he didn't want to see sad or worried expressions. But Yohan made him look up, by gently holding his chin.

YH: "hyung... does this have to do even a bit with how we treat you sometimes? You know... how the members sometimes tease and not answer you?"

Realization seemed to dawn on the oldest member's face, and also on Seungyeon's. Both did realize how teasing the members could be, but never realized it could hurt someone's feelings. Wooseok sighed, still trying to look away.

WS: "Maybe...? It does feel bad sometimes when the members don't listen to me, or tease me about sensitive topics. I don't mind being teased, really, but sometimes people can go too far. I also don't mind it when you play around, it's actually cute watching you guys. But then, again... it can be hurtful when I feel like I don't fit in."

SW: "Wooseok-ah, why do you feel like you can't fit in?"

WS: "Maybe because of the age gap? It's only the three of us from the same generation... Yohan and Hangyulie are a bit ahead, and with the youngest members... sometimes I'm just not taken seriously as a hyung, but then I'm not taken in as a friend as well. I know this is probably so dumb, I'm overreacting and being way too sensitive."

YH: "No, it's not dumb, you are not overreacting. It's your feelings, and there's no right or wrong, or worst or better when it comes to feelings. I understand it... I see how you could feel like you don't have a place in the relationships. You shouldn't feel bad about it, cause the mistake was ours. We couldn't realize your feelings, hyung, and ended up hurting you. I'm so sorry, and I'm sure the members also are, for being so insensitive and not realizing things earlier. "

SW: "I'm really sorry as your leader and your friend, Wooseok-ah. I know it may be hard to find your place, but every single one of us cherish you a lot, really a lot"

SY: "I'm also sorry, Wooseok-ah, we should have known, but we promise to take better care of you from now on"

Wooseok looked down again, pursing his lips to try and hold back any overwhelming emotions. Yohan seemed to notice again the older trying to deal with his feelings, and gently pulled him into a hug. Yohan definitely thought of Wooseok as someone very special to him. Ever since produce he had seen the caring but slightly childish and cute nature of the pretty member, and couldn't help but realize how precious Wooseok had become to him. So he let the older take his time, slightly caressing his back and his hair. Soon the other members approached, Seongwoo taking it to threading his fingers through Wooseok's hair, and Seungyeon continued with one hand on the other's thigh, his left hand caressing the smaller's side gently.

Wooseok felt like a weight had been lifted. He felt cherished and protected by the three members, and even though he always knew they liked him, feeling it was different. So he just snuggled closer, trying to make those seconds last longer, last minutes or even hours. He just wanted that feeling to last longer. The feeling of being loved and wanted. And the members let it be. If needed, they would hold Wooseok, or any other member for hours and hours, just to make sure the member felt okay and happy. Because that's how X1 is. A family that supports and relies on each other, always, but most importantly, a loving one.

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