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Harry was going crazy. He was smashing frames, trashing the room, screaming. He was out of control. Niall was completely terrified. He didn't know what to do. There wasn't really anything he could do. Harry had locked the door and Niall kept knocking, asking for Harry to open it but he wouldn’t. Niall flinched every time he heard the echo of shattering glass clash to the ground or the loud snap of some broken furniture. Harry’s screams are what scared Niall the most. It was three hours of that until Niall heard Harry’s soft cries. He softly knocked on the door again. 

“Baby please open the door”. He heard the click of the lock and heard movement before slowly opening the door. Harry was curled up against the furthest wall, his body shaking from the sobs that escaped his lips, his curls a mess, his eyes wide with fear from his outburst. “Oh Harry”. Niall made his way over to the crying boy and knelt in front of him, pushing his mattered curls back.

“I’m sorry”. Harry’s voice came out broken and cracked as he let more tears drop from his red rimmed, puffy eyes. 

“It’s okay. You’re okay”. Niall pulled Harry’s head into his chest and soothingly brushed his fingers through Harry’s hair. “Harry who did this to you?” Harry shook his head. “Please tell me. I’m worried about you”.

“Are you really?” Niall frowned and pulled back.

“Of course I am! I love you Harry”. Harry searched Niall’s face for a few minutes. 

“Do you really?”

“Harry what has gotten into you?”

“You don’t love me. No one loves me. Just like Luke said”. Niall’s frown deepened. 

“Harry”

“Just leave Niall”. Niall was hurt from Harry’s harsh tone but thought it was best he did as Harry wished. He took Harry’s phone quickly and left the room, clicking on Zayn’s contact. 

“Harry? You okay?” Niall took a deep breath and walked into his music room. 

“Zayn it’s Niall”.

“Ah, hi, is ah…Is Harry okay?”

“I don’t think so. He just had a massive outburst in my room and broke practically everything. He was yelling and screaming and…he believes I don't love him”. They were silent for a moment. “Zayn what happened at the school?” He could hear Zayn quietly sigh. 

“Luke Train said some things today. And he’s been bullying Harry for years now”.

“Train”. Niall knew that name. He knew it so well. He had dated Jake. Jake Train. “Is he the one that’s beating Harry too?” Zayn muttered a small yes and Niall was instantly filled with anger. He hung up and grabbed his car keys, not even paying attention to the fact that he was actually going outside, driving to his high school prick of a three day boyfriend’s house. Apparently he had married Ben but Niall wasn't so sure. He pulled up in front of the small, slightly old looking house and stormed to the front door, knocking hard. The door flung open and the man smirked as soon as he recognised Niall. 

“Well well well, what do you know? The Niall Horan is standing on my doorstep. Never thought I’d be seeing you again”. Niall glared at Jake and pushed past him. “Where do you think you’re going?” Niall completely ignored him and stormed up the stairs opening two doors before finding Luke. He stormed towards him, catching him off guard as he grabbed his shirt and shoved him against the wall, his legs dangling. 

“You little prick!” Luke looked at Niall in fear as Niall fisted his shirt more.

“Who are you?” Niall chuckled bitterly. 

“You fucking ruined my boyfriend!” Luke frowned then smirked. 

“Oh, you're the agora-freak!” Niall threw Luke against the wall again, making him wince. 

“He’s a mess. Congratulations. You succeeded”. Luke felt slightly guilty now. “Why the fuck are you bullying him when your fucking dads are gay? huh?” Niall loosened his grip slightly. “What was your intention? What would you do if he tried to kill himself?”

“D-did he?”

“You better hope not! You’re driving him closer to it anyway. He really believes no one loves him. Who knows how much longer it will be before he wants to be gone from the world!”

“I-I’m sorry”.

“Don’t touch him again!” Niall let go of him and he fell on the floor with a thud. 

“You really love him, don't you?”

“Yes”.

“Look, I really am so”

“Niall! What are you doing!?” Niall glared at Luke and spat out a small ‘nothing’ as he left the house, leaving Jake confused. “Hey! Don’t you just walk away! What did you do!?” Jake came running out and threw his hands in the air, pointing aggressively at Niall. 

“You don't get to talk!”

“Fuck Niall! That was over eight years ago!”

“You used me! You used me and bullied me, beating me to a pulp. You told me that no one loved me and no one ever would because I was disgusting and you wanted to be sick when you fucking has sex with me! You made my life a living hell for years so don't you dare tell me to get over that”.

“I can’t believe you’re still sooking over the past. You haven't changed at all Niall, you're just as pathetic!”.

“You ruined me! You made me so insecure about my scars that I couldn't even trust my boyfriend, afraid he’d do the same as you did. You’re a fucking sick bastard!” Jake smirked.

“You’re still the same. Just a tad more confident”.

“I hate you. I hate you for what you did to me!” Jake punched Niall three times in his stomach, making Niall groan and tumble to the ground. He threw his fist to Niall’s cheek, kneeling down.

“Get over the past Niall. Just stop being such a little baby or your boyfriend will leave you”. And this is exactly why Niall never wants to go outside. He’s hurt. 

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Harry was lying on the floor, sleeping peacefully, but uncomfortable, as he had cried himself to sleep. He felt terrible for being so cold to Niall. He didn't mean to. But Luke had really gotten to him. He really believed every word Luke had said because it seemed to make sense. His mother died in that car crash he was in, which was the time he told her he was gay. So really, to him it was his fault she crashed. Gemma left as soon as Harry told her and his father hated him. He had no one. He truly believed that. Luke just trigged the thoughts. 

Niall lifted Harry and took him to the spare room where the bed wasn't torn to parts and pushed his hair back from his eyes, kissing his forehead softly. 

“I love you Harry”. Harry stirred and sleepily whined, frowning at the ache of his eyes and head. 

“Ni?” Niall sat down on the bed and ran his fingers over Harry’s bruised cheek. 

“Yeah Haz”.

“I’m sorry Ni”. Niall’s eyes watered as Harry opened his eyes.

“It’s okay Harry. It’s okay”.

“What happened to your cheek?” Harry’s frown deepened as he curiously ran his fingers over the swelling right cheek. Niall closed his eyes at Harry’s soft touch.

“Nothing”.

“Niall, that’s not nothing, where did you go?”

“Do you trust me Harry?” He nodded. “I promise, it’s nothing okay? Just trust me”.

“But Niall”

“Please Harry?” Harry sighed but nodded. “Are you okay now?”

“Yeah, I think so. It’s just, all the things Luke said to me made me really think about things. When…” Harry took a shaky breath. “When I told my mum that I was gay…she…she crashed. It was my fault. It’s my fault she died Niall”. Harry looked up to Niall with teary eyes and sighed. “And then when I told Gemma all that, she…she just looked at me with such disgust. That’s why she left. She left because of me. And then there’s my dad, Niall they all hated me”.

“That’s not true Harry. No one hates you”.

“They do Niall”.

“But I don’t, Louis, Liam and Zayn don’t. You have people who love and care for you Harry. Don’t look at the people who aren’t here right now. Look at the people that are standing before you when you need someone the most”.

“Niall?” Harry looked up. 

“Yes Haz?”

“I love you”. Niall smiled widely. 

“I love you too Harry”.

“You mean it?” Niall rolled his eyes and lay next to Harry.

“Yes, I really do love you”. Harry smiled, loving those words coming from Niall. It made him feel special. He was Niall’s and Niall was his. Nothing could ever change that. 

“Niall, do you know why the lady’s beat you?” Niall tensed from the reminder and took a deep breath. 

“I don't know Harry”.

“I don't like the thought of you getting hurt. I hate it. I hate that you came home hurt. I can tell you've been crying. Where did you go?”

“Please don't get mad?” Harry frowned. 

“Why would I get mad?”

“Harry, I went to see Luke”

“He did this to you?” Harry tried to scramble up but Niall stopped him.

“No, I was stronger than him. It was his dad”.

“His da-”

“Harry, Luke’s dad was one of the guys who used me. He had sex with me then made my life a living hell for the next three years. He told me how disgusting my body was. He beat me. He teased me. Being the most poplar guy in school didn't help me either. Everyone copied what he did. I never got over it Harry. He scarred me. And I saw him. I yelled at him. He just said that I haven't changed at all and I’m still just as pathetic and it just pulled me back to the past. My past hurts so much Harry. I can still feel the physical and emotional pain I went through. Every single one”. 

“Niall I’m so sorry”. Niall shrugged and kissed Harry lightly. 

“We’ve both been through a rough time”.

“But yours was worse. I haven't been beaten since the age of five”.

“Harry I thought we weren't going to talk about that again”. It hurt Harry to think of what Niall has been through. He really wished he could fix it. But he didn't know how. He didn't want it happening again either.

“Niall I just care about you. You know that right?” Niall was overwhelmed with how much care and love Harry had given him. It was a massive shock really. No one had ever really cared apart from Greg. Now Niall knows why he and Greg had that connection. They were brothers. They had the same mother and father. Although he does think that when Greg was born, they took him to an orphanage but as soon as Niall was unexpectedly conceived they had decided to do the same because they still hadn't been able to handle a baby. They were poor, broke. That was no place for a child to grow up. Even though Niall would have much preferred that then what he actually got but he couldn’t be ungrateful. He probably got a lot more than some kids get. He didn't live on the streets. He got fed. Sort of. Really in a homeless child’s point of view, Niall was really lucky. 

“I know Harry. And I care about you too”.

“I don't know where I’d be without you Niall”.

“I don't know where I’d be without you”. They smiled lovingly to one another. 

“As long as we’re together, no one can touch us”. Harry kissed Niall softly. 

“Exactly”. Niall hummed as he snuggled up against Harry, hugging him tightly. Right at that moment, he knew he could never be happier. As long as he had Harry, nothing can ruin him. “Oh I want you to hear this song!” Niall ran out of the room, running back in with his guitar and sitting on the bed, opposite Harry. Harry watched him curiously as Niall smiled and began to strum. 

“You don't understand, you don't understand

What you do to me when you hold his hand.

We were meant to be but a twist of fate

Made it so we had to walk away.

'Cause we're on fire.

We are on fire.

We're on fire now.

Yeah, we're on fire.

We are on fire.

We're on fire now.

(One, two, three)

I don't care what people say when we're together.

You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep.

I just want it to be you and I forever.

I know you wanna leave.

So come on baby be with me

So happily.

It's four A.M. and I know that you're with him.

I wonder if he knows that I've touched your skin.

And if he feels my traces in your hair

I'm sorry, love, but I don't really care.

'Cause we're on fire.

We are on fire.

We're on fire now.

Yeah, we're on fire.

We are on fire.

We're on fire now.

(One, two, three)

I don't care what people say when we're together.

You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep.

I just want it to be you and I forever.

I know you wanna leave.

So come on baby be with me

So happily.

So happily.

(One, two, three, four!)

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

We're on fire now.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

We're on fire now (we're on fire)

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

We're on fire now.

I don't care what people say when we're together.

You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep.

I just want it to be you and I forever.

I know you wanna leave.

So come on baby be with me

So happily.

I don't care what people say when we're together.

You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep.

I just want it to be you and I forever.

I know you wanna leave.

So come on baby be with me

So happily”

Harry’s smile widened as he watched Niall put the guitar down.

“I wrote it when you…well when you left. I just never got around to singing it to you. Did you like it?”

“It was perfect Niall. I love you”. Niall felt so loved at this moment. The most loved he’s ever felt. And it was all Harry. Harry was his happiness. 

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hiya!!

I have some busy weeks ahead so don’t count on daily updates or anything…

also I don’t have any idea why I chose the name Luke. I fucking hate that name!!

anyway please please vote and comment!!

I love you xx

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