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The kiss caught me off guard but damn did it feel good, when did this become normal? I found myself wandering but that thought didn't last long before I became absorbed in the kiss. His lips were soft as they pressed against mine, almost nervous. I kissed him back gently and I ran my tongue across his bottom lip, making him gasp. I took the opportunity and slipped my tongue passed his lips and into his mouth, rubbing my tongue against his. Our tongues danced together for the longest time as Jasper clung to me and I held him close.

After a few minutes of kissing I reluctantly pulled away, needing to breathe. My breathing was lathered and my cheeks were hot as I watched Jasper, his reaction the same as mine. His eyes opened and in them was the same emotion I saw those other times.

I gasped aloud as I realized what that emotion was....

Before I could say anything Jasper moved forward so he was sitting on my lap and buried his face in the side of my neck. I wasn't expected his movements at all, where did this confidence come from all of a sudden? I wrapped my arms around his waist, holding him close. He was extremely light and I felt comfortable with him on my lap.

I suddenly felt his tongue on my neck and I gasped, clinging to him. His tongue ran along my neck up to my ear where he bit down softly, causing a moan to slip past my lips. He toyed with my ear for a while before dragging his tongue back down my neck and I shivered from the extreme amounts of pleasure I was currently experiencing.

I wanted more. I carefully pulled Jasper away and he looked at me confused before I began to lay his down gently. He looked up in surprise but lay down anyway and I moved to hover over top of him. His cheeks flushed as he watched me and I ducked my head into his neck, running my nose gently along the side of his neck. I felt him shiver beneath me and damn did that drive me crazy. He moved his head to the side to give me more access so I dragged my tongue along his skin, tasting him. He gasped as my tongue traveled his neck, nibbled my way to his ear. Jasper writhed beneath me and I had to stop myself from moaning at just the sight of him.

I ran my tongue along his ear, nibbling and sucking as he moaned and writhed. I wanted him so badly but I was so scared of doing something that would freak him out. But he was the one that initiated this, so feeling daring, I grind my lower half against his. We both cried out at the same time, a moan leaving both our mouths. Holy crap, that felt amazing. I found myself doing it again and again. We were both a mess, our breathing labored as moans poured out of our mouths.

"Lucas" Jasper gasped beneath me and I had to stop because hearing him say my name like that sent me crazy.

"You okay?" I whispered, staring down at him.

"Y-yeah...I just...i-if you kept going...I would have...." He looked away from me, embarrassed, unable to finish his sentence.

"It's okay, me too" His eyes shot back to me, he looked surprised but I think my words helped a little.

I rolled off of him, deciding it best not to go any further just yet, after all we were both new to this and when it did happen, I'd rather it be in his house where we could be completely alone. I think I'd die of embarrassment if we did something and my parents heard, especially considering they think we're just friends, well I suppose we are. Friends with benefits? I didn't like the sound of that....I'd have to fix that real soon.

How would my parents react if they knew I liked Jasper? Would they be disgusted or understanding. My parents have always been very open minded people and they supported me with every decision I've made so somehow I doubt they'd take the news badly. I knew my parents would always love me no matter what but the idea of telling them honestly scared me.

But I would like to introduce Jasper as more than just my friend, if I asked him to be my boyfriend, would he say yes?

I looked over at Jasper who lay beside me, his hand was in mine and he appeared to also be lost in thought. Would he like to be more than my friend, he doesn't strike me as the kind of guy to kiss someone if he didn't like them but then again he's never had a friend before, he's been locked up in his house for seven years. Maybe he didn't know the difference? No, of course he knew the difference, even if he does shut himself off from the outside world, he still reads and you can learn a lot of stuff from a book so I'm pretty sure everything he needs to know is written down in one of his book safely locked away in his closet.

I feel bad for underestimating him, just because of his circumstances, that doesn't mean he's completely clueless, in fact Jasper seemed to be highly intelligent and handled situations surprisingly well, maybe even better than me.

Hmm, I'd have to introduce him to some of my games, maybe he'd enjoy them, I sure hope he would. I'd love to have someone to play video games with, it's fun getting consumed into a game and playing for hours but at the same time, I imagine it would be even more fun to have someone there with you, playing along beside you. Laughing and joking, together.

There are so many things I want to do but haven't been able to because of my lack of friends but now that I had Jasper those things were possible again and you have no idea how happy that makes me.

I look forward to spending my future with Jasper and maybe just maybe he'd want to spend his future with me, there are still some things we would have to work on but I believe we can do it, together. I can help him overcome his fear of the outside world and we can grow side by side, exploring and adventuring, just the two of us. My thoughts made me surprisingly happy but I knew I was fool to get my hopes up, I don't even know how he truly feels about me yet. Would he even want to be my boyfriend? The thought of him rejecting me made my stomach sink, I don't think I'd be able to handle his rejection. Jasper has become an important part of my life and losing him would feel like losing an arm.

I had to stop overthinking or I'd think myself into a depression, I could just ask him. What would he say? He seems to like me, so that's a good sign but Jasper has only just opened up to being my friend, would he want to open up to being my boyfriend so soon, would he reject me and tell me he only sees me as a friend? Or would he ask me to wait? I would wait for him if I had to, it would be hard and tedious but I'd do it for him, just so long as I got to see his face and hear his voice everyday, I was okay with waiting. But maybe he'd say yes?

My curiosity was too much and I just had to ask him but I was scared, I was really scared. I tried to convince myself to just bite the bullet and go for it but that proved to be harder than I thought. So instead I settled for squeezing my eyes shut and took a deep but silent breathe.

Here goes nothing.

"Jasper?" I turned to face him and he did the same, staring at me, curiously. I was finally going to ask him the question I'd thought over a million times already. I was 100% sure what I wanted by now and that was simple, I wanted Jasper.

"Yeah?"

"Will you be my boyfriend?" He stared at me in shock, his eyes wide at the words that had just left my lips.

He sat frozen, thinking my question over and I felt my heart pound against my chest as I anxiously waited for his response. His gaze never once left me as he seemed to slowly register what I had just asked him. I really wanted Jasper to be mine, to be more than just a friend.

"Y-yes" He stuttered out, a blush consuming his face and making him glow. He looked adorable when he blushed and I just wanted to hold him in my arms, forever.

A smile took over my face at his response and I leaned forward and kissed him softly. I lent my forehead against his, taking hold of his hand and placing it against my chest. I watched as he smiled brightly and took my hand, placing it on his own chest. His heart beat rapidly against his chest and I saw that emotion in his eyes again and this time I knew exactly what it was.

Love.

*****

I walked Jasper home after he said farewell to my parents, he seemed a lot more confident now which made my heart swell with pride. I held his hand after we left the house and we headed towards the hill.

I was expecting the hill to have a number on him too but as we stood at the top I was the only one struggling to catch my breath as he laughed at me.

"How....are you....not....affected by that?" I asked through gasps of breath.

He didn't respond but instead just kept laughing.

After I caught my breath, we headed back into his house and back into his room, where we sat on his bed.

"So what do you think of my parents?"

"They're nice, I like them"

"Good" I grinned, happy that he liked my parents. I don't know what I would have done if he didn't.

"I can't stay for too long" I frowned and watched as he did the same.

"Then let's make the most of the time we have"

We spent what time we could talking and just basking in each others presence and before we knew it, it was time for me to go.

"I'll see you tomorrow" Jasper said as he walked me to the door.

"Yeah, see you tomorrow" I kissed his cheek on the way out and headed home. It was a good night, I thought to myself.

*****

I entered my house to find my parents curled up on the sofa in the living room watching a movie.

"I'm heading to bed" I announced as I stood in the doorway.

"Okay, honey. Sleep well! Oh and we approve of your new friend" My mother replied, her eyes not leaving the screen.

I smiled at their approval, glad that they liked him even though I knew they would, I mean, what's not to like? Jasper was perfect.

"Thanks guys, goodnight!"

"Goodnight, honey!"

"Goodnight, son!"

I headed upstairs to my room and collapsed on my bed. What a day it has been.

I was happy, I realized. It's been a while since I felt truly happy. Today did not pan out the way I expected it too and instead went even better. And I was so glad my parents liked my friend.....boyfriend. I had to stop myself from squealing at the thought. You see what you do to me Jasper?

Something hit me then as I thought about him, the way he laughs, the way he smiles, his voice, his scent, his touch and the thought kind of scared me but excited me at the same time.

I was in love with Jasper Brown.

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