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When we left Max's grandma on Sunday evening I still had to wear my scarf. I was dreading the thought of having to wear it all day tomorrow as well but the hickeys were still there. Once we got home I went to my room and took of the scarf. I looked at myself in the wall mirror and they were still there. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair debating what I should do. I heard a door on the handle and instantly put the scarf back on.

"It's just me." Max said softly coming in. He shut the door behind him and walked over to me taking off my scarf.

"I'm going to have to wear this damn scarf tomorrow." I groaned softly.

"I'm sorry." He said tracing the outline of one around my neck.

"It's fine." I said looking at him. He shifted his gaze up to mine and smiled softly.

"I'm going to sleep I'm tired." He said letting his hand drop. He smiled and leaned down pressing a kiss on my nose before turning to leave. "Goodnight." He said walking out of the room and shutting the door behind him.

I did not understand Max one bit. What did this make us? We're we dating? Probably not, but could we be. Max sure seemed to be lovely and snuck a kiss on me whenever he could. That didn't mean anything though, or did it? I was so confused but I didn't have any time to talk to him because we were never alone.

I took off my clothes and sat on my bed in my boxers trying to do my math homework, but I just couldn't focus. It was a mix of things from lack of sleep, too max, too just plain not wanting too do it. I finally finished the last problem after hours of trying and spacing out. I looked at the clock, it was already one AM.

I quickly stuffed everything in my backpack and put it on the ground next to my bed before getting under the covers. I stared up at the ceiling and just thought. I thought about mom, I wondered where she was, I thought about Stella, I wondered where she was too. I needed to call Stella or something, at least tell her what happened.

I thought more about my mom and wondered why she just left. Who would actually do that? I felt tears prick my eyes but I quickly wiped them away before they fell. Ever since she had left I had felt a nervous feeling in my gut. Was I such a failure that she had to leave me? Was all of this my fault? Or was it her own selfishness? I felt a headache coming on and knew I needed to stop.

I got up from my bed and walked out in the hall quietly closing the door behind me and sneaking down the hall. When I got to Max's I cracked open the door and walked in the room. I walked over to the bed and pulled up the covers and got in beside him. I got as close as I could to him and then closed me eyes.

"You're no good at sneaking in." He said softly as he put his arm around me and pulled me close. I just laughed softly and closed me eyes. Soon, enveloped in Max's body heat and the warmth of the blankets I feel asleep.

The next day I went through school tired and hungry, I woke up late so there was no time for breakfast. At lunch I ate some macaroni and cheese and sat by Summer and Max. Summer was drawing, like always, and Max was working on math homework. "Why are you wearing that scarf Wynter? Isn't it too hot?" Asked Summer.

I felt a blush rise too my face. "It's much too hot... I just have too wear it though."

I heard Max chuckle and he looked at Summer. "I gave him hickies that's why." He said. He looked back down at his homework and Summer smiled at me. At least she wouldn't tell everyone, Max knew that too.

After school I walked to work with Isabel. "We haven't talked lately." Said Isabel. That wasn't true though because we talked everyday after school. "Let's hang out one day soon."

"Okay." I said as we got too work. Monday's were always slow so it basically consisted of us sitting in the back room taking and then sweeping at the end.

"So you and Max are friends again." Isabel commented.

I nodded, "That day you dropped me off fixed everything." I said smiling.

"So are you two together yet?" She asked me.

"No." I said. All though I wasn't sure myself.

"I thought you would be together by now." She said sighing softly. "I'll just have to keep on waiting."

"Yeah, probably forever." I said smiling.

"Oh come on. Just ask him out, how could he say no?" She asked, "You two are perfect for each other!"

"Maybe one day." I said softly shrugging. Isabel let out a long exasperated sighed. I didn't understand why she was so upset, I didn't do anything.

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Everyday for the next two weeks Isabel kept asking me about Max. I kept telling her to stop, but it got worse. When I left work on Thursday I couldn't have been more relieved. I got home had dinner and then went up to my room and laid face down in my bed. I had come to accept that Max's house was now mine.

I sat up and pulled out my laptop looking through all my emails. They were mostly spam or school assignments that were due. I started deleting until I came across one form Stella, a few days ago I emailed her about mom and everything. I guess this was a reply.

Dear Wynter,

Mom's an idiot don't you think? I'm sorry about everything and that I've been so distant. This summer I want you to come visit me! I moved to Virginia, did you know that? I don't think I ever told you before now. Anyways, I would really like you too come visit! I miss my little brother. Keep in touch until then, we'll work something out.

Love, Stella.

I read it over again and smiled. I guess I was going to Stella's for part of the summer. I mostly happy that she had replied to me and was talking to me. I closed my laptop and smiled taking off my glasses and laid down. I smiled softly and I must've drifted off to sleep.

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