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AU Studen/Teacher

My alarm went off at 6:30 as usual on monday morning. Now you might think that I'm all tired and crumpy because it's monday but I'm the totally opposite. You see, on mondays we have a two hour long class with Mr. Payne and you can say that I have a sligh crush on him. But his tight trousers and those glasses are just so damn sexy.

My friends know how I feel towards him and they take every opportunity to mock me about it. They are cool about me being gay and all but they just thinks it's funny that I like Mr. Payne. I don't understand how they can't see how sexy he is. But maybe it's good, I can have him all to myself now. Well, all to myself in my mind. He would never actually go out with me. Not just because he's my teacher but he's older than me and would probably never even consider dating be. But I've never cared much about boys, dating and that stuff until the first time I saw Mr. Payne. Now that's all I can think off.

Don't get me wrong, I have dated a few boys. I've slept with two of the boys I dated but I've never been in a real relationship with anyone of them.

I rush out of the shower and put on some clean clothes before I head downstairs. My mom was already in the kitchen, making me breakfast.

"Morning sweetheart." She said and kissed my cheek.

"Mornig." I simply answered. I ate my food as fast as I could and was out the door before my mother even had the chance to tell me goodbye. I had to pick up Niall and I don't wanna be late to Mr. Paynes class. Niall was slow as usual and I had to honk three times before he was out the door. Mrs Horan waved us goodbye in the window and we waved back.

"Wow, Styles I know you really wanna get to class and see Mr. Payne but we can't be there if we're dead. Slow down." I hadn't realized I was going so fast. I blushed and slowed down. Niall just looked at me and laughed his usual loud laugh that made everyone else laugh. We got to school five minutes before we started.

"Niall if we come in late I'll kill you. Why you have to be so damn slow in the mornings." I said as we ran inside and to our lockers. We grabbed our books for History as fast as we could and we got there just in time. We got to our seats in the back next to Zayn. As alwayse he had his face buried in his phone texting someone. He had been texting someone none stop lately and he won't tell us who it is. I tried to lean over and look but he locked it and put it down. I was just about to ask him about it but the class started.

"Okay class. Today we're going to talk about Sweden, remember I told you to read the book I gave you last monday? Well, I hope you have. Now someone tell me something about Sweden.." Mr. Payne said and looked through the room. When his eyes fell on mine it was like they lingered there for just a few seconds more than the others. But it was probably just my imagination. Chris, a boy in our class raised his hand. Mr. Payne nodded at him.

"It's between Norway and Finland. And their capital is Stockholm."

"Yes, good. For ten year old. Come on, anyone else??" A few students lauged and I could see Chris blush.

"Silence." Mr. Payne's eyes fell on me. Me smiled lightly.

"Harry. Please tell me something about Sweden." I blushed but I have no idea why. I searched for the words in my mind. I have read the book but it was like my brian just shut down and wouldn't allow me to think straight.

"Uhm, well. They have a king but he's not really in charge, the Prime Minister is. Fredrik Reinfeldt I think his name is." Mr. Payne nodded.

"And what's the king's name?" Oh I know this. Or at least I did. Fuck.

"Oh uhm. Carl Gustav...?" I asked unsure.

"Yes, well Carl the 16th Gustav actually."

The class went on and honestly I couldn't concentrate much. It felt like Mr. Payne always looked at me a little longer than the others and once it even looked like he winked at me. But of course it was just my imagination, but I still couldn't concentrate. He handed out a paper with ten question that we would answer and without any book because he wanted to know which one actually had read it. I answered eight and I know at least six of them were right.

"I also have to inform you that Mrs Henderson is sick today and we have yet to find you a substitute so you don't have math today." He said while collecting our papers. Everybody started to cheer and shout. We had math after this class so that meant we had one and a half hour break until English.

"So I'm gonna hand out a text I want you to read. We have fifteen minutes more but you can leave now, but that means you have to read it at home or you can stay and read it now." Almost everybody stood up and left and Zayn and Niall did the same. They looked at me when they saw that I didn't stood up.

"You coming Styles?" I shook my head.

"I don't have time to read this at home." Zayn smirked and leaned down.

"Want some alone time with the teacher, eh?"

"Shut up." I said and hit his arm. They just laughed as they exit the room. I looked up to find that I was the only one that had stayed. I sighed and looked down at my paper. I felt Mr. Paynes eyes on my the entire time. It was hard to read the text while it was just us in the room but after fifteen minutes reading a text that should've taken about five or six minutes I walked up to Mr. Payne. He smiled as I walked towards him.

"I need to talk to you about something." He said. I looked from my feet up to his eyes.

"It's about your grades. They were really good just a few months ago but the last tests we have had the points have been low. Why is that?" I gulped and looked down at my feet again.

"I don't know." I said quietly.

"Do you think that the things we've been studying is hard?" I couldn't exactly tell him that the reason is in fact himself. That I can't concentrate when he wears those tight trousers and just look so incradibly hot.

"No, not really."

"Then what is it?" I blushed even more now.

"I can't tell you why." I said and looked at him. He was much closer now than before. He put his hand on my knee and squeezied it lightly. My eyes fell on his hand and then his eyes. I couldn't look longer than just for a second before I started to blush even more. God why am I such a loser? His hand moved a little higher. Not much, it was barely noticeable but I noticed. I need to get away from here before I do something stupid.

"I need to leave." I stood up and looked at him for just a second before I was out the door.

* *

This can't be good. No, I know it's not good. Having a crush on a student? That's a big no no. I really don't know how Louis can manage it, let alone have a relationship with one? Yeah Louis' my best mate and he's a teacher here as well. He teach English and Drama. Just a few weeks ago he told me that he started seeing one of his students but he wouldn't tell me who. I walked into the teachers lounge and sat down next to Louis. I sighed.

"Kids huh?" Louis said without looking up from his phone. I looked at him and rolled my eyes.

"Can I ask you something?" I said. He put his phone away and looked at me. He took a sip of his tea and nodded. I looked around the room.

"When did you know that you liked, you know, and how did you tell him?" He immediately started to smrik.

"Why?" This was a mistake. I shouldn't have aske him.

"Forget I said anything." I said and stood up to make myself a cup of tea.

"Well I don't know when I started to like him but one day I found myself behind him when we was bend over my desk moaning my name. Somewhere around there I guess." I almost choked on my tea.

"Christ Louis. I do not neet to know about your sexlife." He winked at me and we didn't speak more about it. He had forgotten what I had asked and I didn't ask him. If Louis couldn't help me I would just have to do it myself. Liam style. Well, let's just hope he feels the same.

**

"Harry, could I please see you after class?" I looked up from my paper and looked at Mr. Payne.

"Sure?" I looked confused at him but he just smiled. I looked at my friends and Niall just shrugged his shoulders but Zayn smirked at me. I raised my brows at him but he just winked and went back to work. I looked up at Mr. Payne again and he winked at me before he looked down at his papers. My eyes went two times bigger and I swer I made some kind of a noise. Both Niall and Zayn looked at me. 

"What is it mate? It looks like you've seen a ghost." Niall said. I cleared my throat.

"M'fine." Niall shrugged his shoulders again. The ten minutes remaining went by in what felt like a second. I nervously walked up to Mr. Payne whilst the other ran out of the room. After they all had disappeared Mr. Payne stood up and closed the door. I gulped and stared down at my feet. What is happening.

"Are you okay Harry?" He said and stood in front of me. I just nodded, I didn't trust my voice right now. Me put his finger under my chin and made me look at him. I avoided eye contact as best as I could. I blushed like mad. 

"Why won't you look at me?" I took a breath and finally looked at him. His face is literally flawless. How could you not fall in love with that? Wait. Love? Oh I can't deny it anymore. I love him, I'm in love with my teacher. I sighed and moved away from his touch. I already miss it. I need to get away from here. I walked towards the door but he moved so he stood between me and it so I couldn't get out. I felt how my heart started to beat really fast and it felt like my stomach was about to explode any second. But it was not the feeling of love. No I was scared. If I didn't get out of here anytime soon I'm afraid that I'll tell him and I just can't do that. 

"Please I need to go." I was about to cry. I don't really know why but if I was here more than a minute more I would explode. I can't tell him how I feel.

"No, tell me what's wrong." I tried to walk away but he would just move. I started to breath harder. 

"I can't tell you!" I almost yelled at him. I pushed past him and ran out. I ran out to my car and just sat there. A few tears ran down my cheek but I just brushed them away. I remember that my grandma ones told me that the people that makes us weak are the ones we should fear the most. He makes me feel weak, but I just want to be with him. I drove home not bothering about giving Niall a ride. He just have to fix it himself. My mom works when I usually get home from school so she would never notice if I ever get home early. I laid down on my bed and just closed my eyes. I hadn't realized I was asleep until I heard the front door close and my mothers voice shouting.

"Harry I'm home!"

**

Next day at school was a bit awkward. Everbody was wondering why I had so suddenly just ran out of the school. I had just told them that I didn't feel well. No one asked more about it until I was talking to Niall and Zayn. We sat alone in the cafeteria and they were wondering why I left.

"Why don't you just tell him Harry." Zayn said and sighed. I looked at him.

"Tell him?! Are you bloody insane? He's our teacher Zayn, I can't tell him that!" He just rolled his eyes at me. 

"What? Why are you finding this so annoying? How can you not see how big of a problem it can become if I told him I was bloody in love with him!" They eyes went big as an apple. Oh yeah. I never told them about myrealization.

"You love him?" Niall said. I nodded and looked down at the table.

"Don't be such a pussy, just tell him Harry."

"Hey mate, back off." Niall said to Zayn. 

"Fuck off." I said and walked away from them. I could hear them talk when I walked away but I didn't bother listening. Why was Zayn such a dick? I can't just walk up to my teacher and tell him that I love him. That never works. God. 

Our next class was English and I liked English. Mr. Tomlinson was a cool teacher. I walked in a bit late but he just motioned for me to sit down. There was an empty spot beside Zayn but I just sat down in the front. Mr. Tomlinson looked a bit confused at first, I quess it was because we three always sit next to each other but I just can't handle Zayn right now. Class went by fast.

"Harry, could you please follow me to my room. There's something I need to talk to you about." I looked confused at him.

"Your grades." He said. I sighed and followed him. Great, now I'm failing English. We walked into his room but when we got there he just pushed me inside and locked the door so I was in there alone. Or so I thought. I turned around and saw that Mr. Payne sat in one of the chairs. I heart immediately started to beat faster. I sighed.

"I was something to tell you and I want you to not run away this time." He said and walked up to me.

"Well if you didn't notice Mr. Tomlinson locked the door so I'm stuck." He laughed a little and god it was the best sound ever. If I wasn't so good in biology I would say that my heart melted but that's impossible so I'm not saying that. He walked a bit closer but instead of stopping he just contined to move forward until our noses touched. W-what is happening. I was about to speak but he put his lips on mine. He's kissing me. Oh my god Mr. Payne is kissing me! He moved his hands to my hair and I put my hand around his waist.

The kiss was slow and lovely and that was all I could think about until it really hit me. Why was he kissing me? I pulled away and looked confused at him. 

"Zayn told Louis and Louis told me." Oh. Wait what? Zayn told Louis what and Louis told him what? And why did Zayn even tell Louis anything and what? I am so confused.

"I can see that you are a bit confused."

"A bit?" I said and looked at him with wide eyes. He laughed. And there goes the butterflies again.

"Zayn told Louis that you were in love with me and Louis told me." I blushed. But Zayn and Mr. Tomlinson? That still didn't make any sence.

"Why would Zayn tell Mr. Tomlinson that?" Now Mr. Payne was the one to look confused.

"You don't know?" I shook my head.

"Zayn and Louis are dating."

**

"Why didn't you tell me that you and Louis were dating, huh?" I said to Zayn once we were alone.

"I'm sorry. We promised not to tell anyone." I sighed. We sat down at a bench and just stayed quite. After a while Zayn looked up at me.

"How did it go with Mr. Payne?" He said and smirked. I looked up at him and smirked.

"Fantastic."

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