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Jongin

I knew Kyungsoo stepped in on me when I was changing, and it definitely didn't make the night get any less awkward between the two of us. He was hiding behind the door, even when I was fully dressed, and I had to practically open up the door and drag him inside so he'd know it was safe to come back.

"Don't overreact," I sighed, "I wasn't naked either." I rolled my eyes, trying not to sound like it was a big deal, even though I was pretty sure I could die from embarrassment soon. "Do you want to sleep by the wall?" He nodded and got in bed whilst I went to turn off the lights. 

It became completely dark and I literally couldn't see anything - not even my own hand right in front of my face. I thought I was far away from the small table that was close to the bed, but I wasn't apparently, and I accidentally stumbled my toe on the corner of it.

"Ow fuck!" I cursed, and I heard Kyungsoo sat up.

"What happened?" He reacted right away when I yelped in pain, but I calmed myself down as the pain washed slowly away. 

"It's nothing," I whimpered, "just stumbled my toe." 

I finally reached the bed after almost having to crawl on the floor to reach it without injuring myself anymore. I crawled up in it, and pulled the duvet over to cover my body cozily. 

Kyungsoo and I had to share the same duvet and bed, but we had one pillow each since he seemed to like having two pillows in his bed normally. 

His bed was luckily big and spacious, so it was definitely big enough for us both without one having to sleep on top of the other. It wasn't as big as a double bed, but it was good enough. I wouldn't really ask for more, I just found it a bit awkward because of our accidental kiss that took place not even an hour ago. 

"You asleep yet?" I heard Kyungsoo suddenly whisper after laying for around ten minutes in silence.

"Yes," I replied, obviously joking. I couldn't help but to smile to myself at my lame joke that I found funny. I tried to see his face as well as I couldn't tell if he smiled or not. "Are you smiling?"

"Yes," he replied softly, and I could hear his smile in the sentence. 

I grinned satisfied, feeling like I just reached my goal for something big. I was lying on my side as I was facing Kyungsoo, and I knew he was facing me too. I tried to see if I could see his face, but it was still too dark, even though my eyes had gotten more used to the dark than earlier, and so I was able to detect where Kyungsoo's face was. 

"G - Goodnight," I muttered slightly embarrassed as I realised we had both been staring at each other in the dark without the other knowing, and so we both turned around to let the awkwardness slip away.

"What did you want to tell me?" I asked him, a bit nervous myself. Kyungsoo and I had been friends in ages, and we've even worked together in a same company for years after we graduated high school. We had both been single for as long as we've been friends, and he wanted to talk to me in private one night at my house. 

His breathing was unsteady, and he kept on intertwining his hands together shakily. He barely kept an eye contact with me, and always looked down at the floor between us. 

"You can tell me," I reassured him. 

"Remember when we talked together that we had to tell the other when we liked someone?" he asked and I slowly nodded, feeling a bit nervous myself. Did he find someone he liked? Was he here to tell me he was in love with someone? Someone...not me?

"Yeah," I nodded and he closed his eyes and took a long deep breath.

"It's..." My heart was beating rapidly fast, more than I had expected, and I wanted him to change his mind. I didn't want him to be in love with someone else. I wanted him to love me, not some other person I didn't know. Was this what happened when you waited too long? "It's you!" he suddenly yelled, which gobsmacked me. 

I stared at him in shock. I didn't know how to react; I was just too surprised. I didn't expect it at all. 

He seemed embarrassed that I stared for so long and he looked down again with a sad expression. "It's okay if you don't like me back-" 

I interrupted him by grabbing his face on each side softly with my hands and crashed my lips onto his. I had my eyes closed, but I knew his was wide open, in shock. The kiss lasted longer than I had expected.

I had this weird feeling. I had woken up from the weirdest dream, but it still felt real. Like the kiss was real. 

I slowly opened my eyes to meet Kyungsoo's sleeping face, and my lips on his. My eyes widen as I realised what was happening, and I quickly moved away. I almost screamed out in shock, but I realised I'd wake him up and covered my mouth with my hands. 

Why did I dream that I had feelings for him, and that I kissed him? I'd understand if it was Chanyeol because he's the guy I actually had feelings for - believe it or not - but why Kyungsoo? 

No matter how I look at it, Kyungsoo was still my first accidental kiss. I never knew what if felt like to have your own lips meeting someone else's. I never knew what feeling you'd get when they met. Was it supposed to feel ticklish in my belly? Was it supposed to make me feel nervous whenever we got eye contact out of embarrassment? Was it supposed to make me feel shy whenever I had to talk to him?

Kyungsoo

I couldn't remember if I dreamt or not, or what if was about. I think it had something to do with kissing, as I could remember the feeling of having someone else's lips on mine. Or it was just my head messing up of what happened yesterday. I still felt incredibly embarrassed about that, since I had never experienced kissing someone before. 

It was weird though, since I had never been able to feel someone's slight touch, but I felt the kiss. I knew it was just on the lips, but I still somehow felt it. And the weird part is that...I liked it. I liked the feeling it gave me. I like the new feeling I had never experienced before, and I wanted to do it again.

I turned my body around, still having my eyes closed as I was too tired to open them, and I realised I was alone in the bed. I opened my eyes slightly to see if Jongin was in the room or not. 

My eyes widen as I realised he was still here, and he was half naked again, only this time, he had his pyjamas pants on, but he was taking off his t-shirt, and the only thing I could see was his back. I wanted to close my eyes and just ignore it, but a part of me wanted to continue to look. 

When I thought about it, it really sounded creepy, but his back wasn't how I imagined it. It was strong and clean, and it made me somehow wanting to hug it. 

He put on his jumper back on and then took off his pyjamas pants. My face flushed red right away, and my eyes closed for a second, but then they opened again. It didn't take long before he put on his sweat pants again, and then he turned towards me. I was too late to pretend to be asleep. He caught me.

"Oh, you're awake?" he asked, a bit shocked, but smiled as if he was happy. I closed my eyes again and rolled to the other side with my back facing him.

"No," I replied and wanted to sleep again, but I knew I wouldn't be able to. I didn't hear any movements from Jongin and thought he sat down on the floor or something, and when I turned my head around, he was nowhere to be seen. I frowned and glanced around in the room. "Jongin?" I asked stupidly and of course got no answer. I didn't even know why I asked, since there was no possible way to hide in my room. 

I got out of bed and headed towards the bathroom. I always had a bad breath in the morning and I didn't want him to think I was disgusting; it was enough to motivate me to brush my teeth and wash my face. I also ruffled up my hair, not too noticeable that I touched it, but also not as bad as when I got out of bed. When I was satisfied with my look, I walked down the stairs and over to the kitchen to find the missing puppy.

"You're making breakfast?" I asked surprised, as I was about to start making breakfast for us as well. My parents told me yesterday before we went to bed that they'd be gone by the time we'd wake up and be gone the whole day, and that I had to make breakfast for the guest. I didn't mind though, since I enjoyed cooking, so I was really surprised when I found the well-built boy standing there in my apron.

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