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We stand in her room kissing each other, holding her leg up as I caress her thigh and the other hand holds her tight against my chest. Her tongue inside my mouth as her hands run through my hair and the other squeeze every part of my chest and arms "take this off" she whispers as she tugs on my jacket and I take it off.

She's in her bra squeezed against my naked chest, little moans leaving her mouth as I kiss her neck

"Hey Jessie where's Lu-" her mom opens the door to us standing in the middle of the room half naked

"Mom! Shut the door!" Jessie yells as we quickly move away from each other "oh my god! Oh my god!" She panics after shutting the door and we put our shirts on "this is bad!"

I smile "I should probably go"

"No! You can't go out there! My mother's crazy" she grabs my arm

"I think we'll be ok" I wait for her to finish getting dressed and she opens the door slowly

Tip toeing down the hall we almost make it to the front door "Jessie" her mom pops out of nowhere "can I talk to you"

"Yeah let me walk Mitch out first" we quickly go outside and she starts to laugh "she's got her serious voice on I'm fucked"

We stand near my car "are you sure you're gonna be ok? I can go back in with you"

"No save yourself while you still can" she jokes "I'll call you later ok"

"Yeah" she kisses me one last time "bye" I get in my car

"Bye" she waves.

It's been a few weeks since Jax told me how he felt, he doesn't talk to me anymore and Summer barely talked to me anyways so school just about sucks now specially without butternut, but Jessie and I are growing closer. We've been hanging out a lot, she's really cool and my parents liked her when they met her last week.

I do miss Jax way more than I thought I would, I hate seeing him at school, and I can tell he doesn't want to ignore me and when I think he's finally coming to talk to me he doesn't. I've tried so many times to talk to him, to tell him that I don't care how he feels about me I care about him too much to lose him but he doesn't give me the chance. Sometimes he'd forget he isn't talking to me, and when he sees me walk into a room he'd smile and wave to me, and when I wave back its like he'd suddenly remember and just quickly look away. I don't really have a place to hang out anymore after butternut got cut down so I just find a table and sit on it listening to music or texting Jessie until the bell rings.

I get home after the drive from Jessie's, walking into my house I see my mom and Liv running around the house frantically "what's going on?" I ask my dad who's watching tv

"Liv's first date" he doesn't sound too happy

"Ew who would date Liv?" I say as I walk up the stairs

"Shut up Mitch!" She yells as she and my mom walk back to her room

Standing at the door I watch as my mom helps her get ready "hey Mitch"

"Hey mom, so we're letting her date now?"

"Mind your business dummy!"

"Liv sit still honey"

"Who are you even going on a date with?"

"Scott" she smiles saying his name "he's on the soccer team"

"Yeah good luck with that" I leave walking across to my room.

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Standing in the hall waiting for class to start I text Jessie, my phone screen is covered by an envelop being held by Summer "what's this?" I take it from her

"I'm throwing a party and you're invited" she smiles

"Me? Why?"

"Well because I'm over you and we can still be friends, right?"

"Yeah I guess so"

"So you'll come? It's this Friday"

"Sure"

"Awesome!" She walks away

"Hey can I bring a date?!" I call out

As she's walking away she turns "why the hell not!"

"How do you feel about a party?" I ask Jessie as we sit at the foot of my bed after school

"I'm always up for a party"

"It's my ex girlfriend's party"

"Ooh that's weird"

"No it's not Summer's cool"

"Does she know about me?"

"No but she has a boyfriend so it won't matter"

"I'd love to go to the party with you Mitch I just don't want to cause any problems"

"You won't, I promise" I probably shouldn't be making any promises.

The next day is Thursday, I'm walking through these hallways with a bunch of people I can't wait to never see again. I wonder if anyone else here hates this place as much as I do? Most of these people look like they belong here and it's so funny to watch those that are obviously going to peak after high school.

I'm on my free period now and usually I like to leave and come back but Jessie's at school and the only friend I had won't talk to me so I'm stuck here. So I head to the free period room for the first time ever to do some "reading". Walking in the room it's pretty empty, I knew no one came here. I walk around checking it out and I get to a table way in the back, someone's laying on it with their head down, walking up to the person "hey you ok?" I ask

Lifting his head up to look at me "I'm fine" I see Jax face who's jaw practically drops when he sees me

I'm just as surprised "oh I'm sorry I didn't think it was you I'll go" I turn to leave but I realize what's the point? I have a lot to say to him "no actually I think I'm going to stay" I turn back around sitting at his table

"What are you doing?"

"How could you just stop talking to me Jax? I get it you have feelings for me and you didn't want them to get worse but did you ever stop to realize that maybe I need you in my life?" He doesn't reply "Jax I'm sorry that you feel the way you do but I'd never stop being your friend and it was so unfair how you decided that you'd rather never speak to me again then get over your feelings"

"I have to go" he grabs his bag standing up

I stand up too "you think it's fun for me? Watching you knowing I can't talk to you, you're my only friend here Jax"

"Excuse me" he tries to leave but I'm blocking him

"Acknowledge what I'm saying to you!"

He continues to try and leave but I don't budge "please just move!" He begs with a sad face

"Fine Jax!" I step aside allowing him to go but before he leaves I say "maybe if I stop caring about you as much as I do you'll be my friend again, because that's my mistake right? Caring about you too much" he stops to hear me his back facing me, but as soon as I finish talking he leaves.

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