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Reid's POV

Dakota's been mad at me about drunk driving and about Lacie. He hasn't really talked to me in quite some time.

"Dakota, please. Please just talk to me." He scoffed.

"Reid, I tried talking to you but every time I do, you're drunk. You need to stop. You're even drunk right now! It's been two weeks straight!"

"Well, if you talked to me, I wouldn't be drinking like this." He sighed and reached his hand up to my face. He rubbed my cheek and kissed me.

"Reid, you should really watch yourself before you spiral like your dad did. I love you and I want you to be okay. But, I won't be able to be with you if you're going to be like this." I stood up, anger coursing through me.

"Don't bring up my father! He was a good man."

"Yes, he was, but you remember having to take care of him when he kept drinking. I'm not going to do the same with you." I glared at him, hating that he'd compare me to that.

"I'm not going to do that!"

"Then control yourself!" I sneered at him before leaving the room. I went downstairs and outside. I sat on the side, by the pool and sighed. I ran a hand through my hair. Swimming doesn't even help me anymore.

I didn't tell Dakota, but it bothered me that he was all I had. If he left me, I'd be alone. I wanted him in my life more than anything, and I would even if I did have more people. But, I know I messed up.

My phone rang and I looked down at it. Dwight was calling and I answered.

"Bro! Lacie's here and she said the reason you and Dakota are fighting is because you cheated with her."

"I didn't! She's a fucking liar. I'm so tired of this shit!"

"I know, I believe you. But is that why?"

"Yeah... Dakota caught her kissing me."

"Well, you know you had to kiss her back."

"I know. I did it to see if I was gay."

"Are you?" I laughed a little.

"I think so."

"Good luck getting your guy back man." I hung up and laid back. I was too drunk for this, honestly. But, at this point? drinking didn't even help as much as I thought it would.

"You know, if you just stopped drinking and really talked to him, you two could be together again." I heard Mr. Shea say.

"Yeah." I mumbled.

"He loves you Reid. He knows you can be better and so do you. So do I." I rubbed my face, trying to concentrate on what he was saying, but I was fucked up.

"Mhmm."

"We can help you." I sighed and looked at him.

"My father is dead. I don't need another one okay? Just leave me alone." I told him, getting up. I wobbled a little, almost falling into the pool. He caught me and I held on to him. "Thank you... you're still not my dad." I said as I walked away.

I went outside to my car and sat in there. I reached under my seat and took a swig from the bottle of Vodka.

I ran a hand through my hair.

I am my father.

I'm sitting here, sad about not being good for Dakota and I'm being exactly what I shouldn't be.

"I'm a dumb ass." I mumbled. I groaned and laid my head on the wheel. "I'm going to try to do better for him from now on." I told myself.

I nodded, deciding to throw the bottle out of the car. I closed my eyes, thinking about my father. I guess I can't blame him for being an alcoholic. It's hard.

I sighed and turned the car on.

"I promise this is the last time I'll drive drunk Dakota." I mumbled, backing out. I just wanted to go to my dad's grave. It was only five minutes away.

I drove down the street, realizing I probably shouldn't be driving like this. I was swerving slightly. I sat up, trying to focus more. A car was coming towards me, and I honestly didn't know if it was in my lane or not. I swerved out of the way, feeling the car flip.

Shit. I thought before everything went black.

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I woke up hearing two men talking.

"Yes, I know I'm not his father but he lives with me."

"Sir, I can't tell you anything about him."

"Come on, please. He's my son's boyfriend."

"I'm sorry sir. It's against the rules. We'll do what we think is best for him until he wakes up and can answer on his own." I heard Mr. Shea sigh and I didn't hear anything else.

"I'm sorry son, I sure hope he wakes up." I felt a hand in mine, one which I knew was Dakota's. I opened my eyes, and Dakota was staring at me.

"Hey." I mumbled and he smiled widely, tears in his eyes.

"Hey." He leaned towards me and kissed me. "I'm so happy you've woken up." I stared at him and sighed.

"So am I." I smiled at him, reaching my hand up to cup his cheek.

"You've just gotten out of surgery. They wouldn't tell us what was wrong with you, but now that you're awake, they'll tell you." I nodded.

"Okay, I guess we should call the doctor." I looked at Mr. and Mrs. Shea, they smiled at me and left to get the doctor. I looked at Dakota. "I'm really sorry for-"

"We don't have to talk about that right now Reid. I'm just happy you're alive. Anything could've happened, I don't know what I would've done." I smiled sadly. I didn't want him to feel sorry or forgive me just because of this.

"Okay." He kissed my forehead and sat down in the chair. He started typing on his phone.

"I think Felix would like to know you're up and out of surgery." I nodded. The doctor came in and checked on my vitals and everything.

"You're doing great to say you've just gotten into a crash. You're very luck to even be alive. Your car is totaled. We were told it flipped over a few times before hitting a tree. Thankfully, you had your seat belt on." I sighed, thank God for Dakota.

"Okay. Thank you." He nodded.

"You'll be sore for the next few days. You'll need to take care of your scars of course."

"Okay." He left shortly after and I looked at Mr. and Mrs. Shea. "Thank you guys for being here." They smiled.

"Of course we'd be here!" Mrs. Shea said. I looked at Mr. Shea before looking down. I felt bad about what I'd said to him before I wrecked. I laid back on the bed, looking at Dakota.

"What?" He asked me. I smiled and shook my head.

"Nothing." But, I really just thought he was cute. I was happy he and I would be fine. I did want to talk everything out with him, but I knew I should be patient.

"Whatever." He grinned cheekily. "You're just checking me out." I shrugged, feeling a soreness in my arms.

"You love me." His eyes twinkled.

"I do."

I was out of the hospital within the next few days.

"I'm going to go take a shower, okay?" Dakota told me, leaning up to kiss me. I nodded and he let go of my hands, walking away. I was going to go upstairs too, but I needed to talk to Mr. Shea. He was still downstairs, but Mrs. Shea had went up.

I walked into the living room, somewhat nervous. My hands were shoved in my pocket and I took a deep breath.

"What's going on Reid?" He asked me, without turning around.

"I uhh... I'm sorry about the way I talked to you and treated you that night. You and Mrs. Shea let me stay here and you've been so great to me... I thought I only had Dakota, but I realized I have you guys too. So, thank you for everything." He stood up and hugged me.

"We're here for you Reid. Anything you ever need. I hope to have you around for a long time." I smiled and hugged him back.

"Yeah, me too." We pulled back and he patted my back.

"Well, have a goodnight. Get some rest, it's been a while since you've been in a nice bed."

"That's true. Goodnight." I walked up the stairs and to the room. I went to the bathroom, yes I knew Dakota was in the shower. But I wanted to shower too, and talk to him.

I pulled my clothes off and opened the shower door. He looked at me surprised, then he smiled and held out his hand for me to join him.

I stepped in and immidiately pulled him close, closing the door with my other hand.

"I wanted to tell you the truth, about Lacie." His eyes grew wide.

"W-what?"

"I knew she'd been coming onto me, but that last time, I let her kiss me. I'd been wondering if I was gay or just attracted to you. I was never attracted to her. Well, I didn't really like the kiss, so I thought of you, to compare, and of course I was aroused. She took that as a sign and tried to grab my dick. Which is when I told her to get the fuck off me because I realized it wasn't you. I'm really sorry about doing that."

"You should be." He told me frowning.

"But, I thought I needed to figure it out before I do something stupid in the future to find out if I was gay. Now, I know it doesn't even matter. I just want you. I'm not going to do this again, you have my word. I'm falling for you Dakota, and I don't want to mess this up again. I want to love you like you love me." He hugged me tightly and I sighed, closing my eyes.

"I'm glad you've realized it. I love you so much Reid."

"I know baby."

"And you're done depressed drinking?" I nodded.

"Yeah, I'm done." He smiled and leaned up to kiss me.

"Great." He said, letting out a breath of air. Then, I felt his hand around my member, making me suck in a breath. "We have some things to take care of baby." He whispered in my ear. I shivered and pushed him against the wall, kissing him forcefully.

"Hmm, we should take our time." I told him, kissing his neck. He was moving his hand and I threw my head back.

"No problem."

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