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"Oh my god you're awake!" The words are stollen out of my mouth by his mother. She comes rushing in and hugging him, his eyes follow me as his mother hugs and kisses him. This is their moment I don't belong here.

I leave.

Driving home 'I'm in love with you Jax Wenson' part of me is glad I got that off my chest but I have this gut feeling that things are about to change.

"How's he doing?" Liv asks when I walk in

"He's awake" I throw my keys and walk to the kitchen

"What?! That's amazing! Can you take me to go see him tomorrow?!"

"Yeah I will, I'm gonna go lay down I don't feel good"

"Ok."

He saw me standing there and I just left, I panicked and ran after I told him that I was in love with him. Oh god I told him I was in love with him! What the hell am I doing?

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"Aren't you coming in?" I stop in front of the hospital

"Yeah but you can head in I'll be right behind you"

"Ok" Liv gets out of the car. I want to get out of the car, I want to walk in that room and see his green eyes get brighter and his wide smile get wider when I walk in there, but what happens after that? I'll remember I said I'm in love with you Jax Wenson the day before and I'll have no idea what that meant.

Was it pressure? Did I pressure myself into telling Jax something I wasn't even ready to say?

How can I just sit in this fucking car when the boy I love is in there hurting?! Oh god did I say boy? I meant... boy, Jax is a boy who I'm in love with. What am I going to do?!

I didn't mean to spend the rest of the time in the car freaking myself out but I guess I did "hey" Liv gets back into the car

"You're back so soon"

"No I'm not it's been like half an hour. Why didn't you come in?"

"Lost track of time. How does he look?"

"Scared, he doesn't know what's going on and the tube in his mouth making him unable to speak isn't helping. You should go see him Mitch, I'm sure he'd love to see you"

"Yeah I will just not right now."

I start to drive us home "you never talk about it" Liv says breaking the silence

"Talk about what?"

"The fire, the fact that you ran in there to save Jax without a second thought. How'd you know he was in there?"

"I didn't, but I didn't want to risk it"

"Don't hate me or HIT me for saying this but I think you like Jax" she turns to me waiting for my reply but I can't say it "Mitch I promise if you do it's ok"

"You're 15 right?"

She laughs "sometimes it feels like I'm older than you"

"I wish."

Making it home I pull into the driveway "do me a favor don't mention anything to mom and dad"

"Yeah" she gets out.

Walking in my room I find my mom putting clothes in my draw, shutting the door she jumps "oh my god! Mitch don't do that"

"My bad"

"How's Jax?"

"I don't know I didn't see him"

"What? Why?" She stops putting clothes in my drawer

"He woke up and I wanted to give him time with his family"

"You don't think he wants to see you?"

"I don't know what he wants mom I haven't spoken to him in weeks"

"That's not true, you talk to him every time you go visit him in the hospital I know you do"

"Yeah but now he's awake, we've been fighting for weeks, and last night I completely dropped my guard and told him how I felt and to tell you the truth mom I'm kind of scared he heard me."

Waiting for her reaction I stand far away, she sits on my bed and taps the spot next to her. Afraid she's mad I don't move from where I'm standing "come sit down Mitchell" she calls and I quickly sit next to her, wrapping her arm around my shoulders "remember when you were 13 we were at the mall, and we were eating lunch, Olivia saw those boys holding hands and she asked you is it ok for them to do that? Remember what you answered?"

"Sometimes people are different and different is ok"

She smiles "you're different my son and that's ok, you care about people, you're a good person Mitch." she kisses me on the cheek "I am proud of everything that you are my boy" she gets up and leaves.

Laying back I stare at my ceiling, His name is the only thing my mind can think about.

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