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🕪Recap🕪

"I dont know but something tells me i should go back. I dont feel comfortable being here or being with you"I said

✌End of Recap✌

"Why dont you feel comfortable being here with me?"he said

I looked down

He left my chin up and we were eyes to eyes.

"I don't wanna be here anymore"I said breaking out in tears.

He put me on his chest

"Why tell me?"he said

I looked up and wanted to tell him so badly that he makes me wanna desire him more but i cant

"I don't know. I just want to go home. I dont feel like me anymore. I feel more distant"I said still crying

"But why?. Tell me why aren't you your yourself. I miss the old you. The smily adorable cute funny you"he said

I looked at him

"I dont know"I said standing up and running to the door

"Nobody understands me"I said leaving the room

I ran to the bathroom, locked the door and started crying.

I hate myself. I dont like being here anymore. I wanna just leave and never see him and anyone for a long time.

Why did I make myself like this

I want to tell him so bad. But I can't. I'm always trying but when i see him.

I can already see what hes gonna do after I tell him

1. He's going to slap me

2. Punch the shit out of me

3. Expose me to everyone.

I cant. I really want to go back but if I go. Ivan's gonna go. I just want to stay away from him but he wants to be close with me

🚶30 minutes later🚶

I realized I'm done with feelings and just get out. I decided to call my mom

"Hola mama"I say

[Hi mom]

"Hola mijo como estais"she said

[How are you]

"Estoy normal"I say

[I'm normal]

"¿Mhmm que como que haceis? ¿Como esta Ivan? " she asked

[What are you doing?]

[How is Ivan?]

"El esta bien. Mama te llame porque tengo una situacion"I said

[He's good but mom i called you because Im having a situation]

"Que pasa?"She asked

[What's going on?]

"Mama que haceis cuando tu le quieres a alguien pero sabes que ellos nunca de van a querer el mismo modo"I asked

[Mom what do you do when you like someone but you know they aren't going to like you back]

"Yo creo que hago lo posible para mostrar a esa persona que te juntos con ellos solo para ser amigos"she said

[I think if the other person doesnt like you back then you should stay close to them but just as friends]

"Mhm ok gracias adios"I said

[Ok bye]

I hanged up and went to my room where Ivan was. I was brave. When i talk to my mom i feel more confident

"Hey Ivan"I say

"Hey what's up?"he asked

"Nothing"I said

He looked at me and i looked at him

"Hey Emi. When do you want to go visit mom"he asked

"Um I dont know"i said looking at him

"How about this weekend?"he said

"Idk it's up to you"I said

He is probably gonna be bringing his special person with him.

"Then let's go this week"he said

"Ok and we can vlog about it"I said

"Yeah"he said

Then after that it's dead silence. I dont know what to say but I'm glad I'm going to see my mom again.

💥Skipping to the weekend💥

I wake up and was happy because today im going back to Spain. I cant wait to see my mom i miss her.

I look over and see Ivan sleeping. I get on his bed and get in top of him. Since he was sleeping head up. I was sitting on his.......... . You know what let's not talk about it

DONT JUDGE ME

I start shaking him and he Wakes up

"Emilio stop"he says

"Wake up we have to go to mom"I said kind of swirling my body on his

He looks at me and flips me around and tickles me

"Your happy aren't u?"he said

"Yeah"I said

"Well let's get ready and get going"he said getting of me

We start getting ready and before we know it. Nick is driving us to the airport

💦Ivan's P.O.V💦

🛇At the Airport🛇

I'm glad were going to go see our mom. It's been long since i have seen her.

I'm very happy to actually show her the girl i want to spend my life with. I want her to meet the girl who changed my life. I want her to meet 

Victoria

Im glad Victoria said she wanted to come to meet my mom. She's the special person I want to show my mom and Emilio.

I called her

"Hey"she said

"Hey are you almost here"I said

"Something came up baby. I'll take the next flight to Barcelona. Just send me the address"she said

"Ok I'll send u it. Text me when you get to Barcelona"I said

"Ok. I can't wait. It's gonna be a weekend to remember"she said

I looked over to Emilio and he was I'm his phone. He looked up and i smiled. He smiled to

"FLIGHT TO SPAIN, BARCELONA" the announcer said

"We got to go"I said

We stood up and passed.

We got on the plane and let's just say this week things aren't as always as they appear

Hey guys thanks for reading. Make sure to VOTE and leave feedback. Love you all

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