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Monty POV.....

"Baby come on you gotta get up today" I said comforting Kenyamo on the phone. I haven't seen him in a few days since his mom passed. I miss my baby and I wanna be there for him but he's going through some stuff right now. I just hope he doesn't push me away when I wanna be there for him.

"Baby I just can't process that she's not here with me I've been laying in her bed since she's not here I don't want to believe she's not coming back" he said about to cry. I know my baby is hurt right now I was too when my mom died. It's just that Kenyamo was there for me when I was going through it so I need to be there for him.

I'm really going to be there for him. "Bae at least you made peace with her before she left that's the good thing about it" I said and I heard him sigh into the phone. I just hope he doesn't do anything crazy again. He needs to let me be there for him he can't be alone right now. He might think he needs to be but he doesn't.

"Babe can you do me a favor?"he asked me out of the blue after a moment of silence. He knows I'll do anything he wants me to do. I can't leave him alone and it hurts me to say no to him sometimes. "Anything baby boy" I said like I wanted him to need me. I sounded happy and I really was honestly.

I don't know what he wanted but in a time like this he could get whatever he wanted. "Can you come hold me?" he said like he was hesitant. I quickly answer him "yeah bae I'm leaving out right now". He said thank you and I got up and left the house. Amiyah was gone for the weekend at her friends for sleepover.

I got into my car in nothing but some shorts,nike slides and a tank top. I drove over there as fast as I could to my baby. I pulled up to his house. I got out and locked my car. I walked up to the house and it looked different for some reason. I knocked on the door and something told me to turn the knob.

The door opened up and I went inside. I locked the door and started yelling Kenyamos name. I rushed up the stairs and went to his room. I didn't see him in there and his room looked thrashed. It looked as if a tornado hit and fucked some shit up.

I went to every room looking for him. I opened every door and went inside looking for him. I opened the last door and saw Kenyamo laying in the bed. I assume it was his mothers room by the looks of it. "Baby I'm here" I said walking into the room. I laid next to him as he was holding a picture frame to his chest crying heavily.

"I can't believe she's gone and after the way I treated her I'm hurt" he said sobbing as I held him from the back. I kissed his cheek and held him close and let him let out all his emotions. I totally understand what he's going through but he has to process it in his own time. If he's like this I'm scared to see him at the funeral in a couple of days.

"Baby she's in a better place and at rest she's stress free just be happy she's finally at peace and y'all made up before she left" I said nuzzling my face into his neck. He rubbed my arms as they were wrapped around his torso. I felt him breathing and he was breathing steadily while I was here.

I always knew we would find our way back together. I've loved him since we first got together. Even through everything I prayed I would get him back. I really thought it was over when he was with that lame boy. I never wanted any of this to happen but everything happens for a reason. I'm just happy I got him back with me and I'll do right this time around. If I mess up I know I will lose him forever. I can't deal with that again I just won't.

Before I knew it he was fast asleep and I just laid there thinking about what I put him through. I really don't see why he still is in love with me. I'm just grateful he is. I fell asleep holding him and this felt good. We used to do this before his family interfered with our relationship. Even when they was messing with us we still did this it was just after everytime I hit him.

I drifted off to sleep with him and I had sweet dreams of what I could be with Kenyamo. I love the hell out of this boy I would love to even marry him one day if he would even let me. I was fast asleep and my dreams seemed so real to me. I woke up some time later with yelling coming from somewhere in the house.

I looked over and Kenyamo wasn't in my arms. "This is our house too Ken we grew up here fuck you mean" I heard a female voice said. I assumed it was Kassidy because I heard her yelling before I mean she always cussed me out so I know her voice pretty well. "I don't care bitch fuck out of here this my house bye" Kenyamo yelled and I got up slowly.

I wiped my eyes and started walking downstairs. "Fuck is he even doing here?" Kayvon said as I hit the last stair. He really needs to let the hate he has for me go. "He's my boyfriend duhh Kayvon you knew nigga" Kenyamo said with an attitude. Boyfriend? I mean I'm not against it but I'm happy we're back together. "How can yall even be together that fast? you sound dumb" Kassidy said standing up from her seat.

"You dumb bitch! I love him and you won't force us apart anymore he really cares about me so deal with it or get lost" Kenyamo said folding his arms. I love that he's fighting for us and it means alot. He could have just given up and kicked me out. They both looked at me like I was the scum of the earth. "Fuck you and that abusive punk nigga" Kayvon said rising up out his seat. He doesn't know I'll gladly drop him like bad ass habit.

"Kayvon don't get fucked up forreal" I said walking over in front of Kenyamo. Kayvon looked at us like we we're crazy. "This is too much to deal with and momma just died and yall worried about me and Monty once again" Kenyamo said sitting on the couch. I know his emotions is probably all over the place right now.

He put his head in his hands and breathed heavily. "Look we need to get this together for the funeral and pushing us away won't help none of us we're hurt too Kenyamo" Kassidy said getting emotional. They all needed each other at a time like this. Their mother was the glue that kept them together although she was messed up she loved her kids.

I could never say that about her honestly. "Y'all don't get it I did her so bold I disrespected her and I left her here that hurts the most" he said crying and they gathered around him and hugged him. I need to let them have their time alone. "I'll let you guys have your time Ken I love you baby call me if you need me" I said walking to the door.

He stood up and walked over to me. He kissed and hugged me before I left out the door. "Thanks for everything bae I love you so much" he said looking me in my eyes. I smiled and kissed him again before I walked out the door. He went back into the house once I got into the car and drove off. They all going through some shit and they really do need each other at a time like this.

They'll be really messed up if they don't get it together. I know I wish me and my family would've gotten it together sometimes when my mom left. It's crazy that we all fell out over some money but I wasn't going to let them do my mother any type of way. They had me fucked up to the maximum capacity. I just hope they reconcile and fix it before it's too late.

Kenyamo POV...

Day of the funeral...

"I'm not ready for this yet I can't see her like that" I said to Kassidy getting dressed. It's the day of her funeral and I honestly don't wanna break down but I know I might. I'm happy me, Kassidy and Kayvon ironed out everything. We finally are on the same page with each other after the talk a couple days ago. I would go into details but I don't want to. Just know I love my siblings and they understand where my logic comes from sometimes.

"Ken I'm not ready either but we got to put her to rest she would want that at least from us" she said with a crack in her voice. I sat next to her on the bed and just wrapped my arm around her shoulder. I kissed her cheek and she smiled weakly at me. I have hope we'll keep it together today.

I was up last night and I couldn't sleep for shit. I was just go listening to music just zoning. Kayvon has been emotionless I haven't seen him cry or anything. Maybe he deals with his pain differently I guess. "The car is here for us you guys" Kayvon said coming into the room. He looked like he was just out of it I could tell through his shades.

Kassidy and I finished upstairs and we went downstairs to the car. Kayvon was already in front seat so me and Kassidy had the back. We got in and the driver started driving towards the funeral home. The car was filled with nothing but gospel music and silence. Nobody was talking and all I did was stare out the window.

We started pulling up to the funeral home and it was alot of cars here already. I saw a few family members I haven't seen in a long ass time. Seems like the only time I see them is a funeral or family reunion. Sometimes they don't even come to the family reunions like that. "Y'all ready?" Kassidy said and I looked at her and opened the door and got out. Kayvon did the same and so did she.

We went inside and her casket was right there so we were the first to see her. I was holding onto Kassidy and all of a sudden Kayvon grabbed my hand. I looked at him and didn't say a word. We all walked up to the casket holding hands and it was the closest I felt to them in my life. I wish my mom could've seen this on person but I know she's looking down on us smiling.

We stood there and just looked at her. I started crying and Kassidy held me crying as well. It was too much to see her like that. I couldn't have done it alone I miss her so much. I wish I didn't run away the second time. "It's okay Ken" Kassidy said crying while trying to console me so I held her.

Kayvon let my hand go and touched my moms body and just broke down crying. He fell to his knees crying and all we could do was hug each other. All three of us were in a huddle and some people came to console us but they weren't much help. "I can't do this y'all it hurts" Kayvon said as we helped him up from the floor.

We slowly walked to the front down and took out seats while he was still crying. I just hugged him and that's all I could do. After a couple minutes more people started coming in. They tried to comfort us and give their condolences but we just needed each other. Reichen came and hugged Kassidy and I. He sat next to her and then Monty came in greeting us.

I got up and hugged him and I just cried silently into his chest. "It's going to be okay I'm here and you'll be fine baby" he said kissing my forehead. He sat behind us with some family members. Even Jerari came in and tried to talk to us but I didn't give him the time of day. I'm sorry but I've forgiven everybody but I haven't forgotten shit.

He went and sat somewhere and the funeral started. The pastor started talking about my mother and even cracked a few jokes that lightened up the mood. We all knew him from our church when we were younger. The choir sung a couple of songs and then it was time for people to talk about their time with my mother.

Kassidy and Kayvon looked at me and I didn't know if I could really do it. I just couldn't at least not by myself. Kayvon stood up and went to the podium. He stood there and started talking like he was nervous. "My mother was a very beautiful, courageous, no- nonsense type of lady" he started off but then he took a pause.

He took off his shades and wiped the tears from his eyes. He looked at us and we got up and stood next to him while holding hands. "She loved life and was very opinionated and as her kids we got it the worst" Kassidy said and there were a few chuckles. They looked at me to say something but I was speechless.

"Our mother did whatever it took to make sure we were good and even though at the time it hurt now you understand where her heart was at the time" I said looking at Monty who was staring right at me. I just started crying and turned my back to the audience. I was sobbing and I felt arms wrap around me.

"I got you little brother" Kayvon said hugging me. I hugged him back and we turned back to the audience. "Take your time sweetie" I heard a lady voice say and I just stood there preparing for words to say. "That woman cared about everybody she cane in contact with and to know her was to love her so no matter what she did she did it with love in her heart we'll miss you mom" I said looking at he casket as if she could see and hear me.

We left the podium and sat down st our seats. Monty leaned up and kissed me on my cheek. I smiled and kept my focus forward. "Okay choir take us out with a song" the pastor said and they stood up and sung one of my moms favorite gospel songs.

If you want to know Where I'm going?

Where I'm going, soon

If anybody ask you Where I'm going

Where I'm going soon..

I'm going up yonder I'm going up yonder I'm going up yonder to be with my lord...

She used to always sing this when I was a kid and especially when she got really sick. The choir was blowing me away with here vocals. They were making me tear up even more and everybody was on their feet while they were singing. After they were done singing the funeral was over. We had to go to the graveyard to bury her.

We left and got into the car and followed the hearse to the graveyard site. When we arrived we got out and sat next to her burial site in three seats. Everybody started coming towards us and we looked and Reichen and Monty was walking side by side each other. Monty came and stood behind me and put his hand on my shoulder.

Reichen stood behind Kassidy and when everybody gathered the pastor read verse from the bible and said a prayer. After that it was done we put her to rest and she's at peace with everything. We all stood up and took a rose and put it on her casket and watched as the men lowered her down into the ground.

I cried just watching them put her in the ground and Monty leaned down and hugged me from the back. "She's a peace I'm good" I said as we all stood up and walked away. I was going to ride with Monty back to his house since I didn't want to be around alot of people today. The funeral was enough and I did what I had to do. I put my mom to rest that's what was important.

I got into the car with Monty after hugging Kayvon and Kassidy. We drove off and I just wanted to go to his house. I knew it would be people at the house so I didn't want to be there. He took me to his house and we went in and I went straight for his room. I took off my shirt and laid in his bed. He sat on the bed next to me and touched my thigh.

"Baby I want to talk to you about something" he said. I sat up and looked at him with a serious face. "What's up bae?" I said looking him in his eyes. He looked like he was nervous to me. "After today I realized how much I love you and I want to take this to the next level" he said getting off the bed. He stood in front of me and got down on one knee.

I know he fucking lying to me bitch! What the hell is he doing? "Monty what are you saying?" I asked getting worked up as he took out a ring box. He opened it up and it was a nice beautiful ring inside of it. "Kenyamo I'm not saying we have to get it done tomorrow or anytime soon but one day hopefully not too long will you do me the honor of marrying me?" he said keeping his focus on me.

I covered my mouth in shock because I can't believe this. He wants to marry me after all we been through. "Yes I will Monty one day yes" I said kissing him. He put the ring on my finger and we kissed each other. I mean we have alot of things to sort out before we really got through with it. I'm.thinking this is more of a promise ring for marriage honestly. I'm just happy he chose me it's crazy but I do love him and we'll work it out.

Soooooo....

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Sorry for the late ass update but I've been stressed and pressed so please forgive me.

Next chapter coming this weekend for sure. We have a three more chapters left and it's the end. I'll have a whole new book up once the chapter before the FINAL chapter is out.

The new book is called "My Love? For Him" yes the question mark is supposed to be there. It's a very different book than the rest of my books. I'm excited about it and I can't wait for you all to read it.

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