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Niall's POV

I pulled the cardboard box shut and looked around the bare room. All my things are now finally packed after a week of getting everything in the boxes. It feels strange to be moving. I know I'll miss Theo a lot. But hopefully he can stay at our house. Our house. it feels so good to say that. Harry couldn't stop smiling when I told him I was ready. I want to live with him. I'm actually going to live with Harry. We're going to live together. Harry and me! Can you believe it!? I certainly can't. And, we're going to have a son. Harry arranged for the papers to be signed for myself to be the second parent guardian of Ben. I'm a fucking dad! I still don't understand how I got here. I was able to take Theo out on day trips or take a small trip to the supermarket to get some groceries to help out and I would never have thought I would do anything I can do now. I can finally step outside without having a panic attack. Ah, I certainly do not miss those.

In other news...Harry is all I can think about. Harry Harry Harry Harry. my brain is all Harry. Or H as I like to call him. H. My H. He's grown out his hair so it's hanging flawlessly just above his shoulders, still with the curls I've always been so infatuated with and so...so...so soft. So soft. To be able to run my hands through his hair as he hums in content while we lay in the king sized bed, cuddling and clinging to each other as if our lives depended on it...yeah...I love my life. He explained to me how he became head of the police force and how many offenders he has caught, and all the horrible things this world has come to as well. It's horrendous. But there's really nothing that can be done to a person's personality. They're just fucking nut cases. That's it.

"Niall!" I jumped and looked to see Ben running towards me, along with Theo who hugged my legs and Harry leaning against the door frame, his arms crossed across his chest and a smirk playing on his lips. I blushed and tasseled the two young boys' hair, telling them to run along as Harry pushed off the door frame with his shoulder. He wrapped his strong arms around my waist and I rested my head on his chest, humming happily.

"Hey babe". I smiled in content and traced the showing area of his chest from his open shirt. Harry hummed and kissed my hair. "You ready?" I took a deep breath and pulled back a little to look up at him and nod.

"Yeah". He kissed me quickly and grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers and pulling me to the car. "But the boxes!"

"Don't worry babe, I got them. Just buckle Ben in for me" He walked back inside and Ben came running out, obviously excited as he bounced with joy. I picked him up and say him in the car seat, pulling his seatbelt on.

"Harry says he is very happy now". I frowned at Ben. "He say he misses you a lot". I tried to fight a smirk. "He would not stop talking about you! I find it very funny when Liam would yell at him to shut up about Niall already". I chuckled and closed the car door, getting in the passenger seat. Harry came out shortly after with Greg, putting the boxes in the boot, even though there really wasn't much for me to pack, I had at least five or six of them. The boot closed and Harry got in the drivers seat, starting the engine and rolling my window down as Greg leaned in.

"You good Ni?" I could see the concern shade over his eyes and smiled, nodding.

"Yeah, I'm good" He smiled. "Thanks (sounds like tanks) for everything Greg".

"Bye uncle Ni!" I looked to see Denise and Theo standing on the porch waving and I waved back.

"Alright, keep in touch little bro". Greg ruffled my hair and walked over to the porch, picking up Theo.

"You ready to go babe?" I looked to Harry and back to the house, the house full of memories, full of family. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah. I'm ready".

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"Alright, in there is the bathroom, and that there is Ben's room, and over there is the study, oh and that's the dining and this here is our room and-"

"Haz". I chuckled and grabbed his hand, rubbing it with my thumb. "Thanks, but I think I got it now". He blushed and I smirked a little at the colour.

"Oh". He scratched the back of his neck, facing down and obviously trying to hide the blush with his hair.

"Why don't we watch a movie?"

"YES! I pick!" Ben jumped and cheered as he ran to the cabinet with the DVSs. Harry and I chuckled as we followed Ben to the lounge room. Ben put The Lion King in, which Harry tried to assure he did not own until he got Ben but I think everyone knows that's a lie. There is no way that could possibly be true. I went along with it anyway, just so I didn't shoot down his ego. Ben set up a small 'bed' on the couch, putting his pillow and quilt on it and snuggling in, given it is almost nine at night. Harry and I however, sat on the two seat sofa, Harry's arm around my shoulder as I leant into him.

I barely payed any attention to the movie and concentrated on Harry's breathing, as his chest rose and fell at a steady pace. I still couldn't wrap my head around how far I've come. Before I met Harry, I couldn't even open a damn window. I mean, all those deceases travelling around in that awfully polluted air...all that illness and...anyway...I wouldn't socialise, although, back then I didn't think anyone really cared to talk to me, and I was so afraid of what people can do. I didn't want to get hurt again. Plus the world is so unsafe I...Dammit. I didn't want to think like that anymore. I don't want to be like that anymore. I can't.

I jumped as Harry's phone started ringing and he jumped up, running to the next room. I looked over to see Ben sleeping soundly and realised why Harry had dashed.

"Are you sure?" Harry came back in, a small frown etched on his face. "Yeah okay, I'll be there soon". He sighed and shoved his phone back in his pocket, leaving the room to come back seconds later with his shoes. "I have to go in to the station". I frowned.

"But it's my first night here.."

"I know Ni but-"

"It's our first night living together".

"I know. I'm sorry". He kissed my forehead and ran a hand through his hair. "Can you put Ben to bed for me? thanks. I'll be back later". I watched him walk away. Was I just some new found babysitter he's found that he can just leave to look after Ben whenever something comes up? If this is how it's going to be, I don't want to live here. I don't want to live like this. I sighed and got up, pulling the quilt off Ben, cautiously grabbing the pillow and making my way to his room, setting the bed again. I pulled the quilt down and walked back into the lounge room, sliding my arms under his weight and lifting him. He stirred as I lay him down and pulled the quilt back over him.

"Niall?"

"Hey Ben".

"Where Harry?" I sighed and kissed his forehead.

"Go back to sleep mate". He nodded and drifted off quickly.

I waited up in the quiet lounge room, having turned off the movie and staring at the black TV screen with my mind racing. Why wouldn't Harry turn them down? It's our first night living together and he just left. I didn't want to be alone with a child at night. I'm still so unsure of taking care of a child alone. I'm so incapable of caring for another. I'm just mad that Harry put me in this position. I know I'm probably going overboard but I'm terrified.

"Niall? What are you doing up?" I could head him shuffling into the room. "It's almost two in the morning". I glared at him and huffed.

"No shit". He sighed and ruffled his hair, sitting down next to me.

"I'm sorry Ni, it was urgent". I shook my head and stood up.

"I'm going to bed".

"Niall wait". I shook my head.

"Don't Harry. Just, don't". I walked into our room and pulled my tshirt off, unbuckling my pants and pulling them down. I climbed into bed in my boxers and lay facing the wall. Harry came in shortly after, shuffling around. I felt the bed dip and we lay in silence for a few minutes.

"I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't have done that. I don't know how I can make it up to you". I turned around.

"It was stupid". He nodded. "It was selfish". He nodded again. "You're an idiot".

"I know".

"Yet I still love you". He grinned so wide his dimples began to show and I rolled my eyes.

"I love you Niall. I love you". He caressed my face in his hand and rested his forehead against mine. As long as he doesn't pull a stunt like that again, I think I can get used to this.

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Hi....I know my update is so so late, but I lost motivation and then I planned on updating the other day but my friend was in hospital for appendicitis and it was yeah...and I woke up today with a cold omg I feel like absolute crap.

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