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Getting to Jax's house I ring the doorbell and wait. The front door swings open "hi is Jax home?" I ask who I'm thinking is his mom

"Hello, he is come on in" I walk in and she shuts the door "Jax someone's here for you!" She calls out

Few seconds later Jax walks out of his room walking towards us "Mitch?" He comes closer with a confused look on his face "what are you doing here?"

"Checking up on you"

He flashes a faint smile "uh mom this is my friend Mitch, Mitch this is my mom"

"Nice to meet you" I turn to her

"You too honey"

"Come on" Jax grabs my arm pulling me to his room

I notice the bandages around his wrist as he shuts his door "did they give you anything for that?"

"Just some pain killers" looking down he notices the bag in my hand "what's in the bag?"

"I bought some movies and ice cream, I didn't know what you liked but it's what I used to do for Summer when she was sick and it always made her feel better"

He takes the bag from my hand "what am I your girlfriend?" He asks jokingly. Dumping the bag he looks through the movies "these are all so girly"

"They're Summer's favorites and I figured-"

"They'd be mines too since we're best friends?"

"Yeah"

"They're not, I'm more into thrillers and suspenseful movies"

"I didn't know that sorry"

"Are you kidding? You came to my house with ice cream and movies, don't be sorry. I'm sure we can find something to watch on tv." Jax and I sit on his couch watching tv "what'd you do today?" He asks turning to me during commercials

"Hung out with Jessie"

"The cute girl from the party last night?"

"Yes"

He grins "do you like her?"

"I just met her Jax"

"So? It's ok to like someone you just met, you two seemed like you were hitting it off"

"Well I met her last night and we only hung out once so I don't think that's enough time to like someone"

He stares at me "you're a strange dude Mitch"

"Thanks. Where's your bathroom?"

"Down the hall second door to your right." Getting up I walk to the bathroom and use it, after I finish and wash my hands which took about two minutes I walk back to the living room. Jax is standing up holding my phone in his hand "today's your birthday?" He asks shocked

"Were you going through my phone?"

"No! Your phone just dinged and the message popped up on the screen from your mom hurry home to open your birthday presents" he says the message as I take my phone from his hand "why wouldn't you tell me it's your birthday?"

"I did last night while you were passed out drunk in the back seat of my car, and plus it's not a big deal"

"It's your birthday Mitch that's a huge deal!" Shoving my phone in my pocket I walk around Jax and grab my keys "you're leaving? Did I piss you off?"

"You read the text I have to go home and open presents" I fake enthusiasm

"I don't get why you felt like you had to hide it from me"

"I wasn't trying to hide anything from you Jax! My birthday isn't important so I don't make a big deal about it"

"You don't give yourself enough credit Mitch"

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"You walk around afraid to show emotion or care about anything, like nothing's important to you. I wish I knew how you felt about anything, you're like a robot"

"Are you done insulting me?"

"I'm not insulting you! I just wish you'd share more with me, we're friends right?"

I open my mouth to reply but my phone rings "yes mom!" I answer it a little pissed "...I know I'm on my way" I hang up. "I have to go" I leave not letting Jax say another word.

I care about stuff! Yeah I don't share much and I keep my emotions to myself but that doesn't mean I don't have any. Jax thinks he has me pegged but he doesn't really know me, I don't think anyone does really. Getting home I get out of the car and walk into my house "you're home!" My mom yells "come in here"

Walking into the dinning room I see a bunch of gifts on the table and my dad, mom, and Liv sitting there waiting for me "what's this?" I ask standing at the table

"Your gifts now will you please hurry up and open them so I can go back to my room!" Liv roles her eyes

Turning to my parents "why are there so many?"

"You know how your mother gets when it comes to presents"

"Shut up Gus!" She snaps at my dad "now sit down honey and open them."

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Walking into Liv's room as she sits at her computer desk doing whatever, I lay on her bed "what?" She asks

"Do you think I care about stuff?" I ask her staring at the ceiling

"What?" She stops doing whatever and turns to me on the bed "what do you mean?"

"I mean do you think I walk around like a careless robot?" I sit up and look at her

She laughs "you're high right?"

"No"

"You care about stuff Mitch"

"yeah like what?"

"I don't know! You're supposed to know"

"Well I don't know"

"God you're so weird! It's your freaking birthday and you're just moping around, what's wrong with you?"

"I'm going to bed" I get up from her bed

"It's 8pm Mitch!" She calls out as I leave.

What's wrong with me? Maybe Jax is right. Everyone has something about them that makes them different but I don't, why am I so boring?

Laying in bed thinking my phone rings, looking at the screen its a text from Jax 'happy birthday'

Even when I'm kind of mad at him I can't ignore him 'thanks' I reply

'I'm sorry I called you a robot'

'No you're not'

'Fine maybe I meant it a little but I just wish I knew what you were thinking sometimes'

'If you want to know what I'm thinking then ask me Jax' the three dots pop up and I wait for him to reply but they go away

Few seconds later he replies 'I'll keep that in mind'

'Ok' he doesn't reply after that. I spend the rest of my night trying to think of things that are important to me and so far all I've got are my family, Summer, and Jax. I mean of course I care about him he's been there for me and I don't know if that's what he wants to hear, that he's special to me because he is.

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