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Pha kissed and shut me up. But what truly shut me up was the fact that he said,

"I love the troublemaker. He is the right one for me. Then how?"

He pulled away from me and looked at me with abit of unsurety despite his initial bravado. I looked up at him, my eyes full of unshed tears and I sighed.

"I am sorry for keeping this from you. I got so insecure when Suthee came into your life. I felt I couldn't compare. I wasn't the one for you or so I felt. But only I know how incredibly jealous I felt whenever you told me you were with Suthee. I love you Pha. Way too much then I chose to admit."

Pha looked at me quietly. I wasn't sure if what I said registered in his head.

"Look at me. Look at me Ming. I love you and only you. That's all that matters and should matter. Remember that ok?"

I nodded. Pha leaned forward to kiss me deeply. I moaned softly into the kiss and my tears finally came down, peppering our lips. Pha kissed away the tears, then my lips, my cheeks, my nose and finally one on my forehead.

"Please talk to me next time ok? That's all I ask."

I nodded my head. Pha sighed softly and just pulled me in for a hug again. I held onto him tight, breathing in his scent deeply. I had missed him so fucking much. And with my brother and mom leaving too, I was feeling very very vulnerable.

Pha held me tight and then finally got me to shower. He brought me to shower and he did so with me, holding me tight in the showers while I just sobbed my pain away. He changed me into a fresh set of clothes and blew dried my hair. All of these actions were so casual but yet it felt so intimate and special to me.

I watched him from above as I sat on the floor, peering up at Pha who just dried my hair for me. I looked down and faced the TV, catching his reflection looking at me. He smiled at me, patting my head softly and just kissing me at the side of my head.

He sat down next to me once he kept the hair dryer away. "You ok?"

"Hmm."

"It be ok all rights? There is video call, zoom meetings, you can also fly over when it's holidays ok?"

"Yes P.."

"P again!?"

I turned to Pha in surprise. "Sorry I didn't.. "

Before I could complete my sentence, Pha kissed me again. "P"

He kissed me again. "What is this P?"

He kissed me again. "Phanaaaaa"

He finally stopped and grinned at me. "I love you. You love me. Stop calling me P. Only Pha or Phana. If not I will keep kissing you till you drop."

I smiled cheekily at this Pha who was being so silly over such a small thing. I leaned in to kiss him deeply, initiating it on my own this time. Pha kissed me back, leaning me over gently. He kissed me deeply and I felt like my soul was being sucked out. He dipped down to kiss my neck and softly nibble away at it. Pha pulled my shirt off me and I pulled his shorts off at the same time.

As I laid back, Pha took the opportunity to pull off his shirt and he went down on me. He cast me lustful looks as he blew me. I couldn't help but moan constantly and I gripped him tightly. Pha kissed me up from my inner thighs to my abs coming slowly up. He looked me in the eye; lost in the heat as he inserted himself inside.

I felt my entire body wrap itself around the intruder, every instinct telling me to push off due to the pain I felt. I yelled loud enough for a flock of seagulls to take flight, but I ended up reaching back and pulled Pha further into myself. The spasming suddenly stopped, and I could feel my entire body relax. It was by far the most pleasurable feeling and I couldn't help but crave more.

I whimpered as Pha pulled himself out, wanting him again and again. Pha kissed me softly, nibbling away on my lips, refusing to let go either. He finally pulled away slowly, getting a cloth to clean us up. He then carried me bridal style and laid me on my bed, collapsing next to me.

I turned over to him, wincing from the pain softly but wanting to be near him constantly. Pha put his arms around me and kissed my forehead, murmuring I love you. I smiled and then I slowly knocked out. We fell fast asleep till about 6am when the alarm rang. We got ready and I popped on a painkiller too before leaving for the airport.

As my brother and mom got ready for check in, my tears flowed down uncontrollably and involuntarily. I held onto my brother and refused to let him go. He ended up crying too. Pha held onto me tightly as they said goodbye and checked in.

I watched them leave and out of sight. I sagged and Pha held onto me.

"It be ok. It'd fine. I'm here for you too ok?  Shall we go home?"

I turned to look at Pha. I nodded my head and he smiled at me. We went back to my dorm and he said he will stay over for the day after getting his things from his place. I nodded and Pha, true to his word came back in less than an hour with his clothes and books.

Pha made me lunch as I just laid on the bed, moping, not very proud of it but I was moody.

However Pha was a trooper, quietly just fussing over me and being by my side with not a word of complaint or fuss. I just laid on bed staring at my phone for a call despite knowing there were still hours more.

I sat up finally around 4pm and found Pha studying. I just watched as he mugged, his hair flopping about carelessly. He looked up and saw me. I just raised my hands and beckoned him over. In 2 seconds flat, he was by my side, hugging me.

I held onto him tightly, holding back my tears.

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