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‘How long has it been?’

 

 

I asked as my fingers took over playing with the hem of my blanket.

 

 

I afterwards scratched my temple as the itchy sensation of the bandage came back to my facial skin.

 

 

By the stink of the medicine, sound of a beeping machine nearby and the feel of the artificial coolness of the air-conditioning, I knew I am back here at the hospital.

 

 

Back to reality.

 

 

Back to blindness.

 

 

I woke up several hours ago and Alli’s presence in the room was enough comfort for me.

 

 

‘Almost three days.’

 

 

She replied.

 

 

I was genuinely surprised at that.

 

 

I never thought I’d slept that long.

 

 

It felt like it all just happened last night.

 

 

‘Does Greg know?’

 

 

I asked meekly…hoping for a ‘no’.

 

 

‘No.’

 

 

She replied.

 

 

‘But he’s very worried on why did you suddenly blacked out for almost three days without any concrete cause.’

 

 

I frowned.

 

 

I don’t want Greg to worry.

 

 

I don’t want him to risk his job just to look after me.

 

 

I don’t want to be a burden…to anyone.

 

 

I sighed.

 

 

‘I’m sorry.’

 

 

I uttered almost a whisper.

 

 

I felt the mattress sinking in with newfound weight, feeling her presence closer beside me.

 

 

I felt her soft, gentle hands cupping my hands.

 

 

‘Honey, don’t be. We just want to know why you run off like that. One night, I got a call for a missing patient. And then by sunrise, that same patient miraculously appeared at the E.R. all wet and cold and weak and pale. The other nurses said he looked like he had drowned and fortunately got resuscitated in time. Thankfully, someone brought him here sooner or else, he must’ve died from hypothermia. You’re lucky they called me first, Niall, and not your brother.’

 

 

‘Sounds like I owe you bigtime.’

 

 

‘No. You owe, whoever your savior is, bigtime. But, yeah. Maybe you owe me one, too. And the least you can do is to tell me what happened.’

 

 

‘I’ll try…’

 

 

I said as I’m not sure if my head would be able to recount last night’s affairs.

 

 

‘But Alli, where’s Zayn?’

 

 

I asked Alli all of a sudden.

 

 

‘I-I don’t really know.’

 

 

She answered.

 

 

‘Hey, do you think he might probably be the guy who brought you here?’

 

 

I let that query float in the air of silence as I wasn’t quite sure what I’ll answer.

 

 

Suddenly, a familiar ache occurred in my chest.

 

 

This feeling, this pain…I’ve felt it before.

 

 

Missing someone you wish were there.

 

 

Alli’s question circled in my mind.

 

 

Where is Zayn now?

 

 

Could it be possible that he got me back here?

 

 

Did he save me?

 

 

If he did, wouldn’t he be here with me now?

 

 

Comforting me and telling me stupid jokes?

 

 

Where is he?

 

 

But memories of that night started flashing in bright white stripes in my head reminding of the answer to my questions.

 

 

Moments of that twilight reappeared.

 

 

Words from a familiar voice, beautiful and painful, bombarded my senses in unison.

 

 

Tears, the feeling of the cold wet teardrop bursting out of my damaged orbs came back to life.

 

 

But this was not in my head anymore.

 

 

It’s happening in reality as I felt a hand stroking my back and a gentle angelic voice of a woman soothed me with her ‘It’s alrights’.

 

 

‘He…he…Zayn…he did this to me!’

 

 

I cried as the terrible reality punched me once more of its cruelty.

 

 

‘Zayn…he…’

 

 

I choked up and my throat felt so tight the words can’t come out anymore.

 

 

That’s why he’s not around!

 

 

That’s why he’s not here!

 

 

He blinded me!

 

 

I am alive…but I think I’ve died long before.

 

 

When I was blinded. When I was tricked. When I was played at. When I fell in love. When I knew it all.

 

 

‘Shhhh…’

 

 

Allison comfortingly held me in an embrace and that’s all it took for me to cry it all out.

 

 

Although the feeling of safety and protection was all I could feel that moment within Allison’s arms, the agony was just too much for me to not bawl my emotions out.

 

 

I’m so tired of this eternal horizon of pain…I badly want to feel an end for all this hurting.

 

 

And I hope, I really hope, I’d live to feel it.

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So i found this photo...

HOw cute is Alli in her Nurse cosplay costume???

Right?

She's so cute!

Where can i buy an Allison Harvard?

I want one!

*pout*

 

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