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CHAY'S POV

"I hate you, I hate your smile, I hate everything about you" I said annoyed talking to Macau's photo in my phone. The one I took before because he is smiling so cutely.

Three days from now that I keep on staring and talking to his photo.

Because It's been two weeks since we didn't talked after our argument in the kitchen.

And I'm kind of missing him even if he is kind of boring sometimes.

Last time I saw him talking to a guy, I'm so angry with them, that I want to kill the guy.

I mean hit, Killing is brutal I can not do that yet I guess.

I want to do that because I'm really angry that time.

Because why do they need to be so happy talking to each other. They even look like they flirting with each other.

He told me that he doesn't have any friends aside from me. But now I think he found a better one than me.

It's so frustrating thinking about Chay having a new friends.

Is it really a friend?

Now I feel like I am all alone again.

"Don't worry self I still love you," I said comforting while tapping my left shoulder.

Then got up from my bed and started singing on top of my lungs.

I don't care if they will hear me, I only want to voice out the frustration I've been feeling this past week.

"BA BA BA, BA BA NA NA, BA BA BA BA BA NA, BANANA, POTATOE NA, BANANA" I don't know how many times did I keep on repeating that song.

Now I'm jumping happily on my bed while singing on top my lungs again.

"CHAY CAN YOU STOP SINGING LIKE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE IN THIS HOUSE" someone shouted at me.

Then I saw Macau standing at the door.

"DID I ASK YOU TO LISTEN TO MY SONG?" I shouted back.

"NO, BUT YOU ARE ANNOYING, YOU'VE BEEN SINGING THAT STUPID SONG OVER AND OVER AGAIN," he shouted back again while looking at me like he doesn't care.

And that hurts my feelings.

"YES I'M ANNOYING, BRAT, STUPID WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT TO ADD ON THAT?" I shouted hurt

Because I'm really hurt of the way he looks at me.

"I have a visitor Chay, can you sing later when we finish?" he said sternly.

Now he is bringing someone is his room huh I murmured to myself feeling  hurt again.

That feeling like someone's stabbing you in your chest, that's the feeling Macau is giving me right now. And I hated that.

"It's okey Macau, I have go because I have an emergency in the hospital. I really need to go, let's meet up again some other time." said the guy that I saw with him last time.

Then Macau looked at me with disappointed.

"Okey, then I will go with you outside," said Macau then they left.

I don't know why I'm so angry seeing them together.

They both ruined my mood again.

I lay down on my bed and covered myself with the duvet cover.

I'm sulking like a kid again.

Then after some time, I can feel the hot tears rolling down my eyes.

"What is this why am I crying?" I asked myself confused wiping the tears.

I hug myself and cry without any sound.

Thinking of Macau and that guy hurts me, but why?

Why am I hurting like like this?

My tears didn't stop at all even if I wanted too.

I don't know why they keep on coming out. The last time I cried like this is when Kim and I broke up.

Then I heard some knocking on my door.

I let them knocked till they get tired because I don't want them to see me in this state.

Still under my cover sniffling.

Then I heard my doorknob opening and someone is walking towards me and sat down on my bed.

"I'm sorry for shouting," i heard Macau said in a low voice.

"Get out," I said still angry at him. I don't know if he recognises my voice.

"Are you crying?" he asked worried trying to pull my cover but I tightened my grip on them.

"No I'm not," I lied but my voice betrayed me.

"Chay can we talk, I want to see you," he said still pulling my cover.

"Now that you have new friend why do you still need to talk to me, huh? " I said hurt now my tears are rolling down again.

"Chay please come out, and let's talk this out"

"No I don't want"

"Please"

"No"

"Okey then,"

I thought after that he will left me by myself, but I was wrong. I can feel him lie down on my bed then now he is hugging me.

"I'm sorry okey," he said tightening his hug.

Now my heart beating went crazy and my cheeks are getting warmer.

It's good that I am under my cover or else he will see me blushing.

The first person I felt like this before was Kimhan, but why I'm feeling the same way to Macau now.

"Can you forgive na?" he said like a kid.

Now I'm imagining his face saying that word to me. Cute eyes with pouty lips staring at me.

And now I'm smiling like an idiot under my cover.

When I realized what I am doing I wanted to hit  myself because of that.

This is not good I said trying to erase him inside my head.

But how is that possible if that guy is hugging me right now?

Now I'm all sweaty under my cover that I want to  breath some fresh air, but I don't want to face him yet.

"Chay why are not talking anymore, are you still angry at me?" he asked again.

"Can you please get out first, then let's talk after" I said shyly.

"Why do I need to go out I want to talk to you now" he murmured

Now I'm debating if I will tell him the truth?

And one more thing, I don't look good after crying and smells sweat staying under my cover for a while.

"If you don't go I will not forgive you," I tried to trick him. I dont know if it works

"If I will go you will forgive me?" he repeated.

"Yeah, just go and I will call you after when I'm ready."

"Okey," he said then got up. I waited till the door till it open and closed before removing my cover from myself.

"Why do I need to suffocate myself inside, now I'm full of sweat." I said kicking my cover like a kid.

Then when I got up, I scream on top of my lungs like a teenage girl when I saw Macau leaning on my door frame.

Photo you might need today...

Don't stare to long because someone might poke your eyes. 😂😂😂

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